Couch number 33!!!!!

Anger discussions have not gone well for me in T lately either. T has always thought that I'm unconsciously angry. I seldom feel angry, but when I do, I recognise it. So I find it hard to agree. She's still convinced that deep down I'm angry about everything. She's always told me how okay it is to express my anger. When I did actually get angry with her (after huge ruptures), she felt pushed away, she responded with anger, or was defensive, she didn't want to read my writing because she felt she was being beaten up on. Back before I was angry, when she just thought I was resisting her (I tried to clarify I was only resisting myself) she said she felt like she'd been physically hit. No, I'm not a fan of the anger stuff right now.

That's exactly it, Lola. It amazes me how by working part time - which is mostly applied against my unemployment income, thus saving the government money - it is being used against me.

So, other employees of my old company that were let go at the same time as me who are still not employed will continue to get full benefits, and mine might get reduced by 75% - FOR TRYING TO WORK.

Abso-efffin-lutely amazing.....

I woke up this morning in pain from the procedure yesterday, and then the first thing that popped into my mind was this issue....ACK. Not a good start to the day.

I'm gonna go wake up my daughter now for school to see if the rest of my day is impacted.

I cannot express how annoyed that sort of thing makes me, mu_e, and how sad I am that this is happening to you. Bureaucracy. It stinks.

Thank God for a two hour delay, daughter was up a lot in the noghtEnded up in our bed, which in turned pushed me out of the bed onto the couch.

Thanks, Apt....

I am going to hold onto the hope that they will do the sensible, right thing. I hope I don't get let down...again.

Mue, if you feel comfortable sharing what field you are in, I can help you look for jobs online. you can PM me if you want. Hugs..

Good morning everyone. Apt, I totally get how hard it is to discuss the anger stuff. Just makes me more angry. Hugs to you.

Whats everyone up to today. I'm trying to make this week off of work last as long as possible. Its going by too quickly for my liking.

Good morning Jersey..

Nothing fun here today.. kids are staying home sick with H..and we had a two hr delay for work and it's looking like they aren't going to close like they did yesterday, so I should start getting ready for work.

Jersey.. have you don't anything fun for yourself since you have been off this week? You shoulddef. do something for yourself today!!

Well..Saturday I went to AC, Sunday mall with a friend, Monday was cleaning day and laundry, Tuesday was therapy, but after that I was supposed to meet a friend but canceled on her and sat in a quiet parking lot for a long time. Yesterday, I did nothing all day but sit here on the PC couch..so yes, healed you are right..I SHOULD get out of the house today and do something..no friends are around..maybe I will go to the book store or something..

A book store is a good idea!

Wow...you guys burned the couch up yesterday. Took me ages to catch up.
First...pbutton, seriously, how needy can one get. Effin kudos for breathing, sheesh, I can beat that.

MKAC.. I always say "thank-you" and "that made me feel loved" but not repeatedly over the same task for days on end. Just once, and if they do it again a few days later they may get a second one.

Pets are nothing like children, I've done both so I know the difference.

((apt)) just sorry.

((lola)) ick. Your t isn't telling you to move on, but you do need to figure out a concrete plan and make decisions.

((Ready)) just cause I haven't hugged you in a bit.

Jerz...I agree with nail gun usage in this particular situation.

Granite...I HATE HATE HATE when T uses the t-word. It is trauma though, so get used to it.

MUE- that just sux. Glad neuro helped

Healed, Ike, sila, critter, sconnie, trdle, night, and everyone I've missed... hugs.

high fivers for stop...waz up dude.

I have t at 10, docs at 3 and a bit of running around.

My topic for T today:
I would never expect another human being to do what I do, why do I insist on this much from myself?

Will using nail a gun get me some Wiki points? Oh and I just ate oatmeal with Pom seeds and almonds..so how many points is that?

Thats a really good topic Wiki..good luck..

3.657 Septendecillion Wiki points for Jerz

Lola...about skills and T...
I had a t that was all skills and no talk...it sucked.
I had a t that was all talk about past and no skills...it sucked.
I am currently in limbo hell physically and emotionally, so I have no idea what works, but I think a healthy balance in everything is good. I also think that's what my current t will do once I am physically stable.

Nail guns are a bad plan. Nail polish would be okay. You could paint the info on his chest or forehead in in pretty sparkly colors.

Thanks Wiki, I agree there has to be a balance. If anyone has any websites for CBT, I would appreciate it. T and I agreeded Id do some digging into it. I hope everyone has a great day.

Morning all-
I overslept. Whoops. So I still haven't caught up on the couch and wow did you all post yesterday!

Anyway, there was some posting about contentment a few days ago and today I found this blog on my FB feed. He's a Christian writer, but the blog post is not religious.
http://storylineblog.com/2013/01/24/...g-contentment/

ETA: After I read this I 1) wanted to clean out all the clutter and 2) wanted one of those camping vans.

Lola-
I looked at some of the items on this page when I was starting my therapy. (My t uses a combination of approaches, not just CBT). This is not where my t works, just a site I found on my own when I wanted to learn about different approaches:
http://www.morninglightcounseling.or...-on-cbt-skills

because there needs to be hope apt that with this things can get better ,feel better. sorry things are so horrible for you keep going maybe with time things wont be so hard to bring up and talk about.

that sounds like a totally awsome subect to me .and even better if you listen when she says you shouldn't expect it of yourself .just saying chikie good luck today

Okay, getting my extremely lazy butt of the computer. Can't sit here all day again. Need to go out and do something. See you later my friends.

At age 8, I was left with my older sister (10). The two of us were alone other than my grandmother, who was bed-fast and had had a stroke. We were not just supposed to take care of ourselves, we were supposed to also take care of my grandmother. This is one of the many things that my T thinks was horrible about my childhood that I did not even think twice about.