Couch 83: In a world where...

Humidity?

Humidity starts at 75% anything less than this and you are a wuss!!!

Healed - I think MKAC is the tiny new born kitten expert.

I always feel a little jealous when you talk of him. In someways up it reminds me of how I felt about my grandfather who I adored. I sort of wish I could see an older male T but then it's over powered by a huge creep factor when I try to think of it while looking at pictures online of perspective Ts. (Although I realize that most of them are probably not creepy)

I am really trying to function today. Even though I may feel sad and lonely.. I do what I have to. Prepared lunch for my family...did lots of laundry...worked on cleaning and de cluttering ...cooked dinner..etc. I don't allow myself to go to sleep anymore like I used to do to cope. Now I work for stars on my home routine app... While everything else may feel fake...cleaning is real!

I don't let anyone see the real me. But most of the time I try to be what people need me to be and usually I can reconcile myself to that. It's just not working this time. So I am working on not showing how I feel so much and on being silent. Silence allows me to not lie... And to not upset anyone.

But all this walking on eggshells on high alert to not speak or act "wrongly" really jacks up my anxiety and wreaks havoc with my ability to sleep!

Thanks RTS. I hope I don't make you feel badly---we have had our down times as well, took a lot to get to secure place. I am glad though that I started CBT also because I know that main T wasn't a fluke---there are lots of good T's out there. I always worried that I just hit the lottery with him, but I'm glad that he isn't unique in that way.

Pics online can be very odd---I don't think I would have picked my main T if I was going by pics alone. He sort of fits the Freudian T stereotype. He even used to smoke a pipe!

Also, my CBT T does not photograph well although I think he is quite handsome in person.

RTS, are you seeking a T? I'm so sorry---I have been off and on the couch lately.

It's funny how those chores can eat up a weekend!!!

I'm trying not to sleep in as much as I used to on the weekends. One of my goals has been to get out of the house and try to do 1 social thing per weekend. Not long ago I found a bead store that offered jewelry making classes. That was fun.

I'm tight on cash this year--it is a wedding-travel heavy year for me so I have to keep my activities cheap or free. Looking into continuing ed or even those free DIY workshops at the Home Depot.

Are you able to do one thing for yourself every week? It does seem to help my mood.

Don't worry you don't make me feel badly ...I'm happy for you.

I had been seeing this trauma specialist woman T...she wanted to do prolonged exposure therapy...but I couldn't do it my choice but the rest she does is dbt. I found the skills helpful but never really have an outlet for the pain and sometimes crazy making feelings I get... It just didn't work out.

I'm taking a break for a while so no T for me.

Luckily for me...I have a career that I like and am good at so being at work is when I am at my best. My co is going thru a merger so it's very stressful worrying that I may not have a job. It would be very bad for my mental state to be without a job even for a few weeks months.

Usually my job is fun but it has been creatively boring lately. Always looking for new outlets!!!

Besides, I work with a lot of Millenials and because I'm Gen X sometimes socially they don't think to interact with me. So it can be isolating

My books are catalogued in librarything.com so I could give T a link. He does know a fair bit about my tastes in literature, and I think I've mentioned the number of books we own, too, so there isn't that much left for him to find out.

I totally feel like reading a book now, but it is the middle of the night and I should be asleep.

Last weekend I couldn't wait for the weekend to be over. This weekend it felt too short. Next weekend we have a family event planned that we are hosting. I bet I'll be itching for the weekend to be over just so the event is done and over with.

I'm hoping to start doing one chore a day this week. I have a backlog of things that need doing. Plus, one room looks is full of kid things that I haven't found a place for. I really need to do that before the piles get any bigger.

There was an article in the nytimes about prolonged exposure therapy by a former marine who went to Iraq as a reporter. It sounds to me like they threw the baby out with the bathwater. As in, t can get naturally repetitive, but thats not something a t should tell a client to do, cold, as a "technique." My repeating myself helps me now, at this late date, with a safe t.

ummm ok bad dreams this morning . this sucks .I hardly ever dream but when I seem to it is horrible and I don't want to dream at all. god life and people suck . according to my dreams any way.

ready im sorry you are having a bad time right now but am glad you are posting here

Sorry you had bad dreams granite. I don't remember if your t does dream work? My brain isn't functioning yet this morning. Working with my dreams with t, especially the bad ones has been helpful for me.

I dreamed night before last about going to visit my t in her home office. I never saw her, but did see photos on a piano and on a windowless window ledge of some young women with long blond hair that all looked similar to her so I assumed were family but I couldn't tell if any of them were t. She had made me something to eat and left it out for me but I wouldn't eat it because I didn't know what it was. Then it was time for me to leave.

Looking forward to working with this one when I talk to t later this week! I haven't worked with it yet other than having the thought that it's somehow significant that she never shows up in the dream, because she has NEVER not shown up for an appointment. It must mean something in the dream language.

For the couches viewing pleasure... Teeny tiny whittle baby kitties..

Kittens are cute and so is the mama. I love orange tiger cats.

Oh! Momma kitty barely looks 9 months old! I mean i know its hard to tell, but she looks like a teenage mom, poor lil thing i love when the baby kitties tails are still pointy like that, so cute!! Thanks for these healed

omg kitties are adorable I so want the tricolor one

She does look a lot younger in the pic.. We are pretty confident she is over a year, but still a teen mom none the less! She is getting fixed as soon as the kitties are adopted out!

She is doing good though!!

Awww they're super cute!! Itty bitty kitty committee!

I was only thinking last night was need kitty photos and hoping healed would post the kittens. All my Ds mice do at the moment is lie around as we have separated boys from girls. Does anyone know how to stop Safari offering suggestions on the iPad, as I've tried to type a sentence twice but it keeps putting "bengals" as word..do I go settings?