Couch number 33!!!!!

I ended up letting my daughter sleep in a little bit, since she has this cold. Dropped her off to school around 10 AM. Now I gotta hop in the shower and meet a friend for lunch....then see T.

Ugh.

Hope everyone has a good day! Will try to catch up on the couch later....(( HUGS ))

Have a good time MUE.

I feel a lot of shame for my behavior the past few weeks and I am feeling kind of out of place on things I normally hold dear, such as these forums. I just want to thank everyone for all their support since I've been here and thank the people who have developed friendships with me. I am not sure what my point is other then to throw this out here, as I just read Sannah's thread. Ya'll mean a bunch to me and I am consider my self lucky to have found such a great online support forum filled with great people.

Lola, it's ok to feel shame.....know that you are cared for here and that I will not judge you. We all go through our struggles and I love knowing that I have a group of people who are here to support me when I need it.

I, personally, love having you here - through good times and bad. Should we get married?

DANG it's confusing when you first come on in the morning and read this thread from the last page going backwards! Does anyone else do this or is it just strange little ol' me?

I've been cleaning my scrapbook room for the past 2 days. Really cleaning- like organizing inside drawers etc. It's so much work but I love it when it's done! Of course- that organization only stays until I begin my next project and then it's all out the door. I'm finishing a mini for my mother (should've sent it last July) and also finishing a mini album for my new granddaughter that is due in April.

Now for the question of the day:

Do your parents (who you haven't talked to in forever because of something that has been so hurtful) ever call you and act like nothing is wrong? How do you handle that?

You mean a bunch to me, too. I miss you when you're not around.

I feel fortunate to have found this forum as well. I like that there are "regulars" whom we get to know and they get to know us. It's good to have those connections.

Can I walk the bride down the aisle?

About being left alone... "Parents? There were supposed to be parents?"

T set me straight. My life does suck. I do get to *****e. I am not master of my own domaine...lol. More later.

On being left alone: my dad left me and my sister alone when I was 5. It was for about 30 minutes. Told us to run to the church across the street if the house caught fire and not yo answer the phone or door. I never told my mother about that one. My dad had his own set of issues and scared me. I just remember being scared the whole time. Perhaps this is why every dream about my mothers house involved it being on fire.

Lola- all I have to say is I am glad you are here. Just as we mean so much to you, you mean as much to us.

I hope everyone is having a great day! After work I an heading toy friend's house who decorates cakes and is going to help me decorate my son's b-day cake as he turns 3 this Saturday!!

Hi couch,

Haven't spent, much time here, but have been watching you all lounge around...

I'm off to run some errands, but I wanted to say hi...so when I come back it won't be funny?

Have a great day y'all

I remember being told to watch over my sister in our old house. Not sure I was scared but it felt like a lot of pressure. We moved out of that house when I turned 5. WTF.

Momentary vent: I AM SO FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW

Ugh.

I had 5 older siblings (oldest 13 years older) ...so I had the opposite problem... I was never alone... I was 12 (in 6th grade) when I had to be home one hour alone between when my sisters bus took them to high school and when my bus came for elementary school and I danced around the house... loved the freedom...

My mom would call every morning from her secretary job at another school right before the bus came and would ask the same questions every morning... Is the iron unplugged? Is the curling irons and hair dryers unplugged? Is the toaster unplugged? Did you put the milk back in the refrigerator? and it was always in the same order... i think this was what ingrained the whole eye roll issue that I have.

Let it all out! Use me as your punching bag, I can take it.... I'm kinda angry too... wanna thumb wrestle?

Hey yous guys.

Hey Jersey, did ya do anything fun?

Just ended up running a few errands. Nothing too exciting. Went to the bank, dropped the rent off to the landlord, stopped by the store, then came home. Its really cold and I just want to hibernate. May go ahead and go to the bookstore later.

afternoon guys just got back from my card class. will post pic later if you want. had kind of a hard nigh last night and tired feeling not me. anyways going to take pic and hide. i don't care what T thinks .the things she is saying may be so silly but they are so hard for me to hear. i just feel crappy. it is like i am OK when she was talking but then last night all night the horrible part of me just reminded me of all the horrible reasons i hide away . all night. whatever right thats life .we all crap rainbows and unicorns

the book store can be fun jersey. so can just jumping in bed or the couch with a ton of blankets and watch a movie and relax

So this actually having to work at work stuff sucks! I never get to do more than read a bit on here and then have to wait on people again. Even though I haven't been posting much I have been reading and thinking about you all. It seems to be such a tough time for many on the couch. Sending lots and lots of positive thoughts to all.

Well Hey Murray, what's up?

((((( Granite )))))) , vent if you want...I'm here for you and bored to tears and NEED to get out of my head

Jersey the book store sounds awesome, with a nice white chocolate mocha?

I have T at 3:00. I really, really, really don't want to go. My last session was excruciating and I'm almost embarrassed to go now. I know it'll be fine and we'll talk about it, yada, yada, yada. But I still don't wanna go.

Those are the times when you REALLY need to go....I'll pocket ride

hey there ((Lola)) not much up. Just working and freezing. So f-ing cold here! Not as cold as in the mid-west but cold enough. The heating system doesn't work well at my work and it is an old building so you can feel the breeze blowing through the room. It is very cold. Hands are numb and bright red Wish I could just go home and snuggle under a quilt.

So how are you doing Lola? You have been in my thoughts a lot.

I am actually good, really good. Thanks for asking. Its like 65 here, should get up to 70, very unseasonable. I feel so bad for all you who are freezing, I do NOT miss that part of the north.

Tell ya what, tell your boss to go F' her self and take the day off!