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T: What is it?
Me: I don't want to say T: Okay, it's just, I saw you shift there. Me: I want to tell you what I'm thinking but I don't. I'm scared the answer might be hurtful. I will tell you, but don't answer me. T: okay. Me: I'm wondering whether last session when you said I mattered to you, whether that's the same as "I care about you". T: but you don't want me to answer. Me: there are conflicting needs fighting with each other. T: One need is to know I care about you. Me: I can't even say that. T: I'm feeling conflicted because I feel as though you are saying you don't want to know on one hand, yet I'm hearing "tell me!". Me: I don't want to take the risk. T: Well I feel like one of us has to; I do care about you Echos. That has grown as you have shared more of yourself with me, and I can feel that in my heart. My T is awesome. |
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What a sweet thing to hear!!
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~It's not how much we give but how much love we put into giving~ |
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He managed to turn the conversation from being scary and hard to comforting and safe.
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Your T is indeed awesome
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Aw, that's so sweet! And he clearly does know you well
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My t just said if I didnt care you would have known
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I know. I asked him before that what's the difference between someone mattering to you and caring about someone and he said he supposes caring is more of an active feeling. He said after he was wondering if this is what I had meant by that question.
I still couldn't tell him I cared about him though! I went all round the houses and basically implied it, but couldn't say the words. |
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That is a little bit of therapy awesomeness right there.
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Thanks for sharing, Echos. I agree that your T is awesome! Hopefully you'll be able to eventually tell him you care about him though I'm sure he already knows it.
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![]() I had said it to him in a dream, which I told him and I told him I wouldn't be able to say that in real life "but that's not because it isn't true" which is pretty much saying it, isn't it! T called it "saying it in parentheses" which I thought was a good description. I think my fear is, if I care about him I have something to lose. |
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I know exactly what you mean about afraid of caring or loving someone--and expressing it to them makes it more real. (see: my recent posts in Dear T!) |
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When she said "I love you, rainbow" in a session a couple of months ago, I kind of panicked. She means a generic kind of love, not romantic, but it's scary. Yes, there's a lot to lose when "love" is expressed, but there's so much to be gained! A famous quote whose author I forgot is "Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." Last edited by rainbow8; May 12, 2016 at 11:59 AM. Reason: Typo |
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I wouldn't change having had this relationship, even if I have to say goodbye to it one day. He's been the most reliable and consistent person I have ever had in my life, and that has been so important for me. |
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OK, I'll stop hijacking your thread now! |
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When I told my T I love him I was so nervous. I had to do it thru a text bc I couldn't say it out loud. I was so afraid it was wrong and bad. He totally got it though. And responded so kindly. I've never told him in person. Actually that was the only time I mentioned it. He references my caring about him sometimes. Bc of what happened w my former T , admitting my care and love for my current T put me in such a vulnerable position. I felt I trusted T though. It helped me so much as well when he told me he felt parental transference for his T when he was in his own long term therapy.
I was wondering if you might be trying to push these feelings away bc of what turned out with your former T? Are you maybe afraid it will not be healing and/or healthy? I read your other T did not handle your feelings well and it put you in a lot of distress. Just a thought Sent from my SM-G900V using Tapatalk
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No worries Lonesome! I'm always happy to lend an ear
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Your t is amazing Echos and you are too for sharing and being vulnerable. I am very glad that you have this experience after having such a negative experience with t1. It must be nice to feel that warmth and support from your t sand I hope you can eventually tell him you really care about him when the time is right for you
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