Couch 91 - Forget the small change

Very cute!

Nice puppy

Sweet lil puppy!!! Love the pic!

Ahhh! Why am I still awake???

T said something interesting.. I asked him why he thought I hadn't progressed past my suicidal ideations, and actually they are worse than before I started therapy. So, I went on to name things that I probably could be doing to help that. And he said, "well.. when I see a client not progressing I look at myself and wonder why I am doing wrong."

That threw me.. because as much as T can change his approach, refer us to somebody else, hospitalize us. They can't make us change our way of thinking. I kind of felt bad actually because I think my T is doing a great job!

Puppeh!!! Squeeeeeeeee!!!

So my t texted me early this afternoon asking to change my appt from Thursday to Wednesday. Of course I didn't see the text for hours after she'd sent it, well after I'd emailed her my dreams. Guess I should bother to look at my phone on weekends! I'm cool with changing days, 'specially when it means we get to talk sooner. I am going to be ready to get right into the "how in the world do we say goodbye" conversation. It feels like a challenge that I am prepared to meet. And not just prepared, but ready for, even. It feels pretty darn good, ya'all!!

I hate how baguettes get hard within a day.

And on an odder note - I have a song from Annie Get Your Gun stuck in my head.

Artemis i'm glad you're doing so well! Keep up the good work lol

People are out cutting their grass today. Mine is in splotchy patches.

People are saying on Facebook that it is snowing in my part of Sweden. Bah.

Returning home tomorrow evening. I'm glad I see T on Tuesday. I really need to talk to him.

Oh, which one? I like that musical.

~~ Beyond the hill there's a ? little still ~~

I don't have grass. I had bacon for breakfast. The seven year old is having her Sims dance. The 10 year old doesn't want to keep his pants on. Snow'd be nice for a change. I should go have a shower and do something with myself. I suppose I should get these kids out of the house for a few hours. Don't want to though. Too much like work

I went to a journey circle this morning with my drumming group, in a local park, it was so beautiful gathered there in circle under the mesquite trees. I love outdoor circles. During the 2nd journey I was given a poem, I so love it when that happens!!

Yes - it is Moonshine Lullaby.

Can't be on too much for a few days. Determined to finish blackbird pie. Not sure if I should he even crocheting a pie but oh well.

T session Friday was one of those changing ones. Now I understand why I never did much with my life though I tried and, except for a couple years of Jr High bullying have no major traumas in my background. Not an excuse but sure explains a lot.

Back to work. Happy whatever holiday if any you celebrate. Sounds flip but I mean it. Passed by an Easter egg hunt on the bus and it looked cute and fun!

Bread. Bread. Bread. Bread.
Only the second day. A little more than 6 to go.
Going to the corner store to get almond crackers and cheese. Fat and cholesterol be dammed. Then get to work.

I don't have grass either, just rocks, with a few weeds here and there for good measure. lol. There's grass at the park I went to this morning though, so that was nice. Barely green and pretty dry, but grass nonetheless, and lots of mesquite trees. I love the trees there.

I like the way a nice grassy lawn looks -but I think they are environmental disasters.

rock lawns are easier to maintain than grass, too. well i don't like the weeds, but that's what teenagers who want to earn money are for!

I wish i could afford bacon *sigh* enjoy it js. We have the most amazing grass here it goes all dead andcrackly but after a couple hours of rain it starts to green up again. Where i grew up that would not have happened once its dead the grass doesnt come back.

I used to have a lovely lawn in Cali. And flowers and rosebushes and a blooming jasmine by the front door that smelled absolutely heavenly. I miss my garden
When I finally do get a garden here in AZ I'm going to have to figure out how to grow things here... Pretty sure I'm not going to do grass though. It doesn't belong in the desert IMNSHO. Kinda wasteful.

i hate being a mother I hate being so stressed out I hate me and I hate my husband I cant talk about my stress with him I need to be always happy and crapping rainbows around him .it is just eating me up I cant take it any more

im sorry im just really stressed and I have no one I can talk to about it . it seems to be endless ever sense my son has gotten out of the service . I cant stop stressing about him .every time I think things are ok something happens and I stress way out of control and I get upset and my husband just clams up and just cowers and says nothing to me as I am upset

(((Granite)))