Therapy almost finished ... again.

So one last session with the current T. In two weeks, since next week is a holiday.

It sucks, I just get used to a person (okay, I'm slow but I don't warm up easily to people ... 8 months isn't enough for me - excluding holidays) and then they leave.

I don't want to be left every single time a therapist is done their stupid training and goes out into the "real world". I don't mind being a "practice" client, I really don't ... except for the leaving part.

Okay, I'm pathetic. I hate being abandoned and this is exactly what it feels like to me. I was getting so used to him too... told him something I never told another soul and now he's gone.

Sorry just had to vent, because I want to go cry now.

How many more therapists will leave? Since last September (okay, September 2006) I have had two therapists.

So now I've got to figure out what to do with myself.

Canders, I'm so sorry. Ouch, that hurts. It's so hard to reveal to another person, that we really value the ones we can do that with. (((hugs)))

Is it possible for you to get a therapist who is past the training stage so that he/she can stick with you longer? I would find it very hard to put myself wholeheartedly into therapy if I knew the person was leaving soon. I would always be holding back a part of myself to keep from getting hurt.

Canders, I'm so sorry, I don't know how you do it but you must be a strong person. I agree with Sunrise, you can get someone past training stage?

My first 4-5 therapist were training until I found/was referred to "the" therapist for me and she only lasted 27 years :-) I hated that too, you get the school/few month "public" ones. Even the one before "the" therapist only lasted a year and a half or so, still not enough for me.

Hope you get a sticker next :-)

(((((((((((((((((((((Christina))))))))))))))))))))

I know how hard this must be ... going around from on therapist to another is very tough. You feel like you just warm up to one person, and you open yourself up, and then just like that they have to leave for whatever reason ... its only natural that you be feeling like this - you are NOT pathetic, not in the least bit.

I just found out today that my T will be leaving me for two months today as well. I know its not long, but still, i know how you are feeling .. well, somewhat anyways. Sorry if i have already asked this, but are you going to be seeing another T?

Sorry i haven't been around much, i'm going to do my best to be around more though. And you know that i'm ALWAYS here for you ..

Take good care of you
BIG hugs
Jacq

Thanks (((((((((everyone))))))))))))

I've been getting a person in training because the chaplain of my university (I am sort of employed and I hang out a lot in the chaplaincy ) is the supervisor for people going to get their Masters training before they graduate. It's easier (and nicer) to be a client to one of them because you develop a closer relationship than the one I've felt with my T at the health services on campus. I can only go to people who are "free" because my family can't find out, and I don't have a job.

I've got to run, but I'll be back to answer specific questions later.

Thanks ((((((((all)))))))))))

(((( canders ))))

I am so sorry! That must feel awful.

Is there some way you can get a permanent therapist? How in the world can they expect you to bond and trust when you have abandonment looming in your mind?

I don't think 8 months is very long either. I'd be crying too. Here, come lean on my shoulder.

I could get a more "permanent" therapist at health services offered by my university, but in all reality they try to place an 8 session limit per semester on visits unless you really need it. I can't really pursue off-campus counselling because I can't afford it and my family is less than supportive of counselling, let alone any psychology-related stuff.

Argh. This is really upsetting me now more than ever. It seems the minute I trust a T to tell them something I don't tell anyone else, they leave a few sessions later. Last one was the SIng, now it's the past event of abuse/assault.

Crap crap crap. Lesson learned, don't trust anyone because they'll leave you. I don't know how I'm going to survive 4 months without anyone, just to restart in September with somebody new.

Canders, do you have any health insurance? Even through your parents? If so, have you looked into the mental health benefit? In the U.S., once kids turn 14, they can use the health insurance as they want and parents do not have access to their records, but the insurance still pays if they are part of the parents' plan. Even better if you have your own plan. I know, because when my oldest daughter turned 14, I ceased having access to her records. The only thing I can see is the date she went to the doctor and the name of the doctor. But I can't see the diagnosis or the procedures carried out. I would hope they have to get my permission if they do something really serious, but right now, age 14 and over gets confidentiality with providers. Especially if you are over 18, your parents wouldn't ever know how you were using your insurance benefit.

Good luck.

I went through the permission issue because I had surgery 5 days after my 18th birthday. In terms of the wavers I had to sign before having the surgery, I had to be 18. So for things like that, I'd imagine you'd need a parent. Heck, we have to sign an xray waver every time we get xrays and if under 18 a parent has to sign.

Becca

Thank you both, I'm from Canada and I don't actually know the rules here. I'm potentially looking into short-term counselling (as my T recommended) to deal with the processing of the past "traumatic" event, but that's it.

I'm just so scared they could find out, and it would mean the end of ME.

Are you staying at the University over the summer? If you are can you not see someone then? .. I was talking to my T today and she was saying that the University policy was in the middle of changing and that they will offer their services to clients (even if they are not taking a summer course) who have been seeing them through the year in the summer ... I dont know if thats the same for you, but its something that maybe you could look into? Although i'm sure you have already ...

I'm here for you ...

(((((((((((Jacq))))))))))))))

Thanks for reminding me. I can still see my one T I've not been seeing while seeing the current person, but it's hard to go back to her since she has a summer vacation in July/August usually. I shouldn't complain so much, I'm gone for the entire month of May so it wouldn't have mattered, but it still sucks to me.

Thank you.

Canders, what if you went through the university services to find someone? They may be able to recommend someone out in the community who has reduceds fees or a similar situation.

I found mine through a psychoanalytic institute; I called and asked for someone in my area who is a candidate (someone who is already educated and licensed and has been accepted by the institute for addicitonal education and training; some have Masters and doctorates already but are training in psychoanalytic theory and practice). So I'm wondering if you have something similar there? You might find out more by calling the uni services and talking to them some.

For now, while you are hurting, I send you caring hugs.