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After I came back inside and resumed normal breathing, this is exactly what I thought about - I had a bee dream a long time ago and t told me all about that. I shall consider it thusly (and still hope they move on soon!)

That is a (very) mild version of my initial reaction.....

If they don't leave, call a bee keeper.

Thanks. I did calm down enough to start googling what to do. I have been really afraid of buzzy/stingy insects forever. I think I must be getting a little more normal about it in my old age. 10 years ago I would have insisted on going to a motel for the night!

Grrrr! Accursed internet providers. Always so sure the problem is at my end. But the moment they reset the line, everything starts working again.

Goddess don't you hate that?! They ALWAYS blame it on my router. Even when it is a brand NEW one. I hate internet providers. I love my internet when it works like it should but gah when they try to blame their problems on me.

Oooooo! Cool. They're swarming I think - looking for a good spot for a new hive

Those bees look very cool. I find bees fascinating.

The biggest swarm looked to be about 8 inches across and 15 inches tall not sure how big around hubby estimated several thousand bees. Not sure about the smaller one.

Do a Google search for beekeepers in your area. They will often come rescue a swarming hive. If they don't find a new place they may die. If you make a few calls you can probably find someone who will save them. They may not leave on. Their own

Can't sleep. Another crappy The session plus being miserable about pet pet means I'm exhausted but wide awake. Indulged in some self destructive coping mechanisms tonight. Not a great evening

Thanks. Yeah, I have a friend back in the midwest who is friends with the head of the beekeepers association back there and she's gonna hook me up... so we'll find somebody to do a live removal if they aren't gone in the morning.

(((bb)))

Morning, couch.

I just had my shower (woke up late) and am chilling before I have to work later this afternooon.

T yesterday went so-so. I am still trying to adjust to a new therapist. She tried to contact my old T for records, but my old T fax machine was broken so she couldn't send them. New T said old T offered to certidtied mail them, but new T said she wanted a fax. Old T also offered to talk on the phone for information, but new T said she wanted hard records for my file. Grrrr.... Old T is trying, and new T is set on getting a fax.

Since old T is no longer in practice, I doubt she is going to get her fax machine fixed or get a new one. Why does she need one anymore, so I guess new T is never going to get the records. Maybe this is a sign that this is not the T for me. New T is still saying she doesn't know why I am in therapy. I want old T back, why did she have to retire.

New T is saying if I can hold down 2 jobs and do well at both of them, I am functioning excellent and don't have a need for therapy. Okay, yes...but I have other things that bring me down or stress me out when I am not at work. Pdoc even thinks I need therapy due to my diagnosis. I'd hate to have a shared chart, but maybe going with a T in his office would be the way to go. At least then, he's there to give his input.

Maybe I will make an appointment with his therapist to try her out. She if I like her better than my new T. I dunno what to do.

Yeah new t sounds like a douche. I like the way pdoc takes care of you. Why not try his t? I like the idea of your having a team. When i had my stroke, i experienced that, kinda. It was good. I think thats what family is supposed to be like - a bunch of people rowing in one direction.

This therapist does not sound like she will be useful to you.
I am theoretically opposed to the idea of combining those guys together - although for me, it is not a worry since I take no meds and see no mds of any sort. I just think combining them sounds awful - the whole team thing doesn't work for me when talking about the world of western health care.

Squirrel, I don't think it's up to the T to decide if you should be in therapy or not, that's your decision. As for thinking you don't need therapy because you can keep a job, that's just ridiculous. There's far more to life than working. Essentially she's saying you're not entitled to support because you're high functioning. But what if support is what's making you high functioning? And not working with your former T to get records? Sounds like she doesn't even want to be bothered. I'm with Hankster - she sounds like a douche.

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The bees have left my yard! Yay! However, I think they are somewhere near the pool now. I was swimming earlier and after about an hour, there were a bunch of them (I counted 15, there may have been more) flying around the pool and walking on the ground under the deck chairs. I can't swim with bees buzzing around my head cuz they freak me out. Well, I had swam for an hour before I noticed them, so at least there's that. I sent an email to our HOA peeps letting them know about the bees.

I'm off to meet my drumming friends we're heading out for some moonlight drumming tonight. It couldn't have come at a better time!

Whew just home from a few hours at the lake, ready to drop in front of the a/c and chill for a while. Happy Saturday Couch!!

Thanks, JS. Yes, before I started therapy how ever many years ago, I was a wreck. I still was able to hold a job, but I did the bare minimum for it just to get by and was never recognized for anything. I was still afraid to get a pdoc closer to home and was still driving 95 miles (one way) each month to see the one I was seeing before I moved back to my hometown. I was very illogical with my thinking and disorganized. I was a wreck. Old T helped me over many hurdles.

As for getting the records, she's the one who asked me to sign a release because she wanted them (even though I told her I had already signed a release with old T). Since she is the one who wants them, you'd think she'd be more open to getting them by a method other than fax.

She has a busy schedule too. Her schedule is usually booked and you have to schedule 4 weeks in advance. Very strange.

I'll give it some thought. I really don't like the idea of a shared chart between pdoc and t, which would happen if I saw his T. But, it may be the best option at this point.

This is why she is queen of the squirrels. Its no idle title.

In other news, I ate way too much today.

One of my housemates made what she called macaroni and cheese. I would not call it that. She cooked elbow noodles and tossed them in a casserol dish plain. Topped them with a layer of stewed tomatoes and chopped onion. Then topped that with a layer of colby-jack shredded cheese. Finally topping it off with bread crumbs. She then baked it in the oven. I tried some thinking maybe the cheese was able to melt down to the pasta. Nope, still plain noodles. It was nice of her to offer me some and say I can help myself to some whenever I want. It just was not for me. I like my mac and cheese to have cheese on the noodles. And the tomatoes in mac and cheese was a little weird. Oh well, I guess everyone has different ways of making things.

So, anyways...I had a plate of that. Then I was still hungry, so I ate my leftovers from lunch at Beef O'Brady's yesterday (I took home about half the meal and finished it off today). Then I went to work. I got off, was hungry, so I went to Checkers (since they are open late) and ordered 2 Cheddar Bacon Crisps (basically a bacon double cheeseburger) and an extra large fry. I ate it all. I am full now. I had a couple of Dunkin Donuts munchkins while at work, since one of the morning techs left them for anyone to eat. So much food. I like to eat. That's probably a bad thing now that I am older (still not old though) and my metabolism isn't as fast. I've always liked to eat and could eat whatever I wanted without gaining an ounce when I was a kid and in college. Now, I gain weight if I eat junk. :-P My mom always said it would catch up with me in my 30's. I guess she was right.

The schedule for the week of July 4th should be posted tomorrow, if the pharm manager finished it on time (sometimes he doesn't). Have to see if he honored (remembered) my request to have the morning of T off. I will give this new t 2 more sessions before I make a decision. See if she changes.

I wonder if I am scheduled for 4th of July. I volunteered to work if I was needed. I don't mind working holidays. The time and a half is nice. Plus, I don't do anything special on holidays really (except Christmas and Easter). So, why not let people who want to make plans for bbq's or other events have the day off and I go into work.

Well, it is 12:30AM, I better hit the hay. Night, couch.

Hi couch, I just got home from my drumming circle... it was such a beautiful time as always with beautiful people. We didn't see the moon, but there were about a gazillion stars!! And it's so funny. After we hike down to the water where we usually gather, get situated sitting in our circle in the sand, it's so peaceful and quiet it's like the night critters are waiting to see what we are about. Then when we start drumming, the place comes alive!! Every night critter with a voice, sings along with the drumbeat... frogs, night birds, crickets, ducks, bats fly overhead.... it's just so incredible. Words can't really describe it.
Here are a couple pics: