Welcome to the Couth that Would Not Die - Episode 37: Clean up that Cool Whip!

Kare, if the meds are working for you, then I say don't fix what aint broke, right? Some folks are on meds forever and that is okay.

ETA: I need to practice what I preach..but yeah, you should listen to whatever your PDOC says... hugs

PDOC's office called. There's been a cancellation. W00t.

Go get her IKE.......

Ok, so I'm sitting getting increasingly freaked out by thinking about the things I told T this morning.

talk it out Critter.... don't get yourself all worked up

Hang in there, critterlady. We are telling them these things in an attempt to heal and grow. They have heard way worse that the stuff we tell them. He isn't judging you at all.

don't believe everything you hear...

Critter, the after effects of those confession sessions can really weigh you down, but, really T does not think any less of you and is not judging at all. This is all part of the process. hugs

Goodnight all. T tomorrow morning. Nervous.

Hey, critterlady, I am going to be telling my T something I find completely horrifying about me and about my childhood tomorrow. Maybe you can try thinking ahead of time about what you would tell me when I am freaking out tomorrow afternoon about it, and try to extend that compassion and understanding to you today?

Sleep well apt. Good luck tomorrow morning

Here's my question for this week: why did T start allowing me to email whenever and whatever I want? Before, the rule was no emails, and then he said I could go ahead and email him a link to an article I needed to discuss with him, but I was unable to say out loud what the article was about. Then he said it was okay to send him a story I had written that included information that I had planned to NEVER give anyone else about myself EVER. And there was another story I asked about emailing him, and that was when he said I could email whatever and whenever I wanted. Maybe it was about him realizing I was not going to abuse the privilege? And that I didn't expect him to do therapy by email -- I just needed to write things before I could say them. And I emailed to not allow myself to chicken out of sending the things or avoid taking them to session.

My T told me that it seems I am able to reach out and to share things at a deeper level when I email. He has encouraged me to keep doing so.

Of course my reaction to that is to avoid my email like the plague. Because I'm messed up in the head and need therapy. But it is so silly though because he is AWESOME and always responds with the best most comforting things.

I wish my T did email. I find it really difficult to call him and it would be so much easier to just write a quick email.

And speaking of calling him, I just left him a message to please call me back. He's going to be very happy, since he's always on me about not calling when I think it might help. I just hate the waiting for the return call and not knowing if I'll be someplace where I can talk when he calls.

My old pdoc looked exactly like the doc here.

I wonder now if you prefer horses up to a certain height and not beyond? I quite like being 5'3" because I can enjoy the smaller horses and larger ponies if I want to. My current horse is a shortie (for a TB) too (and quite wizzy and agile in a pony like way).


Oh and my shoe size is still about 40-41 so not that far behind Apt!

Nothing like a woman with a past! Otherwise we're just boring...

I had a pony sized Arabian and thought she was the PERFECT horse for me. Losing her was the precipitating event that threw me over the edge and into a depression so deep I was unable to function.

My current horse is 15.2 hh and I think he's too tall. I adore him (he's the mischievous youngster I've talked about before), so I still want to ride him despite his height.

nevermind........

Since 2000. I was in my late 40's. Do you exercise? I keep saying once I lose wgt and really start exercising again, maybe I can get off. Maybe this year, eh?

And I think UK shoe sizes are different from EU. Or from American. They are close, but just different enough to not be the same, if that makes any sense.

15.3hh seems to be what normally feel right for me (my boy is 15.1hh). Though I almost ended up with a 16.3hh horse last time around. I thought I'd look really silly, but it wasn't too bad. I don't enjoy strong horses, at all really (the more sensitive and responsive the better) but over 15.3hh and I really don't enjoy them!

If I can find a med that works for me, I don't think I'll care if I am on it forever.

Of all the pastas Penne is queen. How much do I love italian food?

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Suddenly my cornflakes for breakfast are looking very dull. I should be having bruschetta with something delicious on top.

Bucatini. It's a fat spaghetti.

I found noodles imported from pretty near where my parents were born, and I swear they were the most delicious I had ever eaten. Something in the water. But the store stopped carrying them.