Couch 172: Couch me if you can

Jul 22, 2018, 05:35 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

You dont have to say nothing if you dont want to. You can just say "pass".

Eta - omg what has happened to my grammar???

Poetic license?

unaluna · Jul 22, 2018, 05:39 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

Poetic license?

They should suspend my license then!

Jul 22, 2018, 05:44 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

They should suspend my license then!

Heck no... what fun would that be?

I decided. I'm going back to therapy for the 3 months. If I'm still welcome, that is. And assuming she'll agree that it's just for that length of time.

atisketatasket · Jul 22, 2018, 05:45 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

Poetic license?

Religious license. Ones who are worshipped have no need for grammar.

Or apostrophes.

CantExplain · Jul 22, 2018, 05:48 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

You dont have to say nothing if you dont want to. You can just say "pass".

Eta - omg what has happened to my grammar???

Sigismund, Holy Roman Emperor — 'I am king of the Romans, and above grammar.'

velcro003 · Jul 22, 2018, 05:52 PM

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Originally Posted by NP_Complete

I feel so ashamed for all the drama that has played out over the weekend with my therapist. Yesterday's thing and today's phone call. He called while I was already crying and feeling about as low as I can get. He mentioned maybe going to a hospital, which isn't going to happen. I feel like I'm failing and not trying hard enough to get past this. I hope he doesn't thing less of me after this weekend.

I think he is just worried for you. My T brings up higher care conversations when she is worried for me.

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

Heck no... what fun would that be?

I decided. I'm going back to therapy for the 3 months. If I'm still welcome, that is. And assuming she'll agree that it's just for that length of time.

It isn't up to your T to agree to 3 months or not.

SalingerEsme · Jul 22, 2018, 05:52 PM

Tears came to my eyes reading this for a few reasons: the anguish you are in- I am so sorry and I hope you find that pinprick of light and hope or that the emotion turns a tide or relents. You must be exhausted. Also too your T coming through and caring that much. I am unsure of what terrain is underfoot for us, at least those of us with trauma, when it comes to what T's think & feel& their limits. He is fighting for you, and I am relieved he is. Mainly, I am so sad for the ordeal you are undergoing. In a way I can share my tears with yours, but in a way we kind of have these individual battles that I hope we all win.

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Originally Posted by NP_Complete

Strange day. I woke up this morning and got really overwhelmed with emotions about everything that happened and after crying for over an hour I decided I was going to drive to the forest. I had planned all this out in my head a few days earlier and I had shared some of it with my therapist. I don't know if I was going to follow through, but I was going out there and I would figure it out once there. My therapist was planning to call me at noon and said he would email if that changed. I wasn't planning on telling him where I was unless he asked specifically, but he emailed me around 11 am and asked if that time was still okay. I responded that it was and that I would be somewhere where there was cell reception at noon (so maybe part of me wanted him to know that I was out). Then he emailed me back saying he would be a few minutes late and he was worried that I was out driving since this was something we had discussed on Friday and would I consider turning around so we could meet in person. This really surprised me. He's been telling me lately there's only so much he can do for me and then he offers to see me on the weekend? When he called he asked where I was and I told him I was about 3 hours away. He asked me to come back and meet with him and that he really wanted to be there for me. I told him that this seemed way out of bounds of things he could do for me, but he disagreed. I felt really bad that he was offering to meet me on a Saturday, but also I felt a lot of care that he offered to do that. I wasn't sure I wanted to do it, but I finally reluctantly agreed. We met. It felt kind of awkward and he said some stuff that I'm not sure how to take, but he thanked me for doing this like 5 times so I guess he didn't feel put out or anything. He's going to call me again tomorrow morning.

I'm not sure how I feel about letting him talk me out of it. I'm still here in the same place I was when I left this morning.

unaluna · Jul 22, 2018, 05:55 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

Heck no... what fun would that be?

I decided. I'm going back to therapy for the 3 months. If I'm still welcome, that is. And assuming she'll agree that it's just for that length of time.

If i were her, and you came in and said that, i'd be all like, "NO WIRE COAT HANGERS!!!"

Eta - And no more time limits.

Jul 22, 2018, 06:07 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

If i were her, and you came in and said that, i'd be all like, "NO WIRE COAT HANGERS!!!"

Eta - And no more time limits.

Why not dang it?

Jul 22, 2018, 06:12 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

If i were her, and you came in and said that, i'd be all like, "NO WIRE COAT HANGERS!!!"

Eta - And no more time limits.

Wait what? Who is the loan Crawford here?

atisketatasket · Jul 22, 2018, 06:13 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

Why not dang it?

Because it would just be repeating your earlier cycle? The pressure on yourself—not always from your husband—to end.

The ending should be organic.

Jul 22, 2018, 06:13 PM

Or are you saying I'mma make her crazy.

atisketatasket · Jul 22, 2018, 06:14 PM

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Originally Posted by CantExplain

Sigismund, Holy Roman Emperor — 'I am king of the Romans, and above grammar.'

Too bad he didn’t know he ruled something that was neither holy nor Roman nor an empire (Voltaire).

Jul 22, 2018, 06:18 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

Because it would just be repeating your earlier cycle? The pressure on yourself—not always from your husband—to end.

The ending should be organic.

Ok. I get that but I also know it isn't always and that the world will not stop spinning just because Artie does something differently than it "should" be done. I'm sick to death of "shoulds". I don't want to be in therapy forever, damn it.

Jul 22, 2018, 06:20 PM

So I'm in the parking lot where this meeting is. Trying to make myself get outta the car and go inside.

atisketatasket · Jul 22, 2018, 06:23 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

Ok. I get that but I also know it isn't always and that the world will not stop spinning just because Artie does something differently than it "should" be done. I'm sick to death of "shoulds". I don't want to be in therapy forever, damn it.

You’ve said all along that you “should” be done with therapy. Shoulds can be self-imposed too.

If you want self-fulfillment and to be the best you as you say, why put an expiration date on therapy?

Go rock that meeting!

unaluna · Jul 22, 2018, 06:33 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

Ok. I get that but I also know it isn't always and that the world will not stop spinning just because Artie does something differently than it "should" be done. I'm sick to death of "shoulds". I don't want to be in therapy forever, damn it.

Yabbut youre the one who is setting up your should that you think will make the world stop spinning if you dont stick to it.

I must say, i think i understand your metaphors less than SD understands me. I just use math to invert them

but i have no idea what i say or what i mean.

truth in advertising!

LonesomeTonight · Jul 22, 2018, 06:33 PM

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Originally Posted by SalingerEsme

In a way I can share my tears with yours, but in a way we kind of have these individual battles that I hope we all win.

This is a lovely and very true line.

atisketatasket · Jul 22, 2018, 06:47 PM

O.M.G. Tzatziki beer!

unaluna · Jul 22, 2018, 06:55 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

O.M.G. Tzatziki beer!

"No garlic, that would be weird"?!

stopdog · Jul 22, 2018, 07:00 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

O.M.G. Tzatziki beer!

Is there any point to this sort of thing other than oddness for oddness' sake?

atisketatasket · Jul 22, 2018, 07:07 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

Is there any point to this sort of thing other than oddness for oddness' sake?

Who wouldn’t want to drink alcoholic tzatziki?

Jul 22, 2018, 08:01 PM

i even just like attempting to say the word tzatziki.

Jul 22, 2018, 08:02 PM

I went in. There were about 15 people there, everyone very friendly and welcoming. And I felt comfortable enough to share very briefly when it came time. I got a chip with the serenity prayer on it for coming to my first meeting. I will probably go back next week.

LonesomeTonight · Jul 22, 2018, 08:23 PM

I had a peanut butter and jelly beer. It tasted just like it was supposed to. That doesn't mean I wanted to drink it beyond the initial sip...

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