Couch 46: How's tricks?

Thought I was pregnant, but no. I'm just getting old and fat! Don't know whether to laugh in relief or cry in despair.

Good night couch! Missing everyone tonight. The couch has been so slow...

Today T and I talked about my great love for being a fighter. Cannot stop listeninggggggggggggggggggggggg

T and I were once again talking about things that I would have sworn I would NEVER tell anyone. THIS thing was bigger even than the last thing I thought I would never tell. Sigh. I feel disgusting -- all exposed and bloated and contaminated and like I got him all yucky as well. yuck. yuuck. yuuuuuuckk. I would love to replace that y with an F, but that would just get me censored. He hugged me at the end and it turned into kind of a cuddle while he told me again that I was not ... something. He didn't use the word gross. ****. cannot remember what he said. I then thought of you, hankster and your T, so I think it's kind of humorous that you two also had an extra long hug today, even if it was for different reasons.

Still say that backwards hug thing would be totally bad for me. LOL.

Don't mind me, I watch golf for the biceps...! Did you see adam cross?? Holy moly!

Totally made me start humming the Rocky theme song.

my last therapy session (yesterday) triggered me really badly. i've been having suicidal thoughts tonight because of it. i would have had them during the day too if i hadn't been preoccupied with work.

Yikes! Nothing like a good 'ol pregnancy scare to liven up an evening.

Hi couch friends,

Artemis your crocheting is beautiful. My grandma taught me also, but I've forgotten all but the very basic parts.

healed - I hope you feel better soon.

It's interesting to hear what others pay for Urgent Care. It's ridiculously expensive for me. I've only used it once. I had a regular co-pay, but then also foot 20% of the bill. I ended up paying over $100 for my visit there last year. Express Care which I guess is more of a walk in clinic is 30 minutes away but only costs me a regular office visit co-pay. I can't remember the last time I actually went to the doctor because I was sick. I think it was 10 years ago when I had a bee sting that wouldn't heal.

Sorry to hear that Triggering therapy sessions are the worst.

I am in fine form tonight. Now I'm angry I didn't get a hug. What the hell? Don't recall wanting a hug from him while I was there. Or EVER. WTF?

Anybody have anything good for dinner? I'm in a bit of a food rut. H did make a pretty awesome brown rice with black beans and homemade salsa thing tonight, though. I keep flirting with vegetarianism, and would probably just do it if it weren't for the fact that H cooks most of the meals and kind of worships pigs as god's gift to his palate.

Pbutton - if only feelings made sense. If only.

I did not have a very exciting dinner because I got home so late from work. Chip and Salsa and a glass of wine.

Not exciting, perhaps, but yummy

I am so sorry W&S. I am concerned that your post will be buried because this thread moves so fast; have you thought about starting a thread so that you can get more focused support?

Good night couch... another long, busy day tomorrow.

Anyone here...???

Cool, that very pattern is in my (large) stack of projects to make that I'm slowly working my way through. I love to crochet too. It's SO relaxing to me. Do you have a pic of the one you made? I'd love to see it!! One of my old work friends from many years ago crochets too, we always had projects going at the same time that we did at work on breaks, and we recently got back in touch on facebook and we send each other pics of our current projects. It's fun to crochet together again even over a long distance!

Well here we go. My trip back to the midwest was primarily to visit my brother and his wife before they move to S. Korea, and also to see a couple old friends I used to work with that I haven't seen in YEARS. Guess what. My mother has now promised my attendance at this family thing and basically told me "just tell your friends you can see them another time." NOT. Then she didn't even bother to tell me which DAY she promised my attendance at said event. It's not that I'd mind going, it's just she totally discounted me wanting to see my old friends and reminded me basically that what i want to do is not good enough. Meh. I'm going to see my friends as planned. I'm not going to disrupt my plans for HERS this time. IT's not that I don't want to see my extended family. I just don't like her discounting what I want to do. Whatever. I'll still visit the extended family around MY plans. Screw her. Meh.

OMG so THAT'S why she sent me a check to "help with the plane flight". So she could feel justified in dictating what I do back there. I'm going to give her back her check.

Work can sometimes be a great comfort.
((Stylish))

Morning so far the mother has been ok but I had horrible dreams about other people in my past It was bad. I think it had to do with all the stuff going on in T. But when I woke up I had strange and scared thoughts about the mother killing me and what it would be like for my husband to get that call from the mother that I was dead. Ok so strange dreams and scary thoughts. Go figure

excellent work!!!!!

I hope yr trip goes great!!

Thanks for thinking about me ready. I made it and so far the first day was ok. But the night not so good. I am planning to be in the sun most of the day. The mother wants me to go out for breakfast with her. That seems to be the only plan. How are you doing

morning folks

If anyone on here knows anything about Zoloft and postpartum depression, or knows where I might read about it, could you PM me? thanks!