The Couch 145 : I Stubbed My Toe On the Sofa.... COUCH!

Ok, need advice here... I bought T a card for a "house warming"... new office warming??... gift. I want to put in it wishing well things. I also keep thinking about saying something about thanking her for sticking with me over the last month or so... and apologizing for me being such a dickhead about the whole thing. I feel like these are 2 different messages and if I do the whole apologizing thing then I will be taking away from the card's purpose of being all about her.. type of thing. So, do I keep the concepts separate and leave the card completely about wishing her well, success and what not in this new phase of her life? I can always address the other stuff in session or in my journal. Or would it be appropriate (not selfish) to add the part of being a dickhead around the move and her vacation.

PS, don't need to hear about not buying a card... cuz I've already bought the card, that part of the process is already done.

Good news, couch....
I have too much hair to be a hipster. I just tried to do one of those silly topknots (it is HOT today) but it looks like a guinea pig curled up for a nap on the top of my head.

I would leave out the richard-head bits it's perfectly good session material anyway. And not knowing the whole story, chances are she's seen it before doesn't truly need an apology, but that's just my spin on it.

Yep - I recognize that refrain that played in a loop in my head for many, many years. Been slowly slowly slowly and painstakingly over the past 5.5 years replacing parts of it a little at a time with t's voice and now even my own voice. It is really hard!!! hugs anais

Thank you for all the support Friday night. I don't understand why I felt that way or how fast I can tumble into a hole of nonsense and false thinking. I didn't end up sending the text. I was up all night but ended up reassuring myself, which I can do now - at the same time I don't want to do because I want DM. I'm getting healthier (I think) but it's scaring me. I'm excited for it, yet terrified at the same time. I feel like I'm becoming more confident but less secure. I don't know how to make it make sense in words. Anyway, I just wanted to say thank you and I'm back again. I went to a concert with a friend last night to just get away. It was nice, I was exhausted when I got home and promptly passed out (thankfully). Now I'm just resting and trying not to push myself and stay somewhat baseline.

H took this yesterday. I think I look really happy, which is good, because that is how I feel most of the time these days! I also don't feel like a person who is about to turn 55. 40, maybe....

I love being in my mid 50s.

Agreed.....

You ARE looking well. Like more forward into your face, more present. Thats how i describe it to my t. I feel like i reside too far back in my head. Plus i like the hair.

Thanks una!

I don't understand the more present/in a head idea. They are concepts that don't make sense to me.

AWWWWWW!!! I wish my older cat would just LOVE my kitten, but I doubt it will ever happen.

I am listening to the Book of Mormon. I have seen the show 3 times - I really like it.
Gathering energy to go back and trim my bushes out in my front yard - I cut the grass earlier this morning. I need to go buy a new weed whacker.

They are FEEEEEEELINGS. Where do you see from? Maybe it feels further back to me because ive been wearing eyeglasses since fourth grade so it screws up my focal point?

Im not sure older cat has much of a choice in this situation! I was thinking Penny was engaging in mounting behavior. My cat Spot used to do this. Im pretty sure Spot was a lesbian. She once brought home a date for new years eve, for dinner. It was SO CUTE it was the only time she ever brought anyone home. Like she knew!

I don't think it's selfish to add those other things, but it does drain away the well wishes for the new location, so I would save that for session or another card. And certainly no judgement here about card giving. I give my therapist all kinds of things and if she doesn't want them, she can put them in the trash. I'm really glad that she never makes an issue of it.

Just applied for a job online and had to take this really long assessment where it gave me various scenarios (unrelated to the actual position I was applying to, for the most part) and asked how I'd handle them. Some seemed to have no right answer. And then there was the sort of personality test and how I am at work section. Pretty sure I disqualified myself with some of those answers, if they're looking for me to get 100%. I then started just totally saying what they'd want to hear, not how I really am. Like, yes, sure, I'm good at making decisions (nope!) Sure, I make sure my desk is totally clean when I leave for the day.. I only spend 0-9% of my workday on non-work tasks. Sure, yep! Just hope my performance on test didn't mess up chances for future jobs with them, because it's a pretty big organization in my field.

I dusted and sorted my therapy shelves!

No, Penny does that to stop us from trying to pick her up haha she thinks we won't grab both of them it seems. Older cat well, he tolerates her lol she only does that when they're both on the bed and one of us walks in the bedroom, it's her way of hiding or something I think.

Are all those books about therapy? :O
I love the "for dummies" books
Well done

I used to be what I called "all up in my head" and not grounded/in my body at all. Yep, feeeeeelings stuff as una said. All up in my head, I was running away from my feelings. In all of my body, I feeeeel them. Incidentally una I like how you always add all the e's. It makes so much sense that way!

Yes, they are! Almost entirely second-hand. I have not read all of them, most of them have been cited in one essay or another though!

Counselling For Dummies is pretty good I joked when I was seeing my first client that I should have brought it with me and left it on the table next to us...

Thats hilarious! Maybe she thinks shes camoflauged behind him! just one big fat cat here!

Eta - im doing chores. At least i think i am.

Cats are awesome. I love them.

I'm in a really not good place today, and this fur ball has been attached to me since I laid down on the couch a couple of hours ago. I'm constantly amazed by how unconditionally he loves me.

Sorry you're not in a good place today, Daisy. I'm so glad you've got comforting feline company, though. There's nothing like it.