Couch 122 - Doin' what we do!

Ah, I will totally check out the show!

Funny you should mention Nigella Lawson -- I had the biggest crush on her BEFORE I ever saw a picture of her (pure love etc ) just based on her writing style. And, uhh...then I saw a picture of her and yeah......life's not been the same.

I also of course have a rather ridiculous crush on MFK Fisher (or rather her writing) -- considering that I'm an indifferent and terrible cook, it's weird the number of food-writer crushes I have.

I can totally support your choice of Mariska Hargitay although I don't myself swing that way. In terms of L&O folk, I did crush out quite a bit on Stephanie March until I saw an episode where she appeared with Bobby Flay (her husband) and sadly, that was the end of the crush.

I'm sorry to dump but here it goes-

By the time I wake up, do laundry, scrub floors, vacuum the furniture and living room, I am all out of energy to vacuum the bedrooms and master bath. I'm just not using them. I close their doors. I'm not making meals, just eating TV dinners so I don't have dishes to do. I don't have energy to cook, anyway.

Disheartened today. Very depressed. I need to find someone to power wash exterior of house, tighten/replace/build up skirting on one side of the house, oh, yeah, hire an exterminator!

Also, my thyroid medicine is not regulated yet, so I feel horrible. There's more but I'm not going to write it here.

I am so tempted to take the pup's $70 Seresto collar off and put on an application of Advantage II. But I'm not seeing creatures on her. I find them, though. I am tempted to use the Advantage with the flea collar, but I don't want to hurt my little dog.

I can't even focus. Although things have improved due to my daily chores, I'm looking on Angie's list for the exterminator. I can't even digest what I'm reading.

My brother once told me, "We don't want to set you up to fail." So, I can't fail. But everything's falling apart.

While trying to get an exterminator - have you tried this seemingly inexpensive flea trap?
Make a Natural Flea Trap in Under 60 Seconds - TheBugSquad

Catch 50 Fleas In One Night

5 Ways to Make a Flea Trap - wikiHow

I just read about that. Its still trying to download into my brain - it keeps getting rejected - does not compute! Bobby Flay??!

If youu don't have 50 fleas in your house does it spontaneously generate the required number.

I have T in an hour and was feeling fine up until a few minutes ago now I feel nauseous.

They divorced, big hoo hah in the media.....

Mariska in a cashmere cardigan. I would stroke her arms for hours.

Stop me now

My sexuality has always been fluid, but I'm best described as camp personified. I love to make fun of celebrities/whatever that takes itself too seriously.

If you ever met me I'd be like Chloe Sevigny:

I'm having a pumpkin spice milkshake. I never know whether eat or drink is the right verb for a milkshake.

Has anyone ever wondered what is wrong with them because they do not feel bad enough about something. As an example: when growing up, my mother would berate me for just not caring about what I was wearing or what other people thought of me - the truth is, it was not that I completely did not care, but that I did not care enough for it to make me want to change to please them. Their approval was not worth the cost to me. But the distress to my mother was high - and so then it became that I did not love her enough to change to please others because of the distress she had that others disapproved of me and by extension - her (or might disapprove). I knew how to fix it - I just chose not to do so.

I also don't much care what other people think of me. But it doesn't make me wonder what is wrong with me.

I love chloe. I love your new name! When i was working, I wanted to change mine to Helen Waite. You want something done? Go to Helen Waite!

Yay! I am going to try a few of these. Just happen to have the parts!

For this particular flavor, its PUmpKin spicE the milkshake

Eta - i hope you appreciate all the work that went into this!

I think both things are true for me -- there are some things I do that don't please others and I really don't feel bad about not caring enough to change.

And, there are some other things I do (frequent topics of therapy sessions) that definitely displease others (read my family) and I do feel terrible about not caring enough to not do it (the guilt is in and of itself, another frequent topic of my sessions).

It was just a sort of example of a more general idea- I am trying to work out how to explain it so it understandable.

Thats called knowing your values, isnt it? Are you leaving out that you cared more for something else? Maybe it wasnt conscious.

No. I am not being clear enough. It is the difference between not feeling upset that X happened but instead wondering what is wrong with one's self that one is not upset about X happening.

I wish that I did not always feel badly about so much, even if I am in the vicinity of something happening that's upsetting someone else.

I work with someone who never feels badly about anything she does (or does not do) that someone wants her to do (or not do). She is always telling me, Who cares? Why do you care? What are you, five years old? Forget what other people think/want/say. Of course, she is the first to admit she is not all that warm of a person.

I'm spending the evening in bed with junior cat and new cat indulging in a self-pity party. (The pumpkin spice milkshake was a failed attempt to avoid the self-pity party.)

I have my dreaded hormone-killing shot tomorrow - the one that sent me to the ER last time with serial panic attacks.

Oh, and happy national cheeseburger day to all.

I might attempt to make pumpkin spice donuts tonight to bring to work tomorrow. Just need energy to get off couch. Literal and online couches

Why does it become a contest between who do you love more, yourself or the other person? (And isnt there an essay in the nytimes this weekend about this?) And why cant they accept you for who you are and what you do?

Then again, you will have to accept it when someone else says that they cannot accept whatever it is you do, if it does indeed cross their boundary. So is that what it comes down to, boundaries? I like Mary Katherines books on this subject.

I am moving furniture to expand my exercise space - which is in itself exercise! - and taking C/couch breaks!

My food splurge was a kraft plastic no points fake cheese sandwich with olive oil miracle whip and rumschlauger danish bread. Take a walk on the wild side!

I ran errands all day. Shopping. Oil change tire rotation. Finally home in the mood to bake!!

What what little I have read, this exclusivity seems to be a girl thing.

They say a third of the men who frequent gay clubs are married to women, and the other patrons accept that.