<-- Me missing T and soon to see him?

I saw my T again and it was a nice session though he can digress like crazy and confuses me now and then...I guess he gives me mixed messages...Still I adore him. He is not like many T's he tells me a lot about himself and I don't ask. I like that but some might not. I do not like when he mixes me up saying I am wrong but not why or how.

I could wrap myself up in a cocoon of T

why that would be

BS as in Black Sabbath? A little Ozzie Osbourne to keep you warm on a cold winter's night...a stand-in cocoon if you will.

Behind the Wall of Sleep
Black Sabbath 1970

Visions cupped within the flower,
Deadly petals with strange power,
Faces shine a deadly smile,
Look upon you at your trial

Now from darkness there springs light,
Wall of sleep is cool and bright,
Wall of sleep is lying broken,
Sun shines in, you have awoken

It rocks....I love it....I should have it as a sigline in the future..Odd as this sounds....I um didn't know Ozzie was with Black Sabbath.......WOW she does rock

It's because I know you want it hahaha you want it so much you can taste it....but alas it will not be yours...yet

I do love the song....its so me

Something that speaks to me deeply...very good petaled one

Odd as this sounds....I um didn't know Ozzie was with Black Sabbath.......

Of course you didn't. This is knowledge bestowed only upon royalty.

WOW she does rock

Of course I do. It's part of the title I keep that YOU are in denial over.

Hahahhaa the head smacking smiley..man she does rock...who would have thought....seems a mellower person to me. YOU want that title......I want you know what SHARE SOME HAHAHAHA

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Petunia said:
Odd as this sounds....I um didn't know Ozzie was with Black Sabbath.......

Of course you didn't. This is knowledge bestowed only upon royalty.

WOW she does rock

Of course I do. It's part of the title I keep that YOU are in denial over.

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Just here thinking in my cocoon

Here with you (hope my diet worked ..) (((((( Sleeps ))))))

Hi Sleeps,

Thinking of you, Sleeps, and sending good wishes your way...take good care of you...

Hugs,
ErinBear

LOVE the new avatar!

Rock on--ancient (thread killer) queen
Follow those who pale
In your shadow

(((((( FUZZYBEAR ))))))) The Diet did work you fit beautifully into my size BEAR cocoon May I borrow a line from you and in my best insect voice GRRRR you the happiest howlodays you can have?

HUGS galore my be-fured friend

Thank you ErinBear I hope and wish for you a blessed and peaceful holiday

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Petunia said:
LOVE the new avatar!

Rock on--ancient (thread killer) queen
Follow those who pale
In your shadow

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Awww thanks Petunia ya know it's an odd thing I got this avatar as a gift from some queen...a lyrics queen I believe

I may use that quote as an email sigline ....I love it

HUGS

Hi Sleeps,

Wishing you a wonderful Christmas too - and every happiness in the New Year...take good care of yourself! Thinking of you and sending many good wishes today.

Take care,
ErinBear

Thank you ErinBear...my day wasn't bad at all...XMas Eve I should have gone to mass...but I didn't ..I did watch it on TV Then I gave most of the pets gifts to them and watched them play it was cute......Today same with the left over gifts and a lot of playing with the dog..I um let him play attrack a puppet on my hand..he had one just like it as a pup and had a blast..I sorta have a blood blister from it but that's ok...I made a half a turkey and all the trim..yep gang you can buy half turkeys and do them frozen by jenne-o I ate too much...someone I kinda know was here and got me a couple gifts ditto back and we watched 2 movies ....we didnt get dressed all day....when we took the movies back we had too and we stopped and had mozzerella sticks then home and showered and wow not long till bed

It wasnt the best XMAS but not the worse so it was OK

Though I will say both days all I thought about was T

Hey sleeps, I know where you are coming from. Keep moving forward my friend.

Audrey

(((( ATG )))) Thank you yes I know you know.....I wanna see T NOW not that I am in crisis or anything...I just would like to see him sooner than scheduled...and yet...why ?

Hi Sleeps,

I'm sorry it's a hard time and you're missing T. My counselor says that whatever feelings you have tend to get more intense at the holidays....and you feel them more deeply. If you're feeling lonely, you can feel more lonely at the holidays. If you've been feeling depressed, that depression can feel even more intense....and so forth. He also thinks it applies to positive feelings. At least in my experience, that has been true. Do you think that could have anything to do with it, and you might be missing T even more with all of the holidays right now? My counselor is away on a long vacation for the holidays, and I know I'm missing him, and this is sure a bad time of year for me. I'll be looking forward to seeing him when he gets back.

In the meantime, are there any other ways of being in contact with your T? Are you allowed to email him, for instance? I know that's not the same, but if that is okay with your T, that might be a way to be in touch even though you can't meet right now. You could also write a letter to your T on paper. Sometimes that helps me too, and I can imagine meeting with my counselor even when we can't meet in person. Of course, it's not the same, but I can write down some thoughts and feelings and save it for him, for the next time we meet, and sort of imagine having a meeting with him. Sometimes that helps me a bit.

But still, I hear you, it's hard, and I send you caring thoughts. Take good care of yourself....

Take care,
ErinBear

((((( ERINBEAR ))))) Thanks as always.....Yeah I can call him at home...or email him but thing is he is on vacation or sorts and I am not in crisis ..but feel this odd NEED to just run to him and like have him hold me..though we don't go around doing that...drat I guess I feel needy but have no real reason for it...I am clueless....
Its like I want to be comforted but WHY? AND man I am eating sleeping pills like pez to sleep at night and again don't know whats bugging me..so if I emailed or called him I would just sit like a big dunce
I am sorry this time of year is hard for you ....seems to be for everyone..Odd thing is once XMAS passed I am cool with it...minus the lack of sun

Hugs

PS ALL..I am behind on PM'S

Are you hooing?

Yes I am hooing ....

I am so very way too deep with the night meds

Hi Sleeps,

I'm thinking something may be bugging you somehow if you feel the need to be comforted, and want to take extra sleeping pills at night. Even if you haven't figured out yet what is troubling you, it sounds like something must be difficult right now. So I hope you'll take gentle care of yourself. If you aren't comfortable calling or emailing your T, can you do some other things that might help yourself? Can you write about your feelings? Or do other things that might help yourself feel better? Those things might differ from person to person, but for me some of those things include having a nice cup of tea, or going for a walk, or listening to music I enjoy....calling a friend....etc. I think it can really help to take especially good care of ourselves when times are hard like this.

Thinking of you,
ErinBear

sleeps, i know the feeling........................ it seems the best thing to run to your T and Im sorry that you have to keep waiting. But know what?, you are very stroong as you seem to be able to control the urge to do it. I wish I knew how you did it. I need to be controling myself with this and seem unable to do so. You are doing wonderfully well with this and I take my hat off to you.

Atg

Hey ErinBear......thing is I have no clue what is bothering me....I am awefully busy the last few days and am tired,,,,body and mind I think but it's more than that just dont know what ......At the same time it seems like I have been being good to me but I dunno I am way needy inside