The Couch 145 : I Stubbed My Toe On the Sofa.... COUCH!

Omg yall this is a Christian dentist office. They have Christian posters and are playing Jesus music

So? There's no specifically Christian way of treating teeth that I know of.

i'll ride along. i have terrible nerves about the dentist too. mine keeps texting me "you are overdue for your exam" once a week for the past 4 months and i'm steadfastly ignoring them

I dare you to ask them to lay hands on you and pray for you before the exam.. OR- ask them if they believe Jesus can heal the cavities and you won't actually need fillings!

Um... I was just unaware that that's what this office was.

So far they've been nice. I just filled out all the forms

LOL.....

I still can not believe my T and I hugged... what a moment.... I keep thinking about it.

morning couchies! yawn i went swimming last night when i said i was going to, no tiny speedo guy though, i had the pool all to myself!! it was luxurious. then i went to bed and slept pretty good until this morning, woke up to pee at like 3 and then went back to sleep and promptly had a stressful dream, in the dream i'm at work and we got new phones/computers/fax machine systems that were like all in one and we had to answer calls and process orders off the fax machine the calls were for medications like i normally do but the faxes were for cabbage patch dolls (? my psyche is weird!) and I couldn't figure out how to work the phone and at one point my computer mouse was ripped from my hand and went sailing down a hallway and I woke up with my heart pounding and with a headache and totally stressed out!! Egad. So I took a hot shower and did some deep breathing to calm the f down. Very strange dream to have such a physical reaction to. I put in for what they call "future VTO" to leave early today (VTO means leave w/out pay basically, they offer it when our service levels are too good) because after today I have a 5 day weekend!! Have a good day/night everyone!!

Maybe if Jesus can fill cavities you won't need to go to the dentist at all!

Well, in a strange twist of fate I am subletting my place in August to the mother of an acquaintance from college. Weirdly excited about it. She seems like a nice lady, and my landlord is cool with her too, which is amazing because he isn't cool with anything. And then I got the nerve to ask if my artistic director with the ultra-schmancy house needed housesitting... he does, at least part of the month... I still need to cover another week somehow.

If I don't go to Belgium (still on the fence...) then I still don't have to pay rent in Aug maybe my most extreme cost-cutting measure yet, but I'm ok with it at the moment. It's gross and hot in August and I've got no AC anyway, suckers.

I totally get this - I remember the first hug I got from my t, right before she moved out of state at the end of my first year with her - I kept thinking about it too. And every time I wore the shirt I'd had on that day for several months after, I would smile remembering the hug. "Ooh! T touched this shirt when she hugged me!"

i have T today . not so sure about it .things have been so strange the last month .she is not a bad T at all and she has helped me so much . i just dont get what she is up to right now .it seems she has got some plan and i am not liking it . maybe because it is hard. im going with it trying to have the attitude that she knows what she is doing . i didnt like it when she didnt let me have any outside contact or to write .i used it so i wouldnt have to talk . everyone including me thought she was horrible but in the end it worked .it might have taken 3 years but it worked . i dont know what to say to her . in scared but i somehow need to let her know what is going on without her saying im making things about her .

I don't think it is an unusual thing to want in terms of validation from paid employment.

haha ya i joked with my friend that i wasn't gonna wash it again

in my case, it was my first time ever hugging someone back. usually i just stand there awkwardly or do a quick tap on the back with one hand.... like a fast side hug or something.

sad you got yours right before she moved.... good memory to have though

So I asked the receptionist if they take Medicaid and she said yes. But then the dentist saw me and said I have about 20 cavities on my gum line and 1 tooth that is decaying and needs a root canal and that he can't do it because Medicaid pays too less for the work needed!!!!
.he gave me a name of another dentist and I made an appointment with her

They were all very nice though which I'm glad about

I'm glad they were nice, wish they could have taken care of that for you

Morning couch.

I ended up falling asleep after my last post last night and just woke up about 30 minutes ago. I am now caught up on the couch.

Hope the dentist went okay JD. I would be a bad pocket rider as I hate the dentist...I have not been to one since 2009. I really should go as it looks like I may have some cavities, but I just don't have the courage and am afraid that they will say I will need root canals which are major expensive. I have thought about doing one of those "New Teeth Now" things as I hate my teeth and they are in pretty bad shape (I have about 15 fillings from when I was seeing a dentist and they are crooked). But the thought of seeing a dentist for that scares me too. I am cursed with bad teeth...my dad's mom and grandma both had to get false teeth at about 30, so I guess it is hereditary.

Morning meds are taken. Land lady's grandson is still asleep on the couch. Landlady is gone somewhere, resident dog is "missing" too, so maybe she took him for a car ride.

Just saw resident dog... he was locked in the garage...guess he snuck out when I was grabbing something out of the fridge. Poor puppy.

i hate me and who i am !!!!!!!!

New word of the day: anatidaephobia.

The fear that a duck is watching you, even when a duck is not present.

I had a dream I was in DM's office in session and I tooted and didn't want her to know so I didn't say anything, and she was sooooo angry at me for it and I kept saying I didn't do it and she kept yelling that she could smell it and I needed to tell her the truth. It was awful, and weird, and stupid and so far all morning all I can think about is that stupid dream and shake my head and say WTF?

I've been having a recurring dream about T. The premise is were somewhere with a lot of people and I'm trying to talk to him... Or sometimes were in a session. And he alwAys goes off to talk to someone else

I told him about it the other week. He asked what I thought it meant. I said well obv it's about feeling ignored. He just said something like yeah I know it's been hard with the boundaries changing and how we relate

I really don't feel like he does know though

i had a similar dream but never said anything

boundaries changing?? i missed that. ugh that must suk. that is one of my biggest fears in therapy. are they super ****** now?

The boundaries? Hmm yeah they're ****ed lol. We have discussed it all in detail. I see and feel benefits but also losses. I trust my T... One of the very few people in my life. Maybe even the only one. I know he cares deeply and I'm riding it out for now. Maybe I'm a fool for not leaving or demanding him to stop changing it... But I trust him

Need a laugh???