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My time with my T is coming to an end in a few months, so I've been getting into the difficult territory of my transference with her to get everything out. I've only ever given her generalized statements of my feelings. Last session felt extremely uncomfortable because it seems so weird to talk openly about my feelings for her when I've always kept them private. I got worried that she would think I'm needlessly indulging in them. Maybe I don't have a reason to actually tell her just how bad my transference is, and she'll think why in the world are you telling me this? My T has said before that it's okay for me to keep secrets from her if I want to, so I'm afraid she thinks that I shouldn't tell her everything.
I found this quote in an article from Psychology Today (http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/...he-same-skills) that I am worried applies in my situation: "The therapist anticipates the termination phase of therapy by continually encouraging the independent development of healthy autonomy in clients. Excessive dependency or attempts by clients to seek gratification from the therapist are discouraged." I don't understand what the article meant by clients seeking gratification, and it doesn't further discuss this. In this context, what do you think that means? Where is the line between talking about transference and seeking gratification? I want to make sure this isn't what I'm doing... Also, is simply wanting to talk about transference enough of a reason to do so? What if you already know why you have these feelings? Last edited by purplemystery; Dec 05, 2013 at 10:56 PM. |
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Gratification given by a T with whom you've developed an intimate relationship might make it more difficult to separate. It's probably not a good idea for a T to be inconsistent with the boundaries either. That could be confusing. ...worried that she would think I'm needlessly indulging in them. ...she'll think why in the world are you telling me this? ...My T has said before that it's okay for me to keep secrets from her if I want to, so I'm afraid she thinks that I shouldn't tell her everything. ...she'll think why in the world are you telling me this? ...I am worried applies in my situation: This definitely sounds like anxiety! The anticipation, going through all the possibilities, another person's potential thoughts running through your mind, indecisive. Sorry you are feeling so anxious. Why do you think you are wanting to talk about the transference now? Maybe to help with closure? |
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I think that gratification, in a therapy context, might be about trying to have T fulfill our wishes/wants without taking a critical look at them to figure out what's going on. The problem with gratification (without the necessary working through, at least) is that it never fixes the problem. It temporarily feels great sometimes, but it's like a fix we need to keep going back for because we don't deal with the underlying issue. I personally hate that (because who doesn't want their wishes fulfilled!), but I also think it makes sense. The good news for you, Purple, is that it means that not only is it OK to talk about your transference issues...it's absolutely crucial! Hope this helps! |
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Thanks Autumn Skies, I see what you mean about gratification making the process more difficult. I know that I am easily affected by everything my T says and does. If she were to say something to "gratify" my desires, my emotional side would become confused and more invested in her, even if my intellectual side knows the actual intent of what she said. I guess my statements do all convey anxiety! I was very worried about telling her exactly what I'm feeling. I spend a lot of time thinking about this sort of thing, and it's all well and good in my own head. To say it out loud makes it seem strange and concrete. Suddenly I feel like I play things up in my mind too much and I just need to be tough. I do want to discuss my transference now because I know that I am going to be extremely depressed come graduation. It would be such a deep regret for me to be dealing with the pain of that loss and to know that I never told her how I actually feel. So even though I feel ridiculous or worried about doing this, I do think I need to tell her how I feel. |
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Idk. I seem to be operating on two tracks. Or more! The more t gratifies baby hankster, the more adult hankster is freed up to do adult things, rather than engage in self-soothing rituals like over-eating and over-sleeping. And the more adult hankster is not terrified in her own home and does more things. But i dont see adult hankster craving the gratifications. They feel like play. They feel like they are in the past.
Eta - i guess it was a dangerous experiment. But we were both honest about it. |
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It's hard for me to be rational about the pros and cons of seeking and getting gratification from a T. I thought the best thing that ever happened to me in all of my years of therapy was my current T allowing me to hold her hand. Even if that was gratification, and maybe was unhealthy, I think it DID help fulfill some need inside of me, and at the least, got me to realize what is lacking in my RL.
I do think it's important to tell your T about your feelings for her before your therapy ends. Go with your gut feeling and do it! |
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As far as that quote, I'm not quite sure. One meaning is that the therapist would slowly stop giving you what you been getting in the past, when you were less autonomous. Think of parent child relationship. Children get a lot of things from their parents (or at least should). As they grow older, the parents will stop giving them some of those things, either intentionally (to help the child separate) or unintentionally (just don't feel like behaving the same towards the now older child anymore). Hopefully this coincides with the child also not wanting to get gratification from parents. So the child makes friendships outside home and develops a life of his own. In more tragic cases it's when a parent is dying or leaving permanently for whatever reason, a child is pushed into a life of her own earlier than ready. But it's done for good reasons. The parent simply won't be there and the child needs to become independent in order to survive. Obviously not the same in many ways, but somewhat similar process is going on in separation in therapy. The therapist gratifies some of your desires earlier in therapy. But at some point, towards the end, less and less of them might be gratified. You won't be rejected. But you won't get, say, as much validation as you used to. It can be difficult, especially if you don't feel ready or if you feel you're being pushed. As a child my dad pushed me too hard to develop independence. I interpreted it as rejection. |
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I also want to mention that in a way, patients are supposed to seek gratification (maybe on an unconscious level). This so you can work through these feelings and your childhood losses with T. So even if you are seeking gratification from T, that is ok. ![]() Despite the anxiety, it's a sign of mental health to think and plan ahead-which is exactly what you are doing. Quote:
Afterthought: After reading through everything again, it doesn't seem like you are seeking gratification at all; instead, it seems like you are seeking a lasting connection with her. That is very human and also emotionally mature. It believe it will be a positive ending for you, well-as good as endings can be... Last edited by Anonymous32735; Dec 08, 2013 at 11:28 AM. Reason: to add a thought |
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