Help Needed, Please!

I am so down right now...I haven't slept in almost three days, and last night I had some horrible flashbacks that brought me into a state of almost giving up everything. On top of that, today was my last session with my T (since I will be graduating on Saturday)...and even though he researched some clinics where I can find some support, I don't think I am going to do it...I don't want to start all over again. I don't know what to do...my T was my only support and now since this line of support has been cut, I don't know how am I going to survive. I am sorry if I sound so pathetic...I just had to vent.

Thank you for reading this and I wish you the best!

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you are not alone - not here at PC

I know how hard it is to leave a T you trust and start looking for a new one - I went through the "I'm not going to find another T" thing - but I realised I still need help and I think you do too - A new T can help you with the symptoms you ar experiencing which are prob worse at the moment because of changing T's - I hope once things have cleared a bit you will make an appt with a new T - we would be starting together - my first appt is june 1st - made the appt today.

take care

I am glad for you P...for having the courage to start all over again with another T. Unfortunately, I don't have that strength, so I guess I am doomed. I will not look for other T...and I don't know if the issue of having my last session with my T triggered more flashbacks or not...but these flashbacks occur more often and with such intensity that I really feel that it happens right here right now. I can't take this anymore. I wish you the best with your new T, P...and please let me know how it goes.
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i may not be in best state but im here for you buddy no matter what .huggs

Thank you Pride! I really appreciate your kind words and hugs! I wish there was a way of erasing all this pain from each and every one of us who suffers so much.
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I hope you change your mind about a new T - it took me a few weeks to decide - dont rush into any decsions - losing a T - even if you knwo its going to happen is hard - especially when you have trusted them - please try to take care of yourself - be kind to yourself - PM me if you want to talk - take care P7

Thank you P! I already pm'd you...if you are willing to help me a bit.

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Hi:
You are in a tough spot. I feel for you. Especailly about the flashbacks. I am the frakkin' queen of flashbacks. I am here for you if you ever want to talk. Just PM me. PSTD is one of the worst things I deal with. I've had to change T's like 4 times this year becuz of Insurances, so I can totally relate. It's the time befor ethe change that is the worst, the worrying , etc, but remember if you don't get a good fit, you can move on to the next one. I had to do that twice and now I've got a real sweetheart and am on the best meds and I am feeling better than I have in 8 years. So there is hope! I know it doesn't seem like it now, but there is hope beyond the flashbacks. Just keep talking/posting it'll help.

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I know exactly how you feel. I had to end therapy with my T in college because I was graduating( this was last August). I was allowed to email her for a few months after therapy ended. Luckily she recommended a new T to me and met with her about my switch. I was really upset at first because I loved my 1st T, however I have grown to love my new T even more. In August I will have been with her for a year. it's funny because just like you, i wasn't going to continue on either, but my new and old T both know each other so i figured old T might find out.While in therapy, I have worked on a ton of issues and still have a LOT of work to do. It also helps with transitioning into the adult world... going from student to actual independent adult. Unfortunately I don't have parental support so I am stuck taking care of myself It helps to have T's support. Don't worry, you will be just fine and all of your feelings are completely normal hang in there and know that you are not alone. I am STILL there with you.

Hi Star! Thanks so much for your words. Living with PTSD is a Hell on Earth. Two days ago, in addition to my physical pain, I had a panick attack which got me to the ER. There, in addition to all the tests they did, they had me on morphine for quite a few hours, and fed me through IV...since I haven't eaten and drank water for a few days. Right now, they put me on Lorazepam and they scheduled an appointment with a new T for next week, Wednesday. We'll see how it goes.

I am soooooo glad you are ok

Good luck with your T appt - let us know how you go - take care of you ok

Hi Star and all my fellow members with PTSD. This is the hardest personal work I've ever done, and sometimes I just wish I could have a brain transplant.

I get so aggravated when things feel unfair. I keep feeling as though I'm re-enacting my abuse everywhere I go. Same themes crop up in the present that occurred in my past.

I was the family scapegoat. What that meant is no matter what happened. If a visiting child broke a lamp I happened to be in the room playing I was the presumed culprit and severely punished for it.

I am here on this forum, because I want to be free of these patterns. I have a career I would like to return to restored to some semblance of wholeness again. I have a lot to offer others and I want the opportunity to do so.

My partner is mystified. She has known me for 24 years and wants to understand my triggers and help me to get back to the person she fell in love with. She loves me dearly and would do anything to help me.

She needs support too, but we haven't found a resource for her yet. This forum seems to be primarily for people who have mental illness, not those who are the family and friends of those with MI symptoms.

I have friends in my life, yet I don't reach out to them like I should. It never crosses my mind to call someone 'just for the heck of it'. So this forum has been a way for me to bridge the gap and at least connect with others who also feel isolated in this healing walk we're doing.

When I don't have that opportunity, I feel sad.

My sweet friend T! I am so glad that you're my friend...you're an angel, and I thank you for all the help and support you've given me so far! If I go to my appointment with my new T, I will definitely let you know how it goes...but you have to do the same thing . How are you doing? What's new with you? You too, take care of yourself!

Hi Sky Dancer...thank you for posting on my thread and for sharing your experiences with us, your PC family. I am sorry to hear about your PTSD problems...it seems that we're experiencing the same things. Now, in regards to some links where the family and friends of people with PTSD can get some info on how to help a person with PTSD, this is one link that some other member gave me when I asked for it: http://www.giftfromwithin.org/html/partners.html . I hope that this is useful for your partner! The only thing I can say is: Don't give up!

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OMG, you too! I'm in same situ, my partner doesn't get my triggers and keeps watching shows about domestic abuse like its no big thing...and it sends me right back to flashback land.
God Bless You

(((((((ptsd))))))))))))))I know . I know. I know. Shrink shopping is The Worst!!! But, it has to be done! In order to move forward, because you know by now you can't do it yourself--all those triggers out there, every stupid litle thing, makes you start crying and doubting yourself again, and felling helpless and alone. Praise to God, we have this format to help and reach out to one another. You are not alone. You have all those others sending you hugs and support and replying with helpful suggestions. That means a lot to people in distress. Please know that you are safe here at PC, and those of us --like me--with ptsd CAN abnd DO understand your mood swings and anger and sobbing and frustration and hoplessness and, and, and, and . . . . T's are a dime a dozen, but GOOD T's are diamonds! Here's praying you find that diamond on the first try! Love isb

How are you doing?