Couch 106 - the couch that must not be named

I'm sorry, DD. I hope she feels better soon.

Well they have changed the DX again it is COPD. They are keeping her tonight due to high lactic acid build up which can cause serious complications like sepsis which can cause death. Ugh! I'm not doing well with all this. So stressed out! I hate this!

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Online RPGing with the spouse today. Good distraction. Nightmares all last night. First time I texted them out to T when I could, helped me go back to sleep. She said it was good I did.

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This movie gets me right in the gut.
I wish this would happen to me ocassionally, and I am a preschool teacher, so its not like i am bored.
awww she's so cute!! I LOVE her coloring.

Teenagers! Ack, in the understated words of SD. Drama, all day every day. The 7 year old is really a teenager disguised as a 2nd grader, so I'm technically surrounded!

Went shopping today and now I'm too tired to play with my new toys. Have to get groceries in tomorrow. I'm off Monday so still plenty of time for DIY. Plans include finishing the mirrors and building the storage cubby bench. We shall see.

Happy Saturday Couch.

I desperately need a haircut. I have to keep mine short because it's extremely thin (you can easily see my scalp). I'll have to remember to call tomorrow. My hair stylist picked out an awesome style for me that makes it seem thicker.

Youngest kitty still wants to be held and carried around all the time. I hope she is not sick - she is not usually this clingy. Both kitties are overdue for a vet appointment anyway.

I am also overdue for the dentist. Geesh, I haven't gotten any errands done in 3 months.

I haven't been very happy lately. I didn't think that stopping my antidepressants would be this hard. I've gone off Prozac before and it was nowhere as bad as trying to go off Cipralex. I don't know. I just became so sick of being a product of my medication and I desperately wanted to go off of them. I also felt myself getting better and thought I was ready to handle my emotions without them. I halved my dosage for 2 weeks before stopping which I know was too fast. After a week of discontinuation, I experienced terrible physical symptoms like nausea, lightheadedness, and headaches. It effected me to the point where I had to go back on the meds just so I could attend my classes. I've been on 2.5mg (which is a quarter of my original dosage) and it's not enough. It's better than when I stopped completely but I still experience symptoms from time to time. I'm just trying to remind myself that what I feel right now is me tapering with the medication and not who I am.

Sometimes I'm scared that maybe I'm not better and that I will have to go back on the meds. I just want to discontinue and experience my emotions and my life as the real me to know if I am really better. But it's hard to put up with the withdraw, especially when I feel so much like I did before I started the meds. It's so scary. I wish I knew how hard it would've been to discontinue Cipralex before I was put on it.

Finished the big mirror stencil, tomorrow after it's good and dry, I'll coat it in glossy Mod Podge and we can choose a good spot for it. The little one got it's first coat of dolphin grey paint, tomorrow is coat 2 and which stencil will I use?

The pieces of entertainment center will be turned into a bench with storage cubbies under it. The drill is all charged up and the sander is loaded with fine grit paper. I will paint this too, ugh. All that primer! Maybe coral on the outside and teal on the inside? Maybe white because color overload!

Up at 5:30 to take bonus teen to work, it's 1:30 now and I can't sleep. Joy. I ran out of sheep to count so I came to play on the couch. I'll wind up watching obscure videos on YouTube and fall asleep out of desperation. . .

I can't believe I didn't sleep at all last night!! I'm at my daughter's. I think I ate something that disagreed with me. Have to get up and go home soon. Oh, well. I have an appointment so can't sleep til later.

I hope you got to sleep, Stressed Mess.

I've wrapped an orange blanket around my head. I hope I can direct the police to remove the memories that are bothering me that way. Of course, I don't know if it'll work - I know they use orange to READ your thoughts, but I don't know the specifics about removing memories. But it makes sense that also has to do with orange, right? So I'll try just in case.

Breadfish, are you with someone now? Is someone there to look after you?

My parents and sister are downstairs. But they can't help.

Okay. I know they can't help, but im glad there's someone there. Is there anyone who can help that you can talk to?

No. T said something mean the last time I saw her so I can't approach her. Pdoc just changed my meds but doesn't know if it'll work. Oxazepam (a benzo) calms me down to the point I can wear clothes, but doesn't relieve the memories and thoughts and feelings and most of all, the screams. I hate hearing my own screams! I know it's not real, that it's a flashback, but it's horrible all the same.
Parents try to help, but don't know what to do.

I told my mum the orange blanket wasn't working. She apologized for leaving an orange blanket in my room - I thought she'd done it in hopes of it helping me, but it turns out she hadn't thought of the thought police and it was an accident. So she swapped the blanket and now I have a beige blanket instead.

You seem to have a harder time on weekends, when your time is unscheduled? During the week you have school. Can you schedule more outings or even online meetings or events for the weekends?

DD1 has been dumped. She's already a basket case, and now she tells me she's not strong enough to go through this right now. She asked me to stop her from isolating and remind her that life goes on. My poor little grown girl.

I've gotten the clear gloss finish on the big mirror, and some of the panels for the cubby are sanded and primed. Probably finish building it by tomorrow, and possibly even get it finish painted by next weekend. Amazing how much you can get done when you stop laying around staring at the ceiling.

We've been invited to bonus teen's parents for dinner. This should be awkward.

Happy Sunday Couch!

Hello couch.

I'm cold. Someone send me heat. ALL THE HEAT. It's negative a million degrees outside.

I have my own personal power surges throughout the day, I would be glad to send some thermal energy your way. It's in the 40's here, so warm socks and long sleeves outside but roast alive while inside. Stay warm!

We are in our coldest time of the winter thus far. I am going to have to put pup in a coat for his walk tonight. Dressing him should be a load of fun.

Woke up feeling better today. Yesterday I was dragging myself around and spent most of the day laying in bed dozing on and off with a bit of a crook tummy. I still feel tired and muscles ache a bit but at least i can stay awake for more than 10 mins

It is freezing here - like 2 degrees with a -15 wind chill. I ran to the grocery store and forgot my hat. It's supposed to be worse tomorrow but I am off of work so I don't have to leave the house.

Now if I could just get rid of my asthmatic cough....

it snowed for the first time today! not for long, and didn't stick as the last two days have been in the 50s, but it FINALLY feels like winter.

I've got plenty of spare heat but I don't know how to send it.

Depends if you have the time and connections to start your own energy conglomerate?

"They" are saying we need to leave our water running tonight but it's just projected to be 32. Tomorrow night in the low 20's, definitely pipe freezing weather. Every couchie stay safe!