The Couch 148: Boby

I need to amend my bread rant. I had Guac on toast yesterday and the Guac has to go the edges and has to be proportional to the bread. I think this is my one exception

Depends on my mood. I don't follow a recipe. Ground beef, sometimes I add mild italian ground sausage, sometimes bacon, and onion, bread crumbs, ketchup, eggs, milk, A1 and worcestershire sauce. One of the only things I cook w/out a recipe I just go by feel and what I'm in the mood for!

How can you tell in this heat??!

What is A1? I just tried to google it

Oh, A1 is a steak sauce, sorry!

Is it similar to a barbecue sauce?

sorta, yeah

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A.1._Sauce

I would think it more like HP sauce - not in taste but in function

A-1 contains; TOMATO PUREE (WATER, TOMATO PASTE), DISTILLED VINEGAR, CORN SYRUP, SALT, RAISIN PASTE, CRUSHED ORANGE PUREE, SPICES AND HERBS, DRIED GARLIC AND ONION, CARAMEL COLOR, POTASSIUM SORBATE (TO PRESERVE FRESHNESS), XANTHAN GUM.

HP Sauce contains; Water, Vinegar, Dates, Glucose-Fructose, Black Strap Molasses, Tomato Paste, Modified Cornstarch, Salt, Orange Juice Concentrate, Onion, Spices, Tamarind Extract, Apple Juice Concentrate, Garlic, Chili Peppers, Mustard Flour.

Game night? Or has that started already?

In an hour. Think I'm gonna go

have fun!

Im feeling cool and calm and not anxious, and not giddy. Im like wondering, wtf is wrong with this picture? This never happens. Im also not falling behind on my one blood pressure med like i usually do, that could be it. I dont take it every day, but sometimes i go too long between doses. So i started wearing a ring - if it gets to tight, i need to take it.

i haven't taken my blood pressure meds since thursday. oops.

I have had reiki done once in combination with craniosacral therapy. They were both very helpful to me but I would not be able to specify since it was the same treatment.

I've been told several times randomly I should get certified in reiki. I'm kind of meh about it. I would maybe try if I had the $$.

M has done some hands on amd hands off energy work a few times, though it wasn't specifically reiki. It was very nice and grounding. I always sense how I'm energetically shielding myself until some point where I suddenly let go and let it happen-- that feels so good.

I am SO EXHAUSTED

So yes, for the past few days I've been helping my friend clean from top to bottom because her parents are visiting the US for the first time ever, and their place is a mess. Her hisband is away and I've got nothing so I'm helping instead, it's been a crazy scramble to get everything set up for them.

Friend's problem is that she doesn't understand that even though a chore might be easy, it still takes time. So her parents have landed and nothing is completed. She thought we'd have time to chill, cook dinner, have a snack ourselves... nope!

She's at the airport picking them up and I snuck home for a nap. Except I'm on here. Eh

She of course invited me for dinner with them but I'm feeling awkward about it. I don't speak any of their languages. They are probably tired. All I've ever heard are horror stories about them.

I am really sick of teaching my D to drive it is too emotionally draining as I can't keep images of ccidents out of my head. I come home and cry after the hour. I don't want to disappoint her but I don't think thi is doing me any good.

Our house was hit by lightning once. It ruined most of the appliances-fridge, oven, air conditioning, microwave, dishwasher. The weird thing was that some of the appliances did not die right away; our insurance guy told us this is normal for lightning. It also broke some of the light bulbs that were in ceiling fixtures.

I was gone at the time, it was really weird coming home to the broken glass around the lights (not all of them, just some) and to some stuff not working. Our dog was home alone at the time. From that point on, if he heard the least little bit of thunder, he wanted to lie on top of me and shake. I would let him, because well, trauma. This was before there were thundershirts for dogs.

Fireworks never did bother that dog, just thunder.

LT, I am in a doctoral program and I am in my 50s. And I only work part time and probably will only ever work part time. I hope you get in!

Thanks--that's helpful to know! And that's awesome that you're in one, too! I realized that now that my advisor responded to me, I actually have to follow through with applying...which scares me a bit, too.

You can do it, LT!

I went to game nite. I didn't really enjoy it. I felt tired and depressed. And nervous. I kept thinking about doing drugs. All I want right now is endless amounts of drugs

I tested T after I left. I said I want drugs real bad. He sent back glad you came.

Idk. I hate being this way
I hate it so much
It makes every day an uphill battle and I'm tired of it
I do not like that i am this way at all

And its one of those things... U know. Being a drug addict. You're always one. There is no cure
I struggle to see the point

I meant texted T not tested

A pun, 48 hours and one Couch late. If I wore a tutu in ballet class, it would be tu-tu much.

Speaking of which, art, how was your poetry group?