It's Hitting Me Too Hard

Making me teary isn't bad! They were happy tears..........

Happy tears? Happy about what?? :-/

I made a friend cry the other day with the first song I wrote when I was 14, called Missing You. Her Mum died not very long ago so she felt quite sad But I gave her a hug and stuff and she was okay in the end. Plus one of the guys sat there almost cried too! :O

Shocking stuff with my music... Don't like to make people cry!
Anyways, I've upset Connor by talking to a friend. Sigh. So have to go sort that out now.

Happy seeing you do something so beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm using a dialup connection so the first video isn't even halfway loaded yet. I really like the little bit that I've heard so far, but I'd feel stupid saying any more before I've even heard both all the way through.

I just found this in Wikipedia:I figure that to escape noticing what they'd been doing to you, someone would have to have their head(s) deeply inserted where the sun didn't shine.



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First clip still not done as I post this. Later, babe.

Thought balloon:
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Officially not posted by Fool Zero:

I wonder what else she's that good at, that she
hasn't even told us about yet.

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I didn't say anything.

Well, I've listened to both by now. They're technically pretty raw, of course, but that just gets me imagining how much better you'd sound under proper studio conditions.

You do have a lovely voice, and something about your style comes across as honest and gentle -- for me, quite endearing qualities both. It's a good thing you don't live next door to me, or I'd be pestering you to sing for me far more than was good for you.

If you had a proper CD out I'd buy it in a hot second, and several more to share with my friends.

Thank you very much for sharing those clips!

[quote=ThePainNeverDies;1046139] Thanks. As I said... It's probably the worst version of it that I've done!!! I did a cover of Jewel's Life Uncommon too..



WOW!!! that was great! you have a beautiful crystal clear voice - like a bright sparkiling brook shining in the sun an you play the guitar beautifully

there was a line..... if you let your heart decides you will see what right - sorry memory blank but i think that was it - I think if you listen to your heart and not the warped thoughts of your abusers you will see that youa re a kind and caring person who deserves to be happy

I'm all embarrassed now!
Ummmm. Heh. There are lots of things I can do, but I don't think ny of them are impressive :P

I did a CD when I was 14 and am still running off copies of it for people that have requested it. Although... The recording quality still wasnt great, but it's better than on the video!! The songs on there were covers that I did and I have yet to do them agani with a more matured voice and much more technical skill That is being done either this month or next month, depending on when I can get the studio time and I will also be recrding Wrong and Right, Sunshine of My Life and Missing You, too

The line was... If you just let your heart decide, then you will see what is wrong... And what's right.. I posted the lyrics in the creativity section not very long ago

I was just scrolling thrugh the comments and noticed one from a friend I haven't spoken to in aaaaages. Then Connor read one and said.. "Who's that jammylover???" I shrugged and said I guessed it must've been one of you!! Shocked to see that it's had 41 views already!!!

So that's been an uplifting moment to my morning because I'd woken up feeling wretched, but that's put a huge grin on my face Thankyou everyone

Take good care of that artist, TPND. We'd like to keep her around and performing for a while.

-- Her fans.

ok so now print out your last post and put it somewhere where you can see it for if the darkness returns it can help to see such a positive post

TPND, I just listened again to your song Wrong/Right and afterwards I was going around this site and I was singing your song! I really like it! Can you put it on your profile page somehow so that I don't lose it (so that I can listen to it more)?

Sannah, if TPND chooses not to put it on her profile for whatever reason, you could just "bookmark" or "favorite" it on your computer.

I just checked my (Firefox) bookmarks to make sure I'd remembered to do that. Sure enough (I got a bit of a chuckle out of this) -- at the end of my (fairly long) "Music" section:

Looks like our young friend is in fast company there.

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Hi TPND, were your ears burning?

Ooooooooooooo. I'll try and take good care of this artist considering you want to keep her around and performing for a while yet!!!! The artist side of me's fine, just the other side is a bit loopy

P7, I'll print out that post later on when I am printing other stuff like lyrics and possible album covers out, ready for my CD to be recorded and the covers and such produced and then shipped off all over the world.

Sannah, I'm glad you like it so much!! Although I think if you heard Missing You, you'd get frustrated because it's such a catchy song and everytime anyone that's heard it sees me, they start singing it to me! bit embarrassing at times!! My cousin heard it yesterday and told me off for saying it's not very good. She told me to play at Glastonbury next year. LOL. I said I don't think I'm quite good enough and she said KIRSTEN!!!!!!! Oopsie. I will try and put it on my profile page for you

Yes, FooZe, my ears were burning!!

I've not had the best of mornings again this morning. I woke up late for doing breakfast club, so had to rush to get eady and get there, then people were being quite rude and nasty towards me and I just wasn't ready for that so I snapped a little... and all night I was kept up my horrid, horrid, nasty stomach pains that had me keeling over in pain and I still can't figure out what's caused it

Blaaaahhh. Jason came to me this morning and said about Comic Relief asking to use my story as part of their campaign.Wooo! So I'll be getting a phonecall today I suspect I'm really chuffed about it, but at the same time nervous because anybody could see/read.hear it and know it's me, but hey ho. Not many people know my true story aaaaand Jason also wants to hear Wrong and Right becausehe may want to use it for part of the promotional material for the YMCA. Phew! I'm a busy woman again!

Sounds like you handled it fine. Things happen and letting them roll off you is a good thing..........

You sound like you are doing great!

That's the thing, Sannah...

I'm not doing great. I'm not even doing good. Today, after breakfast club and deciding what to do with my money when I get it tomorrow and after meeting Connor, I felt really lethargic. I just wanted to sleep, but it was sooooo nice and sunny outside, but every time I got up to even just get a drink, I almost collapsed. (: I tripped over everything and in the end just forced myself to go outside with Connor. We did quite a bit of walking, then lay in a huuuuge field for ages watching people walking their dogs (and me complaining at how some people don't realise just how lucky they are to have a dog) and just generally chilling in the sun.. But once we were walking back to my flat, I felt exhausted all of a sudden and like I just wanted to sleep. I don't know why.

I keep breaking out in sweats for no reason. Even in a cold room, sitting down and doing nothing. I feel hot and bothered, then sick, then break out in a sweat and start finding it hard to breathe. I don't get it

And now I've just seen the most sickening, evil video I have ever seen. I can't believe my eyes and I can't believe what I'm reading about the way animals are treated and other such stuff. It makes me want to cry, makes me want to murder the sick b--tards that do this both to animals and people.

I feel awful

Re: Your youtube video

I thought you were very good. Your voice is quite lovely, as is your playing.

Thank you, Spiritual.

When I feel that way, the first thing I think of is how I can arrange to take a nap.

This part is a bit more worrisome...When I feel that way, I wonder if I might be coming down with something (but first I see how I feel after a nap). Btw, what you said earlier about stomach pains reminded me of how I felt when I got something like food poisoning last year. Do take care of yourself.

Now this part sounds like you got triggered:Can't say I blame you at all, from your description.

Your physical symptoms are probably from your anorexia?

Maybe avoid those types of videos?

If I forget to keep hydrated or forget to eat I gt dizzy, and faint epsecially from not drinking enough or any water - take care of you ok

I ried sleeping and that did nothing. I still felt like utter crap when I woke up

It's not food poisoning, I know that because Connor's Mum has been cooking over the weekend and she always makes sure food's cooked properly because she hates having the fat still in meat and such. So that's a no go. I'm actually really unsure as to what it could be. I had it again today even though it was raining!!GRRR I feel really headachey today, too. BUT today was the first time I didn't feel sick on my bus journey to counselling. Yay!! That was because I drank a little bit of milk before I went, to line my stomach and it worked!!

I don't have anorexia... :-/ I don't have an ED... At least. I don't think I do...

I didn't know what the video was about until I saw it. Now I've learnt my lesson not to click on anything that involves animals unless I know what it is! But this has really set me off on my quest to help animals... Once again... Especially my little angel I'm going to write my letter to Shana and everyone tonight. I keep putting it off because I'm scared, but it needs to be done. I'll send it along with Bryony's Birthday card.

I always keep hydrated. I carry water with me, or money to get a drink, all the time.. Of course... There are times when I don't eat... And then I do eat to make Connor happy... So maybe my body's rejecting food... :-/

I don't know. In counselling today, I felt like I wasn't sat in the room, I felt like I was watching myself in the room talking. It was horrid. I kept fumbling with my hands and pulling my fingers about and stuff. I noticed counsellor looking at my hands and for the first time I didn't wear a jumper to the session, so she took some quick glances at my arms trying to make it unobvious what she was doing, but I was conscious of it... I just felt like I couldn't concentrate at all..

I'm glad that you went to therapy

Ummmm. Well. Sian tells me I have an ED but I'm just like.. Yeah. Okay. I agree, but I don't actually agree. I don't think I have an ED, I just think I have trouble eating sometimes.. :-/

I know I need to help myself first but I just think helping animals, having them around me, will help me.. Seeeee? Idk though.

I'm glad I went to therapy too, I just feel so confused and dead and just BLUUUUUUURGH!!!