Couch 46: How's tricks?

Dobie makes me think of beat necks!

I had a dark navyblue sweatshirt that I wore inside out until it was shredded, to look like gilligan. I mean for years. Maybe that was my transitional object!

I wanna see a pic... Lets do best 60/70's photos!

I know just the one - me & my guitar. I need a scanner!

You take a pic of the pic, with phone, camera or ipod!

Oh yeah! Ill try that. My old phone was pretty shabby but it might work with this one.

Isn't technology grand? My dog is snoring up a storm!

I saw that on Columbo tonite. He was at the vets and his dog was snoring and he didn't know what that sound was. It was the one where laurence harvey, the earwig guy, plays a deaf chess whiz and throws another guy down a garbage chute. Which shuts off but he doesn't hear it cuz he's deaf. Very confusing. This is why I can watch these things over and over. I don't get hints.

I forgot to turn the hallway light on outside kids room. Daughter woke up came downstairs. Instead of me turning the light on and she going back to her own bed.,,, she is in mine. Along with the dog and h...I need room !!

Im sleepin single
In a double bed..

sorry Lola.

I wish I was sleepin! I do miss the days when my kids were little and still needed me at night, but I do love having the bed to myself. Now I just have to figure out the sleeping part...I'm not so good at that

Sorry Lola...I hope my post didn't feel like it was minimizing yours. I couldn't see what emotion you had put on there, just that it was a face of some kind. I assumed it was a smiley face because for me, having the bed to myself is a sign of freedom. (I was in a really abusive marriage for a long time and now I'm not.) I do understand that it's not that way for everyone and I should have blown up your post to see what the emotion was before I commented. Sorry!

Gooooood Mooooorrrrning Couch!
I got up at 5am...so not like me....already on my second load of laundry...

Been thinking I really need to find a new T of course my next thought is that I can't really even afford to go to T...

morning peeps. bunches to do today. morning ready ,whats going on with your T???

Hi Granite... there is nothing wrong with my T its just that I feel no connection and that she doesn't seem to know what to do with trust issues and things that come up about trauma... I really thought I wanted to go to someone about the here and now but realizing that the here and now is really impacted by the past and neither of the two Ts I've been to are too keen about talking about past because I have repressed memories and I don't KNOW everything for sure and its like they are so afraid of the whole... planting memories things that they are so closed off when I try to discuss what I do remember...

maybe seeing someone with more experience with trauma...

Trigger ....Trigger...Trigger for CSA





I'm so upset but not sure which part is more upsetting... just found out that a family that we are friendly with that the older brother abused the younger two boys... these kids have slept over my house... the mother knew for a whole year and didn't do much but not let the older boys sleep at home (grandparents) before one of the younger boys finally told his counselor at school...

I've spent so much time trying to protect my boys from my own father and brother (for minor suspicion reasons) that I didn't even think about other kids doing that to my boys...

i get that .sometimes i wish i didn't remember things so well. but i dont know what it would be like not to remember . although i was completely surprised when i read what my teachers wrote about me in my report cards. i don't remember misbehaving as much as i did.

have you asked your T about being able to talk about the trama or is that to much to be able to do.has she said she would rather talk about here and now. i know it can be so hard and retraumatising to talk about things sometimes

Hey all....

Things are finally settling down a bit. Did yard sales on Fri/Sat and Free for all on Sunday...made $1786.33. Not sure where the 33 cents came from Good take all in all, and it cleaned out the rest of the house. We have a few boxes left for the free shop at the dump and we'll be done. Woot. Closing on it the first week of May.

My daughter comes in from CT today with my 2 grands. SIL can't come this time around. She will whip this house into shape, she's ultra organized. I did up the guest room in a beach theme and used colors to match the water views, it looks really good. I normally don't do "themes" in rooms, but I wanted that room to be like a vacation spot.

I am realizing how eclectic my taste is. The great room here has several different styles of furniture, and it really looks kind of hodgepodge. Not liking it at all...I have mission furniture, classic furniture, contemporary and even an Asian inspired carved wooden screen. And every wood is a different color. I really need to fix that, but I can't exactly go out and buy all new stuff. And some of it is antique hand me downs that I don't want to part with.

Haven't caught up on the couch yet, so sorry if I am missing stuff. It would take me an hour to catch up with y'all.

Ready...
that's awful about your friends boys. Arg. It really pisses me off when parents do nothing. Have you talked with your boys about it?

Ready, do you KNOW your boys were abused? Or you're just thinking of the what if's?

Quick Question... Ill be 40 in 4 months and found my first gray hair... Could I be having a mid life crisis?

It's possible Lola. I freaked out at 30. I thought you and W were doing better?

Not exactly... Im in a self destruct mode... It will come to a head tonight. No worries though, I got this!

Any Who..... LOL Trying to get to see T face to face this week.