Couch 91 - Forget the small change

Mar 31, 2015, 05:10 PM

Finally admitted to my T i was lonely and would like a man to go to dinner with and not just have sex. We talked about i control men with sex and little about the slightly sadistic boyfriend i had at 16. He shot me in the leg when doing target practise.

Mar 31, 2015, 05:11 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

Are you trying to actually finish me off?

stopdog · Mar 31, 2015, 05:22 PM

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Originally Posted by Bipolarartist

little about the slightly sadistic boyfriend i had at 16. He shot me in the leg when doing target practise.

Agh - that sounds awful.

Mar 31, 2015, 05:25 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

Agh - that sounds awful.

I have limp from it, its generally easier to say they limp is congenital rather than tell whole sorry saga. To tell the truth my memory of it is a bit sketchy.

JustShakey · Mar 31, 2015, 05:26 PM

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Originally Posted by Brown Owl

I would have been hugely disappointed if this had ever happened to me, I usually looked forward to going so much. Hope your day gets better. Will T reschedule?

I was quite upset alright, but I feel better now. I won't reschedule, but I'll probably email him in a day or so when he's hopefully feeling better.

I just got out of work. I'm working on a presentation with my boss. She's very Christian and I'm very not and her business is bible based. That's another thing therapy has taught me - openness to and appreciation of others' beliefs and opinions. A year ago I would have been very frustrated working on this project, but now I'm actually enjoying myself, and finding lots of common ground!

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Mar 31, 2015, 05:34 PM

Sheepie what a curious expression.i have always found that stick there nose in places they dont belong. Esp the outside toilets we had before sewerage system. Or have i read the post wrong.

CantExplain · Mar 31, 2015, 05:44 PM

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Originally Posted by Bipolarartist

Finally admitted to my T i was lonely and would like a man to go to dinner with and not just have sex. We talked about i control men with sex and little about the slightly sadistic boyfriend i had at 16. He shot me in the leg when doing target practise.

Slightly?!?!

Mar 31, 2015, 06:02 PM

My govt payments are being reduced because i did not put in a tax return .as i am on a govt tax free payments. This means a trip into town which i hate. I think i was supposed to notify the tax dept of my non lodgement. These govt dept can talk to each other when they want to...

JustShakey · Mar 31, 2015, 06:05 PM

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Originally Posted by CantExplain

Are you banned from the group the moment you move out? That seems odd. At the very least, your moving out experiences would provide encouragement and support to those still trapped inside.

The ones in the shelter at just for residents. There are outreach groups - I'm meeting with the outreach coordinator tomorrow so I'll find out more. There's no childcare though, as nuts as that seems for a women's DV group, so I don't know if I'll be able to go.

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StressedMess · Mar 31, 2015, 06:18 PM

So I learned 2 personal things about T today. She's almost 60, and she's retiring in July to work for herself as a career counselor. I ooohed and ahhhed over self employment while she stumbled all over the place trying to stifle her (canned) reaction. She was going to say something conciliatory but it wasn't necessary. She thanked me for my congrats and expressed her intention to say a little prayer for me every time I crossed her mind, and asked me to do the same for her.

Is it weird that I'm not sad and weepy? Oh, well, I've been weird all my life, no sense changing now!

UnderRugSwept · Mar 31, 2015, 06:30 PM

I am having issues sitting still and almost all of the time (unless I am doing my OCD cleaning), I have the opposite issue...moving is usually difficult. This is an incredibly irritating feeling.

UnderRugSwept · Mar 31, 2015, 06:32 PM

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Originally Posted by catonyx

Gah!!! I'm leaving for my doctors office in a few minutes. I hope it isn't busy!

I hope your appt. went well and that the waiting room wasn't overly populated!

JustShakey · Mar 31, 2015, 06:41 PM

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Originally Posted by Bipolarartist

Finally admitted to my T i was lonely and would like a man to go to dinner with and not just have sex. We talked about i control men with sex and little about the slightly sadistic boyfriend i had at 16. He shot me in the leg when doing target practise.

Slightly sadistic?

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JustShakey · Mar 31, 2015, 06:46 PM

Other side of wall neighbors are being all about the bass again

I need to get my sh^t together and get on with my life so I can move into a slightly more upscale apartment complex ASAP.

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catonyx · 07:51 PM

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Originally Posted by Elsewhere

I hope your appt. went well and that the waiting room wasn't overly populated!

Thanks. The waiting room was busy, but I was only waiting two minutes so it was ok. The appointment went well. It is the after appointment that sucked.

Hope your appointment went well.

Crescent Moon · Mar 31, 2015, 07:04 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

Are you trying to actually finish me off?

My cyber-life would never be the same if that happened. So.. hug suggestion is withdrawn.

you okay now?

StressedMess · Mar 31, 2015, 08:28 PM

In search of an un-hug emoticon for SD, since the Ack button was such a hit!

Goodnight couch, can't keep the peepers open another minute.

RTerroni · Mar 31, 2015, 08:46 PM

I had a big fight with my dad tonight, fortunately I have Therapy tomorrow to discuss it.

stopdog · Mar 31, 2015, 09:04 PM

I am experimenting with making my own summer sausage. I am going to smoke one and cook one in the oven and try one with venison. Then I shall make three different types of mustard to go along with them and then get my friends to do a taste test.

catonyx · Mar 31, 2015, 09:33 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

I am experimenting with making my own summer sausage. I am going to smoke one and cook one in the oven and try one with venison. Then I shall make three different types of mustard to go along with them and then get my friends to do a taste test.

That sounds good. I like homemade sausage.

catonyx · Mar 31, 2015, 09:33 PM

*squishes in the cushions*

Couch 91 - Forget the small change

KayDubs · Mar 31, 2015, 09:51 PM

'sup cat! welcome back.

catonyx · Mar 31, 2015, 09:56 PM

Thanks. Glad to be back.

healed84 · Mar 31, 2015, 10:18 PM

Trigger warning for talk of suicidal ideation and inpatient/t treatment.

Possible trigger:

T said to me last session that if I can't stop my suicidal ideation under control then it is time to talk about IP treatment. I was already pretty agigated at that point in my session and I made some kind of sarcastic comment about.. Oh it that easy, you tell me you can't treat me like this and ohhh, I am supposed to snap out of it and be better. Well, that is not happening. T asked me to check in with him this weekend after our session just to tell him how I was feeling. I told him that I can't do this whole ultimatum thing because it sounds more like a threat. That if he thought IP care is what I needed to get past this part of my illness than lets have that conversation. He replied back that he understands it feels like a punishment, but its the way it has to be to keep me safe. He also said that it was a good idea to talk about it all, have maybe a more clear plan on what to do from here. So, I am supposed to see him on Friday and talk about it. The thing is, his reply actually was quiet comforting to me, ( he said more than I just mentioned) and I wasn't pissed at him. Right now, though.. I am. I am all of a sudden angry with him and his stupid threat. Maybe because I am having a rough week, depression is bad, anxiety is bad, etc.. and now I know that if I go back in there and admit to the ideations, I am scared of the outcome.. and I never have felt like I have had to censor myself in front of t, but now I do. Argh.. I am so pissed and not sure if I make sense.

Mar 31, 2015, 10:27 PM

Healed, you've been talking about IP for a few days now. Perhaps it is time to go in where you can be safe and they can get you stabilized. Your T isn't telling you to snap out of it. He's saying that the ideations do not seem to be subsiding in any way and he feels you could become a danger to yourself. You are agitated and withdrawing. Not good signs. He isn't threatening you; he is telling you that you are getting to the point where IP may be what has to happen to keep you safe. Rather than censor yourself, how about being honest with yourself that it is time to be where you are safe and can get more intensive treatment.

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