Is there something you'd like to tell your therapist but you can't?

I can see through the ************ and know what that word is. Yes, that is totally embarrassing, but to help you feel better, I will admit that I struggle with that as well.

I agree that I could NEVER tell her that. I do not understand all this sexual stuff at all. It is like my mind is playing tricks on me!

I'm assuming this is self stimulation? (I hate assuming)
If it helps you feel any better... I've talked about this with my own therapist, and have had several clients talk to me about the same thing. It can be talked about and lived through, believe it or not It's not wrong. I don't know anything about your past - but I can tell you that typically during self stimulation you have to feel very safe with your own body, and fantasizing about someone who is safe and secure is normal. T being that person, again, is normal. It wouldn't (or shouldn't) ruin anything at all.

If I have made the completely wrong assumption, please strike this post and remove it from record.

I've been struggling with my increasing attraction to my T. At first I hated T, then I was indifferent, then I was fond, and now I love her. I love her as my mother though. Lately, however, I've been feeling some stirrings within me. When I first met her I didn't find her attractive, not ugly but average. She still isn't attractive to me, but she has definitely grown in beauty since I have begun to love her. I sooo don't want to have an attraction to her because it just messes up the filial love I feel her and is just outright creepy considering!

So I hope scorposis and Indie are right-- that I am attracted to how she makes me feel, especially I haven't a romantic interest at the moment. In a perfect world, I suppose I'd want her to be my partner, but since romantic relationship did not to last, I'd rather keep her as my therapist/honorary mother forever.

whoa I missed some posts as I was pondering on the love for my T!

I don't have a lot I wish I could tell my own therapist. I have inner kiddos who have latched on to really believe that we can tell our T anything and everything. So if there's anything - it's put out there. We may dawdle a bit with it, but it gets out there.

I've talked about confusion with having infantile needs in the past with T (like wanting to breast feed, or wanting her to bathe me), as well as sexual confusion (wanting a sexual relationship with her), and mother stuff. Embarrassing, definitely. It would cause panic attacks after session. I worried I was so bad. But, I made it through. I will continue to make it through as these topics come up.

When I've come to things I feel she didn't handle well, like I feel she didn't address it thoroughly enough and leaves me uneasy, I address it head on with her. She finds a way to meet that need. We talk about it and process it and even though it was (and will be) so hard, I always felt so much better after sharing.

I was also fond of trying to bury my face when disclosing such things. Sadly, T doesn't allow it.

As for me, you are spot on! That is exactly how I interpreted this post.

Dear T

Umm...you haven't answered me yet...I guess it's ok to move in with you and bring the cats?? I will need a key as well. I have already started packing..I don't think I will bring all my shoes. You have lots of nice shoes and we appear to be the same size so I was thinking maybe we could share? If you could bring my new house key to my next session that would be great! Looking forward to moving day!!

Cats.

How the he** did you guys guess?? Wow I must be painfully obvious lol
I agree. Completely. I wish so much that I could bring it up with her...it's so complicated. I've been meaning to post about it in the s***** issues forum but was too embarrassed.

OMG! I want to run and hide in a dark corner for Indie! You can come with me Indie! I admit to having one or two moments about my T too.

Maybe I guessed because I struggle with the same thing? I am glad that you posted it here. I feel that it belongs in this forum. I am sure that you are not alone with this issue. By you admitting this, it helps others to know that they are not alone.

I had this with my old psychologist...Male, totally hot, need I say more??

Stormy, I have had moments when I've wanted to suckle my T. I don't know why! How do I overcome the thoughts? I know I could NEVER EVER mention this to my T. How did yours respond?

In the actual moment (oh wow, that couldn't have sounded any more weird lol), it doesn't feel wrong. That's the thing that makes me come back again and again.

Thank you so much you guys...I'm just embarrassed even though I shouldn't be. I guess it comes from imagining talking about this with her. Like "yeahhhhh, right."

Hmm...I sense a new thread? Oh good lord, no. It's a good idea if I had the ballz..

I think you work through the thoughts. Typically the idea of breastfeeding is due to wanting to feel safe, secure, close, and nurtured. Being able to talk about that outloud is very powerful.

My T responded wonderfully. I adore her. She validated and normalized the want. Of course I wanted that. Of course I wanted to be nurtured. Of course I wanted to be taken care of.

I approached the topic cautiously of course. I talked about having confusing thoughts and needs. About feeling small. About needing so much from her. And than I just put it out there. And she responded warmly. I'm so glad I did.

Dear T,

Also I thought that I should let you know I have a tendency to sleepwalk quite a bit. Just wanted to give you the heads up on that.

Cats.

I'm crying from laughing so hard

I'm glad you like it!

LOL...replace "shoes" with things such as pants...shirts...those pieces of clothing that go under shirts...

Oh my..

Dear T,

You mentioned before that your dog doesn't sleep in your bed...Is it ok if she sleeps with me and the cats??

Cats.

T,

do you happen to own a king size bed, in case I need to jump in with you during thunderstorms?

lmao!! Too funny!

T,

I borrowed your favorite pillow as a bed for my adorably incontinent chihauhua...hope you don't mind

K i almost peed myself reading this one!!

No pun intended?

Definitely intended.