T. finally responded after 10 days of MIA

She picked a good profession. If she were a claims agent or a corporate lawyer, someone who dealt with basically balanced, mentally healthy people, she'd forever be getting fired. Sadly for us but lucky for her, she stays employed and goes on to destroy the trust & hard work of who knows how many other people coming to her for help?

Please, out_of_denial, see her once more if you must--but only to say you deserve better & are leaving her to find it.

Roadrunner

Took the words right from me. Absolutely move on...you can find an absolutely awesome T and have a healthy therapeutic relationship and reap them rewards which will be bafflingly wonderful. There are times when it is difficult but thats because your hard work is paying off and lots of times you gotta go through the pain to get the gain. It really is worth it once you find the right T for you.

I can't even believe this is happening to me. I don't know how to do mulitple quotes without going back and forth. So I'm just going to write.

Yes, in August she abandoned me. I was in real termoil due to finances and relationships and my electric got turned off, not becasue of money, it's a long story and it involves the city. ALSO, a lot of it was becasue she never addressed my concerns that she had too many patients (as she calls them) and she just wasn't coming anywhere close to being what I needed her to be. That sounds bad, but it's not. I didn't want a lot. Just some kind of action that showed she was into actually helping me.

I am a unique client. She told me after I asked if she had ever had anyone close to me and she said after a lot of thought, No she hadn't. But she has never once said she saw something that might help me.

I think what happened is she is able to fool everyone else. She talks a good talk and has tons of great info she can rattle off. She has a very soothing voice and seems nurturing and caring. She isn't engaged really at all. She keeps too many patients to be. It took me a while to see her as human because that means that she can fail.

She just couldn't fool me. She tried. I know she won't admit it. I've emailed her a lot in the past three days and that was all she came up with. Go to the hospital. WTF? I wasn't attacking at all. They were very honest and very raw. I do not think she can possibly handle the pain she's caused me. She knew on some level that she was doing untold damage by not getting back sooner and explaining. I could have handled that. I can't handle this. PLUS, the only reason she even contacted me at all was because I said in the subject line that I was begging her to talk to me. I hate begging, I hate drama.

I dont think she is an unfeeling psychopath. I think she is a very sensitive soul and is dealing with me the only way she can. I think if she truly had to face my pain, it would destroy her. She knows what this means to me. She sat with me though all this knowing what she gave me her word on. She's knows what she did, that every word she told me turned out to be untrue. I've told her in the past few days how I was so worried that she wasn't dealing with her issues. In different words though.

I don't know. I care about her and I want her to be whole. I see all the good there, but for some reason she is choosing to ignore everything.

I already called in to work. I didn't want to cry, but as soon as she asked what was wrong, I lost it. I told her I had to quit and she said think about it till Friday. She was very nice and I know these people are SUPER stressed, much nicer then my own T.

I'm going to call my office for her. I bet she's no longer there, other wise I have NO idea how she thinks she wouldn't get in trouble. I am so worried that no matter where I turn with this, people will tell me I'm over reacting. I wish I could stop all this. This is horrible and it sucks bad.

Sorry for going on and on. I just dont know what else to do.

I have been following this thread and I wanted to mention that you have the option to report her to the state and national licensing board, if applicable. I would suggest doing so. It sounds like her treatment of your case was at the very worst, unethical.

I agree with everyone about everything. I talked to my psych nurse (her supervisor sort of) today about it. She thought it was horrible also. I told her that I did not want to meet with her. I think she's hoping that I will sound like the crazy one. I guess I'm realizing that something huge is wrong with her. I know this is NOT the therapist she wants to be. I know while this isn't my fault, I think I trigger her somehow and I always have to tell her when I'm feeling bad about how things were going and I wanted her to be accountable to the people she had, not all the new people she tried to cram in. She didn't want to do this too me, but apparently she couldn't face it either. I think this is going to bring her house of cards down and I feel horrible about that. I just seem to have no controll over my emotions right now. God, this sucks.

I can feel your pain through the screen. You have talked to somebody about it and you dont have to make any further decisions that may come your way regarding this therapist you have had right away. When painful things happen or surface and I take the intial step toward resolution I pick something I love to do and maybe dont get to do it often and treat myself to it. It could be as simple as going for coffee with a close friend and talking about anything and everything except the issue, for me I love to write so in the summer I go to the park and write a few rough poems anything and everything. If I could afford it I would treat myself to the spa. It doesnt have to be big...just something that you like that will help you relax and encourage having a good time(in a healthy of course).

Do you realize that beside seeking therapy yourself you're trying to be your therapist's therapist? Talk about a house of cards ...

I am so afraid for you that the days are going to continue to pass & you just aren't going to cut this cord that binds you to her in time. I'm not worried about her. Is anyone else here? Except out_of_denial?

I'm sorry if I'm being harsh. What she's set you up to do to yourself is--or ought to be--criminal.

I do care about you. But I guess right now I'm mostly afraid for you.

Roadrunner

It sounds like a mess. I hope you can find someone better. You deserve it.

I did a little work on eBay, otherwise I took a hot bath and listened to Grateful Dead bootlegs and now I'm painting a picture on a table top.

As I've been thinking, our whole relationship has been off. I don't really want to be her therapist, though she's encouraged me to get my masters and become a T. The only reason I do it is because I have no choice. I just want her to be whole, so she could really help me and everyone else. I see it as just stretching yourself too thin, kinda haveing it come falling down becasue of that. Then you go "Boy I suck. I really screwed up" , make amends and figure out how to not do it again. Also do a bunch of damage control. I dont see what's so hard about that? Why can't she just do that, even at this point.

I feel a little better as I am not waiting for her to respond to anything. I don't want to talk to her. I think I had better get a new T. just to get over this.

I agree, setting me up for this should be criminal. I didn't deserve this. A big part of me feels so embaressed to be reacting like this. I know she thinks I'm over reacting. Now that some else can relate my pain to her, maybe it'll get through her thick skull that this isn't about her.

You have every right to feel how you are feeling...i am certain I would be reacting very similarly. Continue taking care of YOURSELF, find a new T and focus on YOU. I wish you the very best.