Couch 136: Transference Welcome!

I want my T to have the state farm beckoned ... you know.. say the jingle "like a good neighbor, state farm is there..." poof your state farm agent is in front of you.

oh... are we to stay in reality? ummm I'll have to think on it... I mean sure massage therapy is good, I have someone for that and I have a personal trainer too. I find it nice to have multiple people I pay to pay attention just to me... expensive but nice. I think maybe nutrition/dietitian ... maybe? She is an OD/MD and at one point I thought it would be nice if she could be my PCP too.

I'll add making "stop-love-potions" for you

I'd like to bring plant/inset samples to my T for positive identification. The "plant experts" at Home Depot are useless...

Well, not "useless" in the core of their beings or anything. I'm sure they have unique worth and talent. But they're not very good at identifying things.

You know you've had a rough medical year when you hit your insurance FAMILY maximum deductible on just one family member by the end of March. The silver lining? No more out-of-pocket medical costs, not even copays or meds, until next January. Gotta find that silver lining, right?

Yep. Same here

I had the weirdest dreams last night. Broccoli and cauliflower dreams are worse than pizza dreams, who knew?? I dreamt, that i used to dream, about getting into really awful situations that i couldnt get out of. Like last night i dreamt i was in the house i grew up in, and a spider egg turned into a mean little robot that couldnt be stopped. Oh! That was kinda the plot of the Big Bang rerun last night, about the robot, but the dreaming about bad situations feels like something i had forgotten, that was a constant in my childhood. Maybe the broccoli loosened something up.

Headed to library to get a book for T to read to me on Monday. I hope I find something that speaks to that part of me. Is it weird to use this method of dealing with emotional stuff? It seems so weird to say it out loud and it feels so right inside.

Maybe I am just weird.

You just got here - you missed all my posts about me and t and the dolls from Where The Wild Things Are

We're all ears...

How did you use them in your sessions? What did they do for you? Who initiated? Do you still use them? Was it helpful? Feel free to PM me anything you are willing to share.

Other skills I wish my therapists had? How about not acting like one of the wicked witches of Oz?

Hugs. Lol, I think my t is the good witch.

Mine's the tin man

First i just happened upon the main character doll at a store, who uh i thought was a girl who looked just like me, if that tells you anything!

Then i ordered the Carol doll, who reminded me of Pookie and Blacktooth from Soupy Sales.

For several years, t would set up the room before i came in, with Carol on my chair, and the babydoll on his chair. It looked like they were doing therapy before WE came in!

I would hold Carol on my lap (mostly hiding my crotchal area), and t would hold the babydoll tucked in his arm. I called her Impie cuz she looked impish. Every once in a while, it seemed like she would react to something we said, like she'd look up at him? I realize it was probably just him twitching, but it was so striking, and so hilarious, it was like she was calling b.s. on what was being said. Which is very useful in t, i think.

Plus it felt like he was holding ME the whole session. We do greeting and closing hugs. Its been over ten years, hes like a brother, except my real brother is like a stranger. We also throw the dolls at each other sometimes. Also other kids use the dolls.

I just thought it was SO GREAT that this old guy was willing to sit there holding a doll, session after session after session for me. He never seemed embarrassed about it. He was just consistent.

Hes mainly a child psychologist.

I dreamed the thermostat was set to 5°. That was the whole dream

Not weird!

My dream: there was a creepy sea lion in my house, so I kept calling the cops about it and they kept not showing up. But every time I called, the sea lion moved one room closer to me. Just... staring. Like that ninja cat video

Rant: I'm in trouble at work for having a high hold rate. Transfers count against hold time and that's where most of it is from. I HATE STATS!!! Just let me do my job without judging me on every tiny thing. I've said it before an I'll say it again just cuz something can be measured doesn't mean it should be. I am so stressed right now and i shouldn't be. Rant over.

It's these damn project calls anyway. I don't have issues with hold on our normal calls so they should leave me alone!!!

My T is a painter, poet, martial arts teacher, and massage therapist, in addition to T-ing. He's also really talented at being thrown across the room by me. But I wish he could do my taxes.

Art, I get in trouble for not taking enough calls. Well, not taking as many as others do. But if you look at the length of my calls, and the amount I transfer (fewer than others) it's obvious to see that my work is still quality. Stupid stats!

I feel for you, Art. This project you're on sounds miserable. My stats were usually not good; I'd have really high call times, but it balanced out with amazing QA scores and customer satisfaction scores. I don't know that it's helpful advice, but just continue to do the best you can, and hopefully your management team will get off your back once they realize you're doing a good job.

That is just.......awwwww.....-worthy

I actually slept last night (7 1/2 hours). And earlier I took a 2 1/2 hour nap. And now I want to sleep again. Either shaky yoga really kicked my butt last night or I'm completely exhausted and ready for the semester to end.

Probably a little bit of both. I know that I've slept a lot this week. I worked out on the beach Wednesday and yesterday I walked 4 miles I believe. So I know that I'm tired because of that, but the school year cannot end soon enough.

I want to ask T tomorrow about increasing my appointments from once every 2 weeks to once a week. Could couchies assure me that it's normal to temporarily increase frequency of visits? I know I need once a week, but am terrified to ask.