The Couch 145 : I Stubbed My Toe On the Sofa.... COUCH!

Nothing ever works out with my t we ended up talking about trust and being trustworthy and I can never answer the question of what can my t do to make things feel better between us. He kept on talking to the parts I felt slightly left out.

Thanks BCM
Yes, but - as Demunie said - I'd have to pay, and I'm very poor
I think I'll be all right

We mainly call it "soft drink" here (Australia). But "soda" gets used too.

Wow I didnt even notice that.

Had an appointment with a physical therapist (pdoc forced me to go due to headaches). He complained that it's very exhausting for him because I put too much "force" into my muscles even if he tells me to relax

Of course I do - I mean, he's touching me. otherwise I'd probably punch him due to reflexes. Or have a panic attack.

Am I the only one having problems with this? >.<

Did you eat something that would give you heartburn, indigestion, or acid reflux?

Every time I go to the doctor with chest pain (and I mean severe pain feeling like a heart attack), they always smile, tell me it's heartburn, and send me home. First time I thought they were nuts. But I guess they were right because I'm fine after every time. My fiance even had it happen to him twice. Same thing... heartburn.

I am the same I always get tense or panic even when I voluntary let someone touch me and I am aware of what they are going to do.

I feel like my t thinks I wasted his extra appointment that he got for me. I am not ungrateful I wish had words to express myself

Hugs... you needed it. That's not a waste of appointment time, not at all. Whether you talked about why you needed it is irrelevant...

Have you tried, "I'm not interested. Please stop bothering me."

i use to insist my chest pain was heartburn or anxiety. my cardiologist would always say i dont think so . until my stress test was so bad he sent me to the hosp the next day and in the end i had a quadruple bypass . it was kind of a shock it was in that bad condition . i just wouldnt listen to my doc .learned it is always good to have it checked out .

happy birthday art.

velcroo your painting is striking .amazing job .

i woke up in a complete panic again about going to therapy tomorrow . i cant keep doing this untill she decides to leave . i made her a journal as a parting gift i hope she accepts it .not give me this line about how she isnt leaving yet . i want to give it to her because i dont know how long i can keep going

Definitely not the only one.

My orthopedic doctor will say "relax. No, the other kind of relax where you aren't fighting me. "

I've never done PT but for a time I did martial arts where the goal was to relax before you strike, or relax rather than tense before an incoming blow. I couldn't relax, I was perpetually way too rigid and stiff, especially when the instructor moved my limbs (to help me learn because i struggle with mimicking body movement).

I have never rejected a potential therapist because of a typo. But when I'm asked to sign a form under the sentence (in big, bold caps) "I HAVE READ AND UNDERSTOOD THE ABOVE INFORMATINO," I start thinking about it.

An "informatino" is the smallest quantum of knowledge, equivalent to a "bit".

I'm petty enough to reject a therapist based on that. It's a pretty egregious typo.

I don't want to teach summer school today. I want to go back to bed.

OR:

Urban Dictionary: informatino

Or: She tried to give her form a "pseudo italian flair": *with heavy italian accent"* Ehhhhh, siiii, informationo!

Yes, I have.

I am so happy that I asked a friend to go see fireworks with me last night! I haven't been to this large a display in years, and I love fireworks on the 4th of July! My T had written in her email that she hopes I get to see them, and I did! Hurray!!

Seeing T at noon, probably going to go visit my mom after. until tomorrow. Gotta work 11a-8p tomorrow

wonder what will happen in therapy today.

6 posts until 13,000!!!!!!!!!!!!!

granite, thanks for the birthday wish! i didn't thank the post where you wrote it because I didn't want to "thank" the not good stuff - I wish so much healing for you, sweet lady. I feel so sad for you having to go through an ending with your t that you didn't start yourself - it's hard enough ending with t when it's on my terms like I am now, I can't imagine how you are feeling. Do give yourself the chance to breathe and work through it with her though... I'm discovering as I end with my t, that it's important to grieve the loss of the relationship with her while I can. I'm hoping your t is giving you time to do that with her. Maybe that doesn't apply here and I shouldn't have said anything. I'm sorry, I just really want to be able to help and I don't know what else to say. Except (((granite)))

Morning couch. I am in t waiting room. Wonder how she will react to what I have been feeling.

Never did clean last night. Passed out and slept till 8 this morning. I did a quick trash sweep before leaving. But not really clean. Still clutter all over.

DM said I didn't have to hide. That I don't need too, it's not good for my body temp especially since my body has lost the capacity to self regulate I need to help it by not dressing like it's winter. So today I am wearing white jeans, black flats, and a lightweight black shirt with lace as the top 1/4 and the sleeves (so they are see thru). So far no one has said anything about my arms and I just keep thinking 'confidence and brave' over and over in my head.

Wow! That's very brave of you. Keep going. Your arms are no ones business