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What is wrong jersey?

Well, I am home. J got home at 4, so I got off early. Eating some popcorn right now as it is too early for dinner.

No flu shot for me this year. The last time I got one, I ended up reacting to it and felt like I had the flu. So since then, I have not had one.

(((jersey)))

ugh. I really would like to slap my husband right now.

Just can't find relief right now from having so much anxiety.

Try not to.

Jersey....is it general anxiety or is there a specific thing causing the anxiety? want to talk about it...

Do you think its caused by some of the stuff brought up by your Ts line of questioning the other session?

T is calling it generalized and said it's making everything feel 50 times worse. There is some situational stuff going on....my living situation (but Have decided I'm moving by June), a couple people in my life going through hard stuff, a law suit that popped up from a car accident I was in 2 years ago (I'm being sued) but T said the generalized anxiety is making all this stuff worse and has me feeling like the world is ending. I just can't find relief and it's making me sick. Physically, there is a constant knot in my stomach.

(((jersey))) I know that feeling well.. I hope you get some relief soon.

Thanks.
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Take good care of yourself.

Thanks Aloneandafraid. I hope you do the same as you've also been hurting so badly.

Jersey....is there anything that you can do that helps? I know it sounds corny but have you tried guided meditation? It has worked for me in the past... although it takes everything out of me to force myself to quiet down to do it but it has helped... Do you have things that have helped you in the past?

(there is one unhealthy coping skills i have that when its really really bad...I give myself permission to use and try not to feel bad about myself when I do it.... but I try to do everything else first)

I don't get flu shots. I have heard it is not too late to get a shot though.

I am horrified by a show they are advertising on tv about little league football in texas. Sort of like the toddlers and tiaras for boys.

Thanks Ready....I've tried breathing, mediation, distraction and every single DBT skill I've learned from a group I did a couple years back. I told T just while I'm actually doing the stuff it provides a very small amount of relief but as soon as I get done doing it, I'm right back where I started.

I did a mindfulness course last year when we did some guided meditations. I loved it but can't find the time now to get back into it which is a bit ironic! But while I was doing the course they were really beneficial.

Have you considered going to your PCP for medicine for times like these?

Haven't had any health insurance in over 2 years. H was supposed to get it through the new job he took in August after 90 days. I harassed him to inquire and he never signed up. So he will be taxed for something he don't have and maybe that will give him a kick in the butt.

i so freaking hate my husband right now . we went to the casino today with his mother and they gave us 5$ to play with to start with .they both lost there money in about 5 min and i won so because i won i decided that we could just play with the money i won so they didn't have to spend any money. if we lost mine no big deal .but we won more money .it got up to 125.00 and my husband just handed it to his mother and said keep it .it was 125.00 and i felt it was mine .this was why i quit gambling .i hate them both it has been miserable here this was the only fun thing and i thought i would finely have the money to get something my husband was refusing to buy me. but nope i guess the 150.00 gift card and the 75.00 for a printer she wanted .or even the hundred dollars we put in for the robotic vacuum she wanted .nope none of that was enough .the also needed to give her the 125.00 that should have been mine.it just goes to show just how unimportant i am again . i guess i am just selfish and self centered . you know i just hate my life.

Sucks that the Patriots lost

Granite...your H was dead wrong to give her the money. I'm am sorry.

Well Granite... you have just joined Healed, Jersey, and me in the "annoyed at our husband club".

Seriously though... I had hoped your visit had improved. I am sorry your H didn't ask you how you felt the money should have been handled.

Omaha! I was glad to finally hear the explanation of why peyton keeps saying that. So now its kopernick agsinst russell wilson, then peyton against who wins that. is wilson pretty young Too? Gonna wiki him now.

Yes, Wilson is young; I think this is only his second or third year. He used to quarterback for the University of Wisconsin Badgers. I like him so much more than Kaepernick, who, IMO, is extremely arrogant. Plus, my BIL roots for the Seahawks, since he and my sister live in Washington state.

I've liked football since I was a kid. One of the few good memories I have of my childhood is when we would be at my grandparent's house and they were watching football and getting VERY animated. Plus, there was no abuse at their house.

I just want to crawl in a hole and hide.

RTS...thanks for your help and suggestions

And thank you to everyone who gave hugs and support.

I'm just going to go wrap myself in a blanket, lay down and try not to throw up.

Hugs to all.