Couch 113 - Sofa, So Good

Genius popcorn cake idea! I'm going to start doing that. So smart.

Hey couch. Well I managed to feel my way through last nights humongus anger . took a hot bath and let the water help wash it away and i went to bed early too. After a good night's sleep I'm much better today. That was so weird yesterday. It was not "me" at all. I helped for 2 hrs in the training class again this a.m. and then coached a fellow advocate after that for an hour or so including y jacking now i am at lunch. I have a 1 on 1 with my sup after lunch. Busy day with a lot of extroverting so i will be tired again tonight. So ready for t on saturday.

Hugs to all who want them.

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Hi couch, I spend the day in the emergency room with my son, who broke his wrist. A fracture of the radius and ulna. Thankfully, it's pretty minor break as far as fractures go. He has a split and will have a real cast tomorrow morning. It's very interesting these things happen in the midst of an emotional break down in my life.
T emailed me this afternoon thanked me for the apology I left on his voice mail at work. I regret sending him the screw you email, but my feelings behind the screw you are still there. He did encourage me to email him what I said I wanted to talk to him about tomorrow.. Which is why in initially emailed him Monday night. Time for a nap, and the alcohol.

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Evening graduation - cool! And congratulations for making it all the way :-)

Having to get a bank loan to go to college sounds awful. Good luck!

Thank you both for asking. It went very well, actually. It was constructive, and I had prepared some of what I wanted to say, and T listened and was very responsive, and he explained what it was he meant on Tuesday (he had not in fact called me spiteful, and I didn't really think that he would, it was just hard for me to interpret his words in any other way.) I felt a lot better afterwards, physically lighter and kind of energised.

Tomorrow (Friday) I am going away to a hotel in the countryside a little north of where I live - about an hour by bus - for the weekend. H is having some friends over for the weekend, and though I like them very much it gets a bit loud and boisterous when they are around. H always feels bad for me when his pals go into fits of loud laughter at 3am and he actually seemed rather relieved when I suggested I go away Fri-Sun. So peace and quiet in a mansion house by a lake for me. I am so not complaining! I'm going to work on an abstract that's due in early June, and also do some thinking about what I discussed with T today. And I'm bringing books, needless to say. Yay books!

I also never heard of it, and I should also stay away from it Fortunately it sounds like a bit too much work, and it would be difficult to hide the traces. (H would be very sarcastic if I made it and he found out about it.)

Oh. I was a bit maudlin last night wasn't i? Sometimes i feel like a burning boat adrift at sea. Totally consumed with feelings but nowhere to put them.

Just to remind SD earlier this year my country had a Nutella festoval

Healed Hope your son isn't in too much pain. Waiting a the hospital with kids is tiresome, from what I remember.

Hugs to all who want them.

Consumed with feelings but nowhere to put them - yeah, that's what feelings do. :/

H just realised that it's five people coming over, not four like he thought. So it will be an interesting project finding places to sleep for all of them. One guy will sleep in my study, which feels like an intrusion even though I won't be home. Is that very self centered? I guess it is. Oh well - as long as I don't mention how I feel about it it will be fine. And it meant I had to clean up the room a bit which is actually a very good thing.

Weird i feel a tiny sharp pokey thing on my gum where the tooth i had pulled used to be. Ugh i hope it goes away on its own whatever it is. Doesn't hurt but i can feel it w my toungue. Thought the tooth saga was done, yuck.

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Btw, BunYip, for some reason I thought you lived in QLD. Your winter comment made me realise I was wrong.

Sorry I do live in Qld I just think anything below 25 deg C is getting a bit cold even though i come from down near Canberra where the temps are around 10 deg C in winter..

10 deg C is a pretty good winter temperature.
Provided of course that it is 10 below.

we will have to agree to disagree on that point.

I can hear a little difference in them. Vowels sound longer/softer. But I would never be able to identify where the speaker was from

Omg, I had to put two new hinge/screws in my two toilet lids. I cleaned (again) as I went along. Argh! I found dirt in places and crevices I've never looked before!

Broken pieces of tooth can break through your gum. I've had it happen before.

I'm going with it is a part of a stitch that hasn't dissolved yet. And that it will go away on its own

If you get your tooth pulled, you can have small pieces of bone that chipped off that come through the skin. It's normal, and that's probably what it is.

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Maybe he meant that he had to protect the BOUNDARIES of the relationship.

On the rare occasions when Madame T gave me what I wanted, I would think, "Why did she have to make it so difficult? Why didn't she give it to me without me asking?"

You are right, of course. sometimes i am so encapsulated in my relationship with T it is hard to break out and look objectively.

Encapsulated... Yes... I think i get that...

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I'm already thinking I won't even mention my crazy-intense transference 2 weeks ago and how i worked my way out of it to t saturday. I think instead I'll ask who are these mythical creatures who are able to leave you of which you speak in your PT profile? Wonder what she'd say if i did.

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Psychotherapy.

That was inspired.

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