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(((Ellahmae))) All my life.

Customer mangers forget who they work for sometimes.

I think I might have figured out what I want to do when I grow up. Next step, figure out how to do it as a single mom with two kids and no money. Easy peasy. Right?

Thanks. It is frustrating and painful.

Ooh ooh! Inquiring (read: nosy) minds want to know! I'm still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. I think knowing might be more than half the battle.

No, we only get deliveries one night a week from the distribution center. If we run out of something mid-week we order it from am outside vendor who overnights it to us in the mail.

There is the saying "You can have it fast, cheap, or well done. But you can only pick 2."

Evening, couch.

The truck came early and we finished putting everything away by 9pm. So, about 9:15 when there was nothing else to do, I was told to clock out and go home, since I had been there since 10am. So, I came home, ate dinner (leftovers from Tuesday), and now here I am. I don't work until evening tomorrow after T.

I hope T goes well. I am scared about giving her my letter. I hope I don't chicken out. I'm too afraid to tell her verbally, so I went for a letter. I was going to mail it, but I chickened out. Here's hoping I can give it to her and we can talk about the things in it.

Nothing like eating stale honey comb right out of the box...

I have stale corn pops. Not as sugary as I remember as a kid (Think they used to be called sugar corn pops, now they just shout out how much fiber it contains.)

Wanna trade?

Deal. Honeycomb, 1g fiber lol.

Corn pops, 3 grams of fiber per serving
it's all yours

Very angry and passive-aggressive tonight, rude and raising my voice. My sister (who is the one who pissed me off) said "Adderall makes you yell" to which I snidely replied "no, being too chicken to cuss you out makes me yell."

I'm for bed, all this anxiety and anger all week has worn me out. I'm meeting with a bankruptcy attorney in the morning so I'm a nervous wreck. I've been looking at bank statements and contracts and bills and actually FACING my mountains of bad decisions all week. The ostrich really wants to bury her head back in the sand right now!

Goodnight couch!

Hubby and I went through a bankruptcy a little over 3 years ago. I was a wreck I must admit, it was very difficult for me and I was glad I had t to help me get through it. Not an enjoyable experience and I'm sending lots of good thoughts your way to accompany you to the meeting with the attorney. Looking back on it, I know it was something we had to do, and I'm glad we did, because we are so much wiser now and managing our money much better and we got out from under a crushing load of debt which included a house in california that was worth way less than what we owed on it due to the housing crash. Anyway my thoughts are with you. eta: our bankruptcy attorney was the best. funny thing, he sent me an invite on linked in about a year ago, it was out of the blue.

Is it bad that i know that the pharmacies get their deliveries on thursdays? They do at my store!

I read a thing, i told my t about it cuz i think he likes to see me happy, that said that if you think things are gonna be much better next year, you are more delusional than a regular person who is not so optimistic. I keep thinking things will be better, but i really am working on it. I swam every day this week, total 4 hours so far. Hey so what - you dont want a wrinkly frowny face.

On to Ritz and chocolate peanut butter... In bed. Ha.

I've already written up two replies to this and deleted 'em both

I think I know, but I'm scared to share. In case, you know, it all fades away or something. I was always told what I was to do. I almost feel like I'm not allowed to have my own ideas. That someone will laugh at me for being a silly girl for thinking that she can do *that*.
I was talking to my mother a month or so back about work and school and the like and she said something about my being too old to start something new. Of course my mother has always been quick to tell me what I can't do...

It's not psychology though, I'll say that. Like you, I've gotten very interested in psychology since I've been in therapy, and I would probably enjoy studying it, but I couldn't see myself working in the field. It's just not me.

((StressedMess))

Downstairs neighbor came knocking on my door asking to use my internet.
(Uhhhh, I was using [other neighbor's] Internet, but he didn't pay his bill, so, uh, can I use yours?)
WTF dude? If you want to use my internet you offer to pay half the bill. And I still wouldn't do it. MY broadband, tyvm. Idiot.

JS - sheesh, clueless doesn't begin to describe some people...!

Morning couch. I woke up from a dream where T had replied to the text message I sent him yesterday afternoon (which was just a "thank you for all your help and support, I think I have made some real progress, have a wonderful summer" message - interestingly, I haven't felt at all guilty for sending it) but it had been intercepted by my father who removed part of it. Rather an interesting dream, actually.

I can relate to this - I was also always told what I could and could not do, and even what I liked and didn't like, and it's really difficult to get out of that mindset. I'm curious too, and I count on you to tell us what it is when you feel ready to do so!

Shakey, can I use your Internet?

I have come to my training rather late in the day, someone has just joined who is 60! So, I guess it's never too late really. I found it hard going back to uni with young children, but maybe just be realistic about expectations on time, house work etc, and go easy on yourself.
I bet whatever it is you'll be great at it. You've come through so much already, you have amazing inner strength and resources even if it doesn't always feel that way.
Xxx

When I did development work, I was often frustrated by how clients didn't seem to understand "Cheap, fast, good. You can only pick two."

"And now, if you'll excuse me, I have useful work to do for paying customers."

No other stores get them on other days here. North end of the county gets them on Tuesdays. Central on Wednesdays. And South on Thusdays. My county is about 80 miles long from North to South.

The trucks deliver more than medications though. They carry the general store stuff too (like shampoo and toilet paper).

We had a big shipment last night. 16 totes of drugs just for the pharmacy. Our shelves are packed now.