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I am so down right now...I haven't slept in almost three days, and last night I had some horrible flashbacks that brought me into a state of almost giving up everything. On top of that, today was my last session with my T (since I will be graduating on Saturday)...and even though he researched some clinics where I can find some support, I don't think I am going to do it...I don't want to start all over again. I don't know what to do...my T was my only support and now since this line of support has been cut, I don't know how am I going to survive. I am sorry if I sound so pathetic...I just had to vent.
Thank you for reading this and I wish you the best!
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(((((((P)))))))
you are not alone - not here at PC ![]() ![]() I know how hard it is to leave a T you trust and start looking for a new one - I went through the "I'm not going to find another T" thing - but I realised I still need help and I think you do too - ![]() ![]() take care ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]()
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i may not be in best state but im here for you buddy no matter what .huggs
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I hope you change your mind about a new T - it took me a few weeks to decide - dont rush into any decsions - losing a T - even if you knwo its going to happen is hard - especially when you have trusted them - please try to take care of yourself - be kind to yourself - PM me if you want to talk - take care P7
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts ![]() its how many times you get back up! ![]() ![]() (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture ![]() When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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((((((((((((((( P)))))))))))))))))
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Hi:
You are in a tough spot. I feel for you. Especailly about the flashbacks. I am the frakkin' queen of flashbacks. I am here for you if you ever want to talk. Just PM me. PSTD is one of the worst things I deal with. I've had to change T's like 4 times this year becuz of Insurances, so I can totally relate. It's the time befor ethe change that is the worst, the worrying , etc, but remember if you don't get a good fit, you can move on to the next one. I had to do that twice and now I've got a real sweetheart and am on the best meds and I am feeling better than I have in 8 years. So there is hope! I know it doesn't seem like it now, but there is hope beyond the flashbacks. Just keep talking/posting it'll help.
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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I know exactly how you feel. I had to end therapy with my T in college because I was graduating( this was last August). I was allowed to email her for a few months after therapy ended. Luckily she recommended a new T to me and met with her about my switch. I was really upset at first because I loved my 1st T, however I have grown to love my new T even more. In August I will have been with her for a year ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() |
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Hi Star! Thanks so much for your words. Living with PTSD is a Hell on Earth. Two days ago, in addition to my physical pain, I had a panick attack which got me to the ER. There, in addition to all the tests they did, they had me on morphine for quite a few hours, and fed me through IV...since I haven't eaten and drank water for a few days. Right now, they put me on Lorazepam and they scheduled an appointment with a new T for next week, Wednesday. We'll see how it goes. ![]()
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I am soooooo glad you are ok
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts ![]() its how many times you get back up! ![]() ![]() (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture ![]() When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Hi Star and all my fellow members with PTSD. This is the hardest personal work I've ever done, and sometimes I just wish I could have a brain transplant.
I get so aggravated when things feel unfair. I keep feeling as though I'm re-enacting my abuse everywhere I go. Same themes crop up in the present that occurred in my past. I was the family scapegoat. What that meant is no matter what happened. If a visiting child broke a lamp I happened to be in the room playing I was the presumed culprit and severely punished for it. I am here on this forum, because I want to be free of these patterns. I have a career I would like to return to restored to some semblance of wholeness again. I have a lot to offer others and I want the opportunity to do so. My partner is mystified. She has known me for 24 years and wants to understand my triggers and help me to get back to the person she fell in love with. She loves me dearly and would do anything to help me. She needs support too, but we haven't found a resource for her yet. This forum seems to be primarily for people who have mental illness, not those who are the family and friends of those with MI symptoms. I have friends in my life, yet I don't reach out to them like I should. It never crosses my mind to call someone 'just for the heck of it'. So this forum has been a way for me to bridge the gap and at least connect with others who also feel isolated in this healing walk we're doing. When I don't have that opportunity, I feel sad. |
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God Bless You
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(((((((ptsd))))))))))))))I know . I know. I know. Shrink shopping is The Worst!!! But, it has to be done! In order to move forward, because you know by now you can't do it yourself--all those triggers out there, every stupid litle thing, makes you start crying and doubting yourself again, and felling helpless and alone. Praise to God, we have this format to help and reach out to one another. You are not alone. You have all those others sending you hugs and support and replying with helpful suggestions. That means a lot to people in distress. Please know that you are safe here at PC, and those of us --like me--with ptsd CAN abnd DO understand your mood swings and anger and sobbing and frustration and hoplessness and, and, and, and . . . . T's are a dime a dozen, but GOOD T's are diamonds! Here's praying you find that diamond on the first try! Love isb
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How are you doing?
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts ![]() its how many times you get back up! ![]() ![]() (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture ![]() When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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