Couch 91 - Forget the small change

Do you mean hair cut?

Yep lol that's middle of the night one handed typing with no glasses for ya.

3k is when we get to title ourselves?

Cool.

Also, XBOX ONE!!! I'm in love. Ssshhhh don't tell the husband.

Must be. Mine was out of town last week and mysteriously said she was "not available" this week, so my next appt is a week from Thursday. I'm good with it, other than sorta-kinda wanting to get it over with, since we'll be discussing the "momentarily regressed" email I sent her after we talked last. It shall be oodles of fun. Not.

Morning couch. More coffee please!

Have T tonight. For 30 minutes. Feel like cancelling. Guess that means I really need to go, huh?

Happy Tuesday Couch. . .

I have been asked to be a sheeple.

I have never ever understood why it is best to go to an appointment if you don't want to. I tried it a couple of times and they were complete unmitigated disasters. I know a lot of people say going helps, I just never found it so. When I don't want to go that badly, I take a break.

Is that good or bad? I don't know what it means.

Act like a sheep. As in, keep one's opinion to oneself. Happens around here with annoying frequency. (Sorry Lickety)

I have T this morning, then off to work. I just want to crawl back into my bed and stay there. I'm tired of trying to act like a grown up.

Seriously- someone has asked people to do this? I had not noticed.(really - I am not being sarcastic)

LS -on here or in real life? (or never mind if you don't want to answer)

I feel like staying in bed too. I see my doctor this morning to discuss my depression. I have T tomorrow. Then not for two weeks because I have no babysitter next week.

It's better to go to therapy if one doesn't want to go in order to avoid something. I can see where it would be possible to just not be into going, or sick of it and need a break, though I've never experienced this. Too many issues I want relief from. It would be so nice.

There are 14 people in my dr's waiting room...argh. I can barely breathe.

Gah!!! I'm leaving for my doctors office in a few minutes. I hope it isn't busy!

T called out sick... Despite my whinging about not wanting to get out of bed today I really did want to go. I'm not in a very good place.

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Give it 40 years. Then youll want a break. I dont understand why my t doesnt understand. Hes gonna kill this golden goose!

Eta - okay, just discussed it with him. Hes not my mother, hes not backing me into a corner. We moved an appointment, giving me some breathing room for my bug guy. But now i just got home to a letter from the insurance company about my precious topamax, that they might take it away from me, and im like again panicking that nobody knows how to take care of me. T and i started talking about the panic today. I guess i look too calm.

I would have been hugely disappointed if this had ever happened to me, I usually looked forward to going so much. Hope your day gets better. Will T reschedule?

Generally when I start withdrawing, skipping work, appointments, etc. it is an indication that my depression is out of control again. And since I missed last session due to illness, I really need to go have my decompression session. I am dreading the whole not-going-straight-home-to-hop-into-bed thing, which is a huge indication that I need to drag myself in. Ugh.

I need my Prozac tune up! Pdoc in April. Fingers crossed a tweek will help me. I want my (emotional) numbness and (physical) zest back!

Are you banned from the group the moment you move out? That seems odd. At the very least, your moving out experiences would provide encouragement and support to those still trapped inside.

i miss group a bit too. but not that much, because hospital sucks.

I didn't have such a great experience at group, being so shy that I couldn't give advice, and being so ashamed all I could do was cry when I received advice. I was there over a year before I finally got comfortable, then I was done!

I think I have a splinter. I am trying raw honey on it to see if it pulls it out.
I am falling apart.

Sounds like you might need a hug.

Are you trying to actually finish me off?