Couch 156: The Clock Strikes...

I'll have my session this afternoon. I really want to talk to him about things that happened but I feel like they are too stupid. For example, I felt horrible this week because one of my classmates started avoiding me because I was too quiet, and she gossiped about me with her group. I thought this girl liked me, but then I noticed that she avoided me. I feel like my reaction to what happened was too much, like I skipped classes, wanted to die etc...so I'm afraid it's a silly thing and that my T will think I'm silly or like a child
But at least I met 3 new people yesterday by not sitting near that girl and they were all gentle and nice

Thanks Munie, Cake, BCM and QM.

Strange session that meandered off in a different direction than I expected. Talked entirely too much about the funeral, which I didn't want to do...but we have a better sense of where we are heading next week.

I don't agree, Lost. It sounded like a good session. I hope that you're able to access those emotions and accept them instead of fighting them.

I ended up taking a sick day. I'm very glad I did. I feel miserable.

I've also freaked out my 3rd period class. A couple of students were chatting on Google classroom and I messaged them from home. I can only imagine the response.

Omg you guys I just found out I was nominated at work for the 2017 SuperHero thing. It's kinda a big deal here. I'm amazed and now the sleuthing begins to find out who nominated me!

Wow, that's awesome!

Feeling very unsettled right now and highly triggered right now.

I had four best friends I haven't spoken to in around 6 months. I met up with one of them today after she sent me a message on monday. We were slowly drifting apart. And it was so hard to see how i hurt her by posting something passive aggressively. Things aren't going to be the same.

I'm down to one session a week and want to talk to R- I just want him to comfort me even though I don't deserve it.I don't feel like I can contain my feelings without hurting myself until thursday. Would I be wrong to email him asking for an appointment tomorrow even if I had to pay extra? Or am I just being ridiculous and dramatic. I just know that this is going to affect my studying weekend.

sorry about your friends. It's hard to drift apart... Would you like to spend more time with them?

I don't think asking for extra support is ridiculous, dramatic or "wrong". I think you should do what feels right for you - and if you want the extra support (and T has an appointment to offer) then get it.

I’ve had it with the country and the city and need a total change of scene. Also something to look forward to. So, ticket bought to spend Christmas in Greece.

Nice! How long will you stay there?

I agree about asking for support. But remember, if he doesn't have time available, it's probably just that he's all booked up--it's not about you. If he doesn't have time for a full appointment, maybe ask for a quick phone call?

I know when I get very depressed I tend to isolate myself. It was a series of events that lead me promising myself that I wouldn't need ever need anyone like that again. I stopped trying to be there for everyone and focused on myself. I started turning down invitations to events if I didn't feel like it. I felt like they knew where I was-if they wanted to talk they could. I just wasn't going to be the one always chasing after them. I'm not a saint but her telling me that she still loved me and cared just hurt. I don't know how to fix us. I know half the time I'm very irrational and it's me- I'm what's wrong.

Would it help if you apologised?

Lemoncake

I leave for t in an hour. I'm nervous as last session didn't end great.

Mini Couch poll: When researching/reading about your mental health (be that a diagnosis, or strong suspicion) do you take what you need and leave the rest, or absorb everything?

I'm reading Peter Levine at the moment, and he seems to suggest that catharsis is unimportant in terms of healing from PTSD. I feel like catharsis is what's going to get me to being able to sleep through the night, hopefully without going to the doctor's.

I dunno I guess my feeling is that research can only tell us so much, because people are so vastly different.... just because something might be true for many people is not concrete proof that it's true for all people. I don't mean specifically what you stated but just in general. I'm always against straight statistics because to me anyway numbers tell only part of the story. I know thems fighting words to the mathies out there.... Sorry but it's how I feel...

I barely stopped myself from accidentally sending an email to Info that started “Dear Info.”

There was a thread recognizing therapists and all that they do-all their sacrifices.

So tomorrow is Veteran's Day in the United States, and I would like this post to recognize Veterans' committment, bravery, service and sacrifice.

I'd also like to take this opportunity to recognize others whose jobs entail making sacrifices for our safety, well-being, or simply our comfort or convenience:

Police, EMT workers, firefighters, deep sea fishermen, bodyguards, search and rescue personnel. I would also like to recognize delivery drivers and the man who sits behind the window with bars at the 7-11 in the rough neighborhoods; often working for $7 an hour.

Hey Veterans-thanks, too, for the nice, long weekend!

That sounds like good self care

Isn't he the waking the tiger guy? If so, it seems to me that what he says is necessary for healing--going from immobile/frozen to mobile/empowered --is not unlike catharsis. Does he specifically say it's not?

To answer your poll, I usually take what's useful and leave the rest.

Okay, I made some banana bread that called for applesauce. The applesauce had some mold in the jar that I scooped out, thinking it would still be okay to use. It's baking right now. I googled moldy applesauce and read that it's okay to eat moldy fruit only if it's firm fruit and a large chunk is cut around the mold. So I'm thinking I need to toss the bread. Does anyone have a reason to think it would still be okay to eat?

I wouldn't eat it rr, but I'm also the person who threw out a bag of grapes today because one tasted funny.

I wanted to share this story somewhere, but not on social media because reasons. So I'm sick, took the day off of work. I was tempted to take tomorrow too, but apparently today was a show.

Anyway, I asked H to go get fluids and soup. When he was at the store he called and said do I want to have a date afternoon? "Uhh, sure?"

So he came home with popcorn, Twizzlers, and my favorite jelly beans. Handed me the remote and said "we're going on a movie date."

So I laid on the couch with H watching movies and tossing popcorn at him this afternoon.

I spend so much of my life in a negative headspace. I just want to remember the good times too. Thanks for your indulgence, couch.

I would eat it. I think the baking would kill off any problems. But I am not a food safety worrier for the most part. If it does not smell or taste bad - I eat it. I know the food police say not to do it.

I wouldn't eat it, RR. I've also heard how if mold is in any soft fruit, it's not safe. And I don't think heat kills mold. (Note that I'm on the particularly careful side of food safety, due to contamination fears from OCD.)

I would just take a bite and see how it tasted and go from there.

Eta: we’re running out of Couch. Time for someone to set up 157? Which, in case anyone is interested, Wikipedia says is both a prime and an emirp. Emirp sounds like it should be a small fuzzy bear, or the noise it makes.

New couch--almost called it Emirp, hope this one's OK: https://forums.psychcentral.com/psyc...ml#post5898748