Couch number 33!!!!!

these are my latest cards

totally get this critter. jumping in the pocket with ya . saying it's ok it's ok it's ok

Those are so awesome Granite, you are so very talented.

Oh my granite...those are gorgeous...I love the frog (or toad). So beautiful. I wish I was creative. I am lying vertical for a bit. Listening to t. I have a girl that we support who needs a bit of help tomorrow, and I am going to call her and say I am not up for it this week. A very selfish thing for me to do, a very guilt inducing thing for me to do. I am not feeling so great and it's been a rough week though. It's okay that I feel like garbage. I have good reasons to cancel. It is selfish of me to put others before me, that is not taking care of my family. That is fulfilling a stupid need inside of me to do good. I will take care of me. I will. I am not fine, I need to take care of myself.

T session:

Showed up √
Was somewhat open √
stayed present √
mentioned current issues √
presented persistant problem √
laughed a bit √
choked up √
felt validated √
glad I went √

off to nap... √√√

Granite..the cards are beautiful. I love them.

Statement t made to me:
[wiki], you are dying by default.

Weird.

later peeps.

That is a weird statement Wiki.

So glad to hear that you are resting a bit and taking care of your own needs.

wiki it is a good decision . i would kind of try and spin the way i look at it . i am sure this girl you help is a nice person and i would hope would not want you to do anything that is going to be to much or uncomfortable for ya. so i would try not to feel to bad about it .i doubt she would want you to. it is ok to not be ok . i would want a nap after that session

yup agreed kind of strange

Your cards are beautiful Granite. I have never tried doing that sort of thing. It's funny actually, one of my good friends does a lot of stamping and makes wonderful cards, boxes, ornaments, etc. She invited me to join her at a stamping gathering this weekend and I am sort of panicked at the thought. Don't think I can do it and would feel so foolish. I also don't know anyone but her and would feel anxious. Anyway....just struck me as funny that as I am agonizing over whether to go or not, you post pictures of the gorgeous things that can be made.

We need to get this straight: Nothing is as fun as the bookstore.

you know it isn't as dificult at all .i bet you will do great. is it a stamping up thing??

two bookstores in the same day. maybe.
hey girl how ya doing today?

Very, very awesome cards, granite. You are truly talented.

(((Wiki))) you are loved.

murray - it is so nice to see you. I've been wondering how you were.

critterlady - want a pocket apt for T?

Lola - thank you for being here.

Except maybe the USED bookstore. Man, I LOVE the two used bookstores in the next town over.

Thanks, granite - not so great I'm afraid. I'll be ok though. How are you?

True. Used bookstores are awesome. Our town has a few of them.

Oh, and I just checked the temperature: -22°C/-7.6°F. Lots of snow. I would not want it any other way to be honest - not in January!

I would be upset if T said my anger was "inappropriate". The most I'll admit to is "disproportionate".

I'm never angry without a good reason, but sometimes the reason is not as good as I think it is.

I got a note in my mailbox at work today that big boss man (guy I had a meeting with yesterday) wants to see me again, tomorrow. I feel like a kid who is getting sent to the principal's office.

I MISS bookstores.. there are none in my immediate area.. Closest one is about an hour and half away. I could spend a whole day in one.

Whereas I never actually have a good reason to be angry! ("Inappropriate" is my word, not T's.)

My T WANTS me to be angry.....and I have trouble finding my anger. Go figure.

(((( wiki ))))

I'm SO glad to hear that you are working towards taking care of YOU. All of what you posted is spot on. Love it.

Granite - LOVE those cards! I am SO impressed!

Got back from my T session. It was ok.

We talked briefly about how a lot of my health issues - especially the migraine/neck issues - stem from my own doing (posture, wanting to hide, fear)...and how I've resisted working on those issues.

I told T that I want to be willing but I find it incredibly difficult. I don't know how to work on that stuff. He reminded me that the one time we delved into it, it was enlightening and then I ran for the hills....

I told him I would try to be more mindful of that and to work on staying with the discomfort....I asked him how we would move forward on that. He said that he wants to wait until the botox treatment kicks in because doing that work tends to create more tension, and he doesn't want me to be in even more pain.

He also noted that it must be overwhelming for me to resist it so much when it could possibly lead to healing and relief from the migraines. Good point.

I told him that I know from past conversations with him that I need to have some stability in life and support IRL in order to handle what comes with that kind of work. He agreed - and we both agreed that I'm not quite there yet.

So, in a standstill, I guess.

Yes Granite it is a stamping up thing. Part of my hesitation is that my hands tend to shake a lot which I can mostly hide but I think it would make me very self conscious when doing intricate cards....oh and my feeling self conscious and anxious just makes the shaking so much worse