Welcome to the Couth that Would Not Die - Episode 37: Clean up that Cool Whip!

Ike McCaslin · Feb 12, 2013, 09:09 PM

I haven't voted "for" a president since 1980, my first presidential election. Since then, it has been the lesser of two weevils, when I chose to vote at all.

mixedup_emotions · Feb 12, 2013, 09:20 PM

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ACK!!! Group T was horrible today. I dissociated and was shut down for much of the session. UGH. Triggered by a single word early on in the session....and then later one of the newer members revealed SA....I was struggling to breathe (not noticeably, thankfully) and was very, very lightheaded....

I never want to go back there.....

CantExplain · Feb 12, 2013, 09:26 PM

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Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions

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ACK!!! Group T was horrible today. I dissociated and was shut down for much of the session.

And the facilitator didn't notice? Bad facilitation!

murray · Feb 12, 2013, 09:33 PM

The SOTU is on my tv currently...if I have barely heard a word of it due to my catching up on the couch, does that count as watching it? lol

granite1 · Feb 12, 2013, 09:38 PM

i find listening to him so triggering .especially if he starts talking about military stuff.or the embasy stuff

sittingatwatersedge · Feb 12, 2013, 09:39 PM

hey Granite, I will be thinking of you tomorrow.

mixedup_emotions · Feb 12, 2013, 09:48 PM

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Originally Posted by CantExplain

And the facilitator didn't notice? Bad facilitation!

He did notice, after a while. And he addressed me. I shared a little bit about the initial trigger....just some content, and how I was panicky, detached and my chest felt very, very tight.....

And then at the end of the session....after the SA part...he said he wanted to check in with me....I said I was ok.

healed84 · Feb 12, 2013, 09:49 PM

You know what sucks? Last year at this time, yes.. anxiety with terrible, but I had the motivation to work on the things that I could do, to make it better. T, meds, excersizing.. There was hope that I could get better.

NOW- I guess I am dealing with depression- with depression, there is no hope. What is the point of starting to excersizing again? trying to make my relationship work, etc? I partcipate on a message board where I am sure the majorty of people on here have dealt with depression, but still I feel so alone.

CantExplain · Feb 12, 2013, 09:52 PM

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Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions

He did notice, after a while. And he addressed me. I shared a little bit about the initial trigger....just some content, and how I was panicky, detached and my chest felt very, very tight.....

And then at the end of the session....after the SA part...he said he wanted to check in with me....I said I was ok.

I'm glad to hear that the facilitator was doing his job.

CantExplain · Feb 12, 2013, 09:54 PM

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Originally Posted by healed84

You know what sucks? Last year at this time, yes.. anxiety with terrible, but I had the motivation to work on the things that I could do, to make it better. T, meds, excersizing.. There was hope that I could get better.

NOW- I guess I am dealing with depression- with depression, there is no hope. What is the point of starting to excersizing again? trying to make my relationship work, etc? I partcipate on a message board where I am sure the majorty of people on here have dealt with depression, but still I feel so alone.

There is hope, but you can't see it because you are depressed.

Perhaps you have a lot of grieving to do? I did, and when I was done, I wasn't depressed any more.

CONJECTURE:

If a patient keeps doing therapy long enough, she will work through fear, anger and sadness, but not necessarily in that order. While she is working on sadness she will be depressed.

Feb 12, 2013, 11:15 PM

ok if lola and critter can ask for points, then i'ma ask too! I quit drinking soda, and for me that was tough! i'm drinking water all day long at my desk at work now. go me!

sconnie892 · Feb 12, 2013, 11:16 PM

Hi all.
Super long day of work. Didn't get home until 9pm.
No cavities, but I got a lecture about flossing more

I have a new hygienist (seems I get a new one every two years). I don't like her as well. She was silent the entire time. I prefer them to chat...covers up the scraping noises.

I think I am headed to bed. I'll catch up later. have a good night everyone.

mixedup_emotions · Feb 12, 2013, 11:20 PM

I'm giving myself wiki points for not following through on a drinking binge tonight. I'm not much of a drinker, so it's quite telling that this urge to drink is just a desire to escape.

I'm also holding back on emailing T to tell him I am quitting group T.

Triggered by way too many things tonight. Afraid to go to sleep.

Gonna take a klonopin and hope for the best, whatever that may be.

Goodnight folks. Hopefully, I'll feel more rational tomorrow.

Feb 12, 2013, 11:26 PM

I'm pretty reactive tonight. I should just put myself to bed, but am waiting up for my daughter to get home. She's at a friend's house working on her honors history project, due tomorrow. Just so tired!

Feb 13, 2013, 01:01 AM

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Originally Posted by hankster

Okay I mentioned it to T cuz I told Apt I would, sort of a dare ya situation. It was about mentioning my birthday, which t had said last week he WANTED to buy me a present, which totally embarrassed me. But over the weekend it started to feel like when I was in the hospital last September and had called T a few times. Talking about it later, he said he WANTED to drive me home from the hospital. So this week, I told him, I heard both comments the same way. He didn't have to DO these things. Just his saying them felt comforting, because my mother just always made everything about her and let me know what an impediment to her happiness I was. So today I told him I felt awkward about even mentioning my birthday but I kinda had to. So he goes, I'm still buying you a present and I'm like shut up!

So today I went to see the movie Silver Linings Playbook and I rather liked it. I thought it portrayed OCD very well. De Niro was great. Bradley Cooper was pretty intense. The Indian T was amazing.

Excellent!

Feb 13, 2013, 02:04 AM

Some intense working days coming up, lots of teaching and grading and conferences, spend less time here. I hope you wil all be well.

WikidPissah · Feb 13, 2013, 06:30 AM

Good morning.
Boy, I am running out of wiki points, I will have to trade in some gold for some more...but here goes:

Art gets 2.1 centillion points for replacing soda with water...that's huge, well done.

Lola gets 2 points for making bean soup, but after paying the required negative for putting sausage in it and then adding the pi in she still comes up in the hole. BUT, there is hope, because she ate breakfast and gets 2589 googolplex points for that.

And MUE, we'll give you 32 thousand for staying sober, even though wiki actually believes in STRONG ORGANIC VODKA in such situations.

That's it, the points are now rationed for food. If you want a big points make SD say "ack".

sittingatwatersedge · Feb 13, 2013, 06:34 AM

SD: Ack.

WikidPissah · Feb 13, 2013, 06:36 AM

that's cheating, but it amused me so what the heck...3 septendecillion points.

sittingatwatersedge · Feb 13, 2013, 06:43 AM

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Originally Posted by WikidPissah

that's cheating, but it amused me so what the heck...3 septendecillion points.

perfect.

I will save them all - and after Lent I will go to a Chinese restaurant for Szechuan chicken wings. Thanks Wiki!!

WikidPissah · Feb 13, 2013, 06:48 AM

awww....poor little wingless chickens.

sittingatwatersedge · Feb 13, 2013, 06:53 AM

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Originally Posted by WikidPissah

awww....poor little wingless chickens.

yummy chickens!
Potatoes, leeks, onions, radishes, beets, peanuts, turnips... they don't want to be jerked up out of the ground & eaten, but they're part of the food chain too.

mixedup_emotions · Feb 13, 2013, 07:02 AM

(((( Yawn ))))

I am so tired....but I did sleep...and without taking a klonopin. Flashbacks and awfulness, but I eventually fell asleep.

I woke up STILL wanting to quit group T......We have a new co-facilitator, a cute early 20-something year old who has no experience whatsoever in a therapy setting. Her focus is in the area of nutrition.....and she will be writing the blog notes instead of my T. I really have no tolerance for amateurs when it comes to my therapy.

I am so agitated.

granite1 · Feb 13, 2013, 07:39 AM

good morning everyone

granite1 · Feb 13, 2013, 07:40 AM

as i have said in the past wiki points need to be a controlled substance ya all are addicted.

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