Bit off more than I can chew...

Lately I've been trying to make some positive changes in my life. A few of you mentioned to me that I was running a little too fast with this and I should have listened. The phrase "burning the candle at both ends" comes to mind. Now I'm so freakin overwhelmed with everything. I feel pretty damn low and I'm trying desperately to hold onto the changes I've already made and not backslide, but I feel like I'm slipping further and further every second toward failure. I feel like a complete idiot for not listening to the wisdom that was offered and having to crawl back for support. Guess that my own world is more than I can handle all at once. Thanks for reading.

ryan

((((((((((((((((((((( ryan )))))))))))))))))))))))) i've been where you're at in the healing process.

not to make it light or anything but, much like a diet, therapy and facing our issues can start off very "gung ho" and with great results and then we're left feeling worn out and deprived. like a diet also, it has plateau'ed with me.

you have to put in what you're taking out here. you have to make sure to keep replenishing the resources that you're using up...it needs to be paced in order to do that. you've made huge steps in "putting it all on the table" you have quite a spread in front of you...now, just be careful in choosing from your spread only what you can chew and digest right now. the rest will wait until it's time for leftovers

be very good to yourself right now. you may have to "shut down" for a few days to regain some of your resources. have a day in bed with the t.v.? sounds good to me...i wanna!

i'm here if you need me.

kd

Thank you so much Kimmy. You're absolutely right. That's what I'm gonna have to do. Too bad I can't take a bed/TV day. I've got a 14 straight days of 12 hour nightshifts starting tonight. It's gonna be hell, but at the end my mom is coming to visit and I've got 4 days off in a row. I just have to make it through. Thanks for the kind words Kimmy. Much love,
Ry

Hi Rem,

Completely agree with Kimmy. When we get a brighter time, I think that we try to grab it, and get back to the 'normal' me as quick as we can. I have had some of this myself recently.

In a way, the rush to do as much as possible seems to increase the disappointment when we feel wobbly again. The 'all or nothing' thinking might be behind this, and I have been trying to enjoy a better time, but with a realistic awareness that there can be a dip anytime.

For me, the hardest thing is not going with the improvements, but getting through those dips. Like Kimmy says, having a few quiet days as and when needed is always a good standby.

Hope it gets easier, and stays that way.

Cheers, Myzen.

{{{{{{{{{{{{REM}}}}}}}}}}}}} Don't be hard on yourself. The natural progression of things is two steps forward, one step back. It's okay. It happens to all of us.

Remember the Hokey Pokey; you put your right foot in, you take your right foot out.

Rem, don't forget we're all here to help ya through the tough times, like you have been there for us
Angie

Yes Rem, you went lately in places in your pass that was really painful for you. And you are dealing with a lot in your present life too. You are drained. I know you have to work but try to take a break emotionally for a little while. Try to concentrate on positive things like playing with your ferrets, your friendship here, music ect.

I hope you feel better soon. Just take one step at a time. We are here for you.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Rem}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

nightdream

Sweet Ryan, just do what you can, baby steps and don't beat yourself up cuz you can't do it all at once, so much at a time, nice and slow wins the race. Don't take on too much at a time that you get overwhelmed. And don't forget you'll get lots of support here. You're a good soul Ryan. ((((((((((Ryan)))))))))))

Ryan - I agree with the others. I especially liked the diet comparison. And even if you slip back a little bit, the path ahead is already beat down a little bit. You'll find your way again. I do believe, I do believe, I do believe. We are all just like the cowardly lion who was brave all along.

Terese

Thanks for the support everyone. I just have to remember baby steps. My face is bruised from falling on it. I'm sure I'll snap out of this soon. Then I'll pick a couple things and try to only run with what I can carry. Thanks again.

Ryan

Good. That will be more satisfying for you, only doing what is more achievable than trying to do everything all at once.

we ALL do what you've done.. All of us.....we just have to get up, dust our britches off and start anew........

september morn is right... "2 steps forward, 1 step back"
i say it all the time cuz i do it all the time....
and that "biting off more than you can chew..."
i believe they call that happiness....
.......happy that you are on the road to real peace inside yourself.
(a doctor might call it hypomania)

its just like working out and you know it! you gotta take a rest after a workout, or you will not reach full potential.
and like work out rests, youre worried about slipping too far behind ( the muscle deterioration that comes from too long a break)

dont even worry about it ryan...
most people workout too hard when they are just making their comeback....

k, im rambling now.
(just dont lay back and let all your success fall...... and dont grip so tight that you lose it completely... maybe now is the time to just crawl or walk instead of run)

Ryan, love the name change. It suits you.