Couch 155: The International Operator

So one way to find out where your therapist is when they’re out of town is to accidentally leave your tracker app on for the email you send them.

Info’s lighting up LA as we speak.

I think that is sooooo cool that you are an event! If that were me, I'd be beaming from ear to ear....

tracker app for email? ooh, what is this? i didn't know there was such a thing.

It’s basically a read-receipt for email programs that don’t have that option. Tells you an email was opened, how many times, and where.

I use one called Bananatag on my gmail. Free if you use it on 5 or fewer emails a day.

Can the person receiving the e-mail tell you're using it?

I give up on studying tonight. I'm going to go watch the boob tube instead.

Not on Bananatag (according to them).

There was a documentary on pbs tonite called motherland i think. About a delivery room in the Philippines. Omg.

Should I tell T? TRIGGER WARNING


I feel so ashamed. I don't want to tell him. I don't think it's important. He'll think I'm an attention seeker and will hate me.

I doubt it too but... Doctors keep telling me that I just imagine things and everything is due to stress (and I just need to do more sports and everything will be fine. Have fun doing sports if you barely make it to the kitchen without being out of breath)

I've had pain rather severe stomach pains for about 2 months now, but after 2 ER visits and specialists telling me that "at your age it will resolve itself within a few months, no need to even look at your stomach", I ... yeah.

Please tell him. It's natural to want, actually NEED attention when you're so suicidal.

And it IS important, and YOU ARE IMPORTANT and you MATTER.

Hugs. Damn sheety doctors not taking you seriously

You're hurting my dear. That's nothing to be ashamed of. He won't think you're an attention seeker. Please share with him

But why to tell him? What can he do?
Well, I just want to share my pain with him...
He'll either hate me or worry.

Of course he will...
He's been working as a psychiatrist for years. I'm sure he has seen A LOT OF patients with REAL problems. So he has what to compare with.
And here I am - "I have no problems. Omg help me!"

Your problems are very real. You've told me a lot about what has brem going on in your life.
Those things make people sick, those things are what make people what we are, they make us hurting. That's the very definition of real problems

If any of you posted something like this, I would say:

"Dear so-and-so,
please tell T!! I would even say contact him(her) immediately.
It IS important. I really worry about you.
(S)he won't hate you. And you're not an attention seeker. You're hurting. You deserve help and support. I'd say you NEED help and support.
Please take care. We're here for you..."

But I can't say that to myself
Sorry for spamming the couch

I have a class starting in 13 mins. I've felt pure rage at R since I woke up at 3am. I've already tried to exercise it out at the gym but I'm just a tired grumpy child now. I see him tomorrow and am tempted to tell him that i survived for 25 years without him. That I don't need him now. That he hasn't done anything more than what he was paid to do- listen. That I could replace him with someone new easily.

Oh Cap you're not spamming. Pain is pain at the end of the day. You need all the help you can get.

Don't know the story, but I hope he can handle your anger & that you can talk about it.
I've felt the same about T for quite a few times

Sometimes we need to say it as it is. Your anger is real & your t is trained to hold it. If this is how you are feeling, then I would advise you to tell your t exactly this.

I think it's VERY important, you should tell t.

If you can see blood in your urine, have it checked out. They can use a dip stick test for blood easy enough or look at it microscopically for red blood cells. Kinda hard to fake blood in urine.

I'm three weeks into my third year of school- but we're being trained on how to take patient history during wards. Changes in urine and stools is important and something I would want to know about.

I will tell him tomorrow. I'm just scared that I could easily turn nasty at him because I do just want to push him away. I've worked in a busy independent pharmacy on and off during the summer. The worst episode was when someone started shouting at me because our prices were higher than the Tesco store down the road.

Ho hum.