Couch 56...Getting Back to our roots

mmmm....carny food. I ate a whole lot of fake, nutrient-void, processed foods. I can barely spell, and I feel quite giddy, almost drunk. I think it was the fried dough. Or maybe the cotton candy. Or the fried veggies. Or possibly the spicy curly fries. Could be the caramel apple too. Or the kettle corn. Or roasted almonds.

I am going to be so ill for my ride to Boston in the morning.

Efff it.

Eat drink and be merry, for tomorrow we die.

I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!!! but alas I won't and there is no way that I can talk about it here because its not very sympathetic and people here would take offense and all... just to say there is a person in my RL who is driving me crazy.... i can't even go into it...ughh..

YEAH WIKI!!!! I'm sure it was all vegan and organic and very very nutrious! as all carny food is...

I love Elephant Ears did they have those there? or Funnel Cake?

Who said you always have to be sympathetic, Ready? Let it out. We're here for you.

I have been massively addicted to chocolate covered almonds lately. I apparently like them better than I like wearing my smaller-sized jeans.

so went crafting thismorning had a huge melt down in the class room . lucky i have friends there.
came home for a few to breathe and then went off to get yarn and some dinner.
am packing up craft stuff for the weekend but dont hold out a lot of hope it will be fun after my melt down earlier .but what the he l l ,i'm supose to not be thinking about anything right just keep going get out meet people make friend etc... and all that crap. to crap with any emotions fear or anything.

now am going to get my hair cut and highlighted because the hairdresser called and told me i have an appointment for tomorrow.i tried to cancel because of my mood but alas she got pissy so i must take care of her and go today so she can get her money .if i faal appart on her as she is foiling to bad for her .i am a jerk so she will have to deal .oh but wont my T be happy i am getting out and meeting souxh great and awsomw people. to remind me what an A,S,S i am .go me dont think ,dont feel ,dont react. im off again

agreed but tomorrow life goes miserably on and on and on and on....

Its mean and judgemental and unwarranted since he doesn't have all the info... so be forewarned that is really bad of me to feel this way.....

RTS, I have those private moments in my head where I'm thinking something similar. 'Course, I actually AM mean and judgmental, so .... LOL.

That sux granite...sorry.
Ready...empathy isn't all it's chalked up to be.
Neither are small jeans.

The child is grown
The dream is gone
And I have become
Comfortably numb.

Today has been productive for me at work, but I am whooped. I have been really busy at work since therapy Tuesday -- two court hearings that day, court all afternoon on Wednesday, and prepping for a deposition all Wednesday morning and evening. Deposition this morning -- which didn't take as long as anticipated at least in part because I was SUPER organized and prepared [brag brag brag], and then I finished a Petition for Review this afternoon and already got it to the printers. I do not feel like starting another project right now. I want to go ... dunno ... take a nap maybe. Cook something cool and fun for dinner. something. I don't want to be at the office anymore.

Ready, I really don't think that is as awful as you think it is. I'm sure we've all done that. Sometimes I think people are whining for no good reason. T says it's because they're "whining" about stuff that I'd choose to invalidate myself on. (That's a really poorly constructed sentence. Too lazy to try to fix it. I'm a math girl, dammit. You all get the general idea.)

Okay I'm deleting what I said cause I wouldn't want that RL person should they be reading on PC to read that... it was just a momentary slip up of saying what I thought...

It almost makes me laugh when this person says things like you can always talk to me about your childhood... truely I want to laugh in their face... first of all I barely talk to a T about it and what part of I don't remember much of my childhood don't you understand...

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So Pbutton your saying that your T says you minimize what other people went through because you want to minimize what you went through? something like that?

Yep. Something like that. I think people are whiny and being a baby because if I had the same issue I'd tell myself I was whiny and being a baby.

The other day he tried the "What would you think if someone else [other than me] had the same issue?" I told him I would think that person was stupid too. Not really the answer he was shooting for, I am sure.

ha ha pbutton, that's a GOOD answer. lol.

I do sometimes expect others to buck up like I do. I can see what you mean pb

Isn't "little c" a rapper?

Trigger for discussion of domestic violence and killing:






UGH. The case I mentioned before, the 14 year old who shot his father after his father spent years abusing the mother: that child is being charged with murder as an adult. The actual shooting happened just over the county line as it turned out, so the neighboring county with the super conservator zealot prosecutor had the case. I am so so so sad and angry for this boy. He's a child who grew up in a horrible environment and whose parents utterly failed him. This just sucks so much. I get that he had to be prosecuted because the killing was clearly premeditated and not even in the heat of passion, but there's no reason not to leave him in the juvenile system.

I once had a rather lengthy debate with ex-T. He tried to assert that saying "My Uncle molested me." was not a STUPID thing to say. I was pretty much ready to argue that one for the full hour. If I deign something stupid, stupid it shall be.

so then why not just delete it instead of leting everyone know you are not going to respond dont you think that in itself might be a bit childish and mean to MKAC who has said nothing to you at all

editided to add disclaimer this is only my opinion and may not refect the opinions of the other couh peeps .

in fact i am sure they think i'm an A,S,S but hey at least i am doing it well these days right

Well I guess I should leave work now... I'm not working just hanging out on PC... need to run an errand for my son which couldn't be done early...

thanks for being understanding.... I though I was the only one who feels that way and I know we aren't supposed to compare but I do realize that people on PC had it much worse than what I can remember and as frustrating as it can be sometimes I wish some of you had dissociative amnesia too... its a great coping skill and it happens automatically so its not a lot of work to maintain... has a lot going for it...

NOO WAY i just got into a 10 min arguement with a telemarketer who told me off and i told him off and he ended the call by going AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH so i couldnt talk as i was asking to speak with his super visor. OMG

It's not easy being the only adult in a world full of children.

Why do I start threads I'm too scared to read?