Dear T: I Really Need to Tell You Something...Part XXXIV

Really? The universe decided to send me another ex-boyfriend today? Is this a f***ing joke?

I wish I had an excuse to email you

Dear t

I wish I could talk to you. I feel manic.

I did email you.

I'm feeling so hopeless and can't stop crying.

I'm just so tired. So very tired.

You think you know, but you don't!

(((Lemoncake))) I hope your t gets back to you with reassurance that you need.

He did reply-despite the fact I said no reply was needed.

I'm so glad.

Thank you for being you Artie.

I miss you so much I could scream.

I wish I could talk with you today. Things are happening so fast, I don't think I can sleep tonight.

See you tomorrow...

I have eight zillion things to say. I probably won't say them.

Also I have a gift for you...

i am going to go to yoga tomorrow night to help pass the hour that is usually therapy on momdays.

Dear T,
I miss you. Maybe because I'm all alone in my house,while H and D are already at the vacation spot? I wish I could talk to you on the phone right now instead of Wednesday. But I'll manage.

Love,
LT

The mystery is solved. We are the same age. You are a couple of months older.

Also, respond to my email.

Dear T,
I wish you could attend work with me so you can stand up for me. I don't know what to do, I don't know how to act, I feel horrible. Sometimes I think you misunderstand me. But you definitely "get me" 100 times more than you don't. I wish you could know when I am about to do something that will negatively affect me in the future and give me a huge warning. I think I am the only person in the world who keeps, time after time, digging myself into a hole. This is not a good job for me anymore, but I am stuck. HELP! Thank you for seeing me tomorrow and our regular day. I am holding on by a thread, and you are helping. Thank you for this!

So I emailed you and told you I was angry that you even mentioned my mom sexually abusing me. You respond with, "you have every right to be angry" wtf does that mean? That just pisses me off more.

Every right to be angry with your mother, I think.
Maybe T didn't get that you were angry with T?

No I went back and reread it and said I was angry that you suggested something that maybe didnt happen. Then she said you have every right to be angry. So idk. I think she got it and just blew me off.

I think you need to ask yourself if you would treat your daughter the way you have treated me. The answer should tell you something.

Of course you have every right to be angry. Why do therapists always state the obvious?

I wonder how you're doing. Love you.

I dreamed you've posted a lot of cute romantic photos of you and your wife
It was so painful to see lol
I also dreamed we had a text session...or something... I remember one of your texts:
"Our relationship is not a problem. Your love to me is a problem"