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Leah123 · Jun 06, 2015, 09:35 PM

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Originally Posted by Squirrel1983

Evening couch. Well, no cleaning today (what's new). I slept in till 30 minutes before I had to leave for work (and I didn't have to leave until 2:30pm). I went to work and was fine. I was hungry after work, so I went to my favorite restaurant for a bite to eat. Then came home and am exhausted and feel like sleeping again. What is wrong with me?!? Why am I sleeping so much?!? Why can't I finish a task that needs completed?!? Maybe it has to do with having not taken the meds I still take pills for in about 3 or 3.5 weeks. Maybe it is catching up with me. I just can't remember to take them until it is too late, so I just choose not to. Maybe that is what pdoc meant last visit when he said I could not be trusted to take pills and needed to stay on the injection for the one medication. This is not the first time this has happened.

I want to be normal. Why do I self-sabatoge and not take my medication and end up feeling miserable? Guess it's something else to tackle in therapy. Dang, the list is getting long.

I hope you'll have some compassion for yourself. You are holding down a job, doing therapy, and no doubt other things.

Everyone I know self-sabotages to some extent, if we look at it that way... too much junk food or too much drinking. Too much relationship drama or too much procrastinating. Or too little sleep, or too little organization, or... whatever it may be. We're just human after all, sometimes I think it's hard to always be up for the chore-list that is life as grown ups.

Hope you do take good care of yourself med-wise, but I just wanted you to know you had a ton of company in not cleaning everything up on schedule

JustShakey · Jun 06, 2015, 09:47 PM

I'm finding I don't like that my T sessions have moved from Tuesday to Thursday, even though it suits my schedule better. I used to have practically the whole week to email him if I felt I needed to but now the weekend hits right when I want to contact him it seems...

stopdog · Jun 06, 2015, 10:02 PM

Couldn't you email him anyway - just with the knowledge he may not respond until Monday?

Jun 06, 2015, 10:05 PM

I am feeling really guilty right now for upsetting my h earlier. I know he loves me and he was really worried about me earlier when I was panicking and now I am sitting here afraid that he is going to get sick of me once and for all and leave. I am realizing a difficult truth that I have not really been fair to him recently and I need to figure out how to apologize and make it up to him. I hope I have not realized this too late.

JustShakey · Jun 06, 2015, 10:05 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

Couldn't you email him anyway - just with the knowledge he may not respond until Monday?

If it was an office email I would, but it goes directly to his cell and I don't want to interrupt his weekend.

JustShakey · Jun 06, 2015, 10:10 PM

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Originally Posted by artemis-within

I am feeling really guilty right now for upsetting my h earlier. I know he loves me and he was really worried about me earlier when I was panicking and now I am sitting here afraid that he is going to get sick of me once and for all and leave. I am realizing a difficult truth that I have not really been fair to him recently and I need to figure out how to apologize and make it up to him. I hope I have not realized this too late.

Art, there's two of you in that marriage. I'm thinking you each do your share of annoying stuff

stopdog · Jun 06, 2015, 10:19 PM

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Originally Posted by JustShakey

If it was an office email I would, but it goes directly to his cell and I don't want to interrupt his weekend.

I would ask if he minds or I would send it and say why and that I did not expect a response and indicate it is not an emergency. I think email is something a recipient can control when they read it.

stopdog · Jun 06, 2015, 10:21 PM

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Originally Posted by artemis-within

I am feeling really guilty right now for upsetting my h earlier. I know he loves me and he was really worried about me earlier when I was panicking and now I am sitting here afraid that he is going to get sick of me once and for all and leave. I am realizing a difficult truth that I have not really been fair to him recently and I need to figure out how to apologize and make it up to him. I hope I have not realized this too late.

Art - I hope this is not too bold - but you seem a bit all over the place tonight to extremes. Have you tried doing some centering/breathing stuff and slow down some?

Jun 06, 2015, 10:46 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

Art - I hope this is not too bold - but you seem a bit all over the place tonight to extremes. Have you tried doing some centering/breathing stuff and slow down some?

thank you. i don't really know what's going on with me at all today. I'm going to go drum for a bit. sorry folks.

stopdog · Jun 06, 2015, 10:48 PM

Art - no need to be sorry - I hope drumming helps.

CantExplain · Jun 07, 2015, 12:00 AM

My confidence is very low.

growlycat · Jun 07, 2015, 12:02 AM

Art- wish I could join you in the lovely AZ desert.

CE- What's going on?

stopdog · Jun 07, 2015, 12:35 AM

Okay you british isle folk- i just made my own clotted cream and am going to make scones in the morning- I have two recipes claiming to be authentic and not just sweet pie shaped pucks. One has an egg and one does not- otherwise just about identical - any thoughts? I am leaning toward the egg inclusion.

JustShakey · Jun 07, 2015, 12:37 AM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

I would ask if he minds or I would send it and say why and that I did not expect a response and indicate it is not an emergency. I think email is something a recipient can control when they read it.

Thanks Stopdog. I'll have to talk to him about it. It's happened a few times now.

JustShakey · Jun 07, 2015, 12:38 AM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

Okay you british isle folk- i just made my own clotted cream and am going to make scones in the morning- I have two recipes claiming to be authentic and not just sweet pie shaped pucks. One has an egg and one does not- otherwise just about identical - any thoughts? I am leaning toward the egg inclusion.

My mam doesn't put an egg in her scones, just milk and butter. Never had them with clotted cream though - just butter and jam.

Jun 07, 2015, 12:55 AM

No egg in scones. It would make the dough too heavy and it would not rise. You wouldendup with rock cakes. Its tricky to get right as the dough relies on mixingair into it. Good luck my mum and grandma always used a knife to mixas it doesnt over work the dough.

CantExplain · Jun 07, 2015, 02:08 AM

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Originally Posted by growlycat

CE- What's going on?

I'm oversensitive to making mistakes.
I suspect the real cause is the yucky weather.
Everything is under control but I don't feel it is.

Jun 07, 2015, 04:25 AM

(((CE)))

Jun 07, 2015, 04:48 AM

I'm hurting today, and don't know how to deal with that. This letter to T business has grown larger inside my head than I can quite handle. I need to remember that for the future...

Jun 07, 2015, 06:19 AM

Oooh, today's Dilbert is about me! Dilbert Comic Strip on 2015-06-07 | Dilbert by Scott Adams

StressedMess · Jun 07, 2015, 07:04 AM

Two of my cats are hissing and fighting under the dining room table. Nosy me goes to investigate. There's an animal under there (we'll just assume involuntarily) visiting. They won't give it up. I just walked away. I am a poor hunter, a poor provider, and I'm okay with that.

What trophies have your cats brought you?

Jun 07, 2015, 07:14 AM

Several voles, a few small birds, and, once, a live adder(!) We didn't actually realise that it was still alive, it was very limp and still, but we put it in a glass jar and left it alone for a little while, and eventually it started to stir. It was a small adder, but if it had bitten the cat it would still have been quite dangerous, I think... Silly, silly kitten. (This is the same cat who made friends with the neighbours' bunny - it broke out of its hutch and went hopping slowly around on our driveway, and the cat walked along next to it, looking for all the world as if they were involved in amiable conversation...)

They have also brought home a plethora of pine cones and leafs.

RedSun · Jun 07, 2015, 07:22 AM

Hugs to Mast and CE

Stopdog, no eggs. Also, clotted cream, then jam on top. Not jam first. Needs to be strawberry jam. And with a nice cup of tea, obvs.

stopdog · Jun 07, 2015, 08:23 AM

The egg /no egg seems to be a contentious debate- I have been reading more on it and there seems no clear decision except here where you all agreed no egg. Often the comments came down to whether mum added an egg or didn't.
I am going to make two batches -one of each.

Jun 07, 2015, 08:33 AM

It's like the scone pronunciation debate

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