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#301
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Well today h and son both had dr appointments h because the urologist said whatever caused his fever recenlty wasn't urological-related as he'd feared and the antibiotic he took for 5 days was a precaution until he went to regular doc which was today. Son had a yearly physical cuz it's actually been more like 2 years since he had one, he wouldn't take off work to go last year. Anyway. H has to go in for a male mammography thing because of some lumps or something the dr found today. And son (almost 20) has to go see a cardiologist because he has an irregular heartbeat. Son didn't tell me too much he stopped in between work and school to grab his backpack so I'm hoping he'll tell me more later. h is out on a long distance job and son is at school, and i'm sitting here at home trying not to let my brain run away from me and start catastrophizing about both of them.
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#305
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Hope everything is OK with your H and son, Art...
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#308
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My mom is so ****ing nosy. I am 29 years old, and she doesn't respect my privacy at all. Today, she demanded to know whom I was texting. I declined to answer her, not because I really minded telling her, but because I've had about enough of her intrusiveness. She craned her neck trying to see my phone screen, grabbing at my phone, which I obviously removed from her view and reach. I politely told her it wasn't really any of her business. However, we were in the car (I started driving after sending the text, had picked her up) and she just kept whining to know, so I finally told her I was just texting my T for an appointment next week. But was that the end of my mother's antics? No, no it wasn't. She then asked me if I was making an appointment to complain about how mean she was when I was a child. I, of course, said no, hoping to change the subject. My mother then said well that's how it used to be. She's never forgiven me for not wanting to see her during my first hospitalization. But she just kept wanting me to come home, and if I had come home, I would have killed myself.
I'd have really loved to have been able to tell her that yes, I do need therapy to deal with the fallout from her behavior as a mentally ill mother both in my childhood, and now in my adulthood! But she uses everything against me, so it's pointless. |
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#309
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How can anything be off topic on the couch?
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![]() awkwardlyyours, CantExplain, kecanoe
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#310
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Nosy, invasive, toxic parents. |
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#311
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This divorce crap is emotionally draining. I have been trying to keep my SI in check, but when I sit down and have an honest conversation with my future ex as to why he was done with my marriage it all just goes spinning out of control again. I know logically we both were responsible for the down fall of our marriage. However, to hear the ways in which I contributed to that, just sucks. And what sucks even worse is that some of the things that he talked about was issues that stem from depression or BPD and all things that I have consistently been working on since I started therapy. It just all sucks, and I feel a pit in the bottom of my stomach and a migraine starting.. all while I have a test I am supposed to be studying for.
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"You decide every moment of every day who you are and what you believe in. You get a second chance, every second." "You fail to recognize that it matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be!" - J.K. Rowling. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. |
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#312
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Thanks LT. In an attempt to silence my brain I just vacuumed and then mopped the house. It now smells clean and fresh in here and I am tired and hopefully will be able to sleep. H just called his 2nd long distance job was canceled so he will be home in about 45 minutes so that is good.
I am taking solace in the fact that neither one of them were sent directly to the hospital from the doctor's office like he did with me in June... 2018 appears to be the year of health issues for my family. |
![]() CantExplain, ChickenNoodleSoup, LonesomeTonight
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#313
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It can't. Long live the couch!! |
![]() CantExplain, LonesomeTonight
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#314
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I'm sorry fille_folle. I can't imagine how difficult all of that must be. I relate to the wanting to tell her that yes, you do need therapy to deal with fallout from childhood. Wish I knew what to say that would help. Sending safe hugs. |
![]() CantExplain, fille_folle
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#315
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hugs healed. that sounds so incredibly difficult and draining. i don't have any words of wisdom for you i sure wish i did. wishing for healing for you as you go through this process. that sucks so bad. hoping you don't get a full blown migraine. |
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#316
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did somebody say onion rings? mmm.
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#317
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Thought some of you who want to lose weight would appreciate this article on fatphobia and how diets biologically don't work if you don't have affordable access to healthier food: Everything You Know About Obesity Is Wrong - The Huffington Post
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![]() StressedMess, unaluna
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#318
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![]() When he’s on duty, he’s doing his duty, not subbing for yours. ![]()
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Since you cannot do good to all, you are to pay special attention to those who, by accidents of time, or place, or circumstance, are brought into closer connection with you. (St. Augustine) |
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#319
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300 new words which have been added to the scrabble dictionary :
facepalm, ew, twerk. yowza, sheeple and emoji.
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#320
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Yowza!!! Its about time!
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#321
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Today is National Psychotherapy Day in the US.
Oh and incidentally tomorrow is National Pancake Day. |
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#322
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morning, couchies.
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#323
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Just dropping off a hug or two for people before I have to go out again
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#324
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Back from therapy and I wish it went better. I don't feel like i want to go back right now.
Possible trigger:
I arrived 20 mins late. Being late to anything makes me anxious and I'd began to cry on along the road to his. He opens the door. I was crying and I just sat down without saying anything. I didn't think to apologize or explain right away why I was late which he brought up. I said it didn't matter as I was here now. He asked why I was there? I'd said that I hated him and I came late. Said I liked wasting money and that I had more money than sense. Then he said his too. I asked for clarification. He said I wasn't going to pay for the sessions that I'd missed. ( i emailed him and told him why I couldn't come) . i said I told you i was taking a break and that he had already had a real job and therapy was a bit on the side (he mainly works for a suicide prevention charity). He said so it didn't matter? Why was I there again? Then I said something like maybe he thought I was wasting his time, that he should get some real clients. Said that I wanted to see him before I left. He linked that to me not wanting to be forgotten. I told him I had told my parents that I was meeting up with a girl from my first university. How did I feel about not being my authentic self? I said I didn't care. He said I surly, and not willing to work. I asked him to define surly. He gave synonyms, to which I replied back I thought his knowledge of the thesaurus was good. He said i was mocking him. I cried more and said I hated him as much as I hated him and as much as I hated her. Then the thing with the train and I didn't know how to get back. All anyone really cared about was being late. Nobody really cared. I asked him who my favorite poet was? Why are we talking about poetry? I asked when my birthday was? He was quite for both then asked what I had proved. I said it was the small things for me and did he realize that it would be two years that I'd been seeing him on december the 16th yet I still didn't trust him. He asked if I trusted anyone? I said my brother and sister only. Then that I didn't tell her about my stuff but i listened to her. (my 15 year old sister). He commented that I wasn't thinking right with my panicked brain. Then he asked then he said why didn't I talk? Then led with that I'd wanted to talk to him about something in particular, but didn't see the point as I wouldn't have the time to proccess it. I said I wanted to tell why I was sad the last time he asked me. Why don't you tell me or was I going to wait until the end? . I used a quote "the best laid plains of mice and men off go arwy" in between that and that if left an hour and half early and I wasn't ever normally late and at waited at the bus stop near his home. He said he wasn't saying that. I began to cry more. I didn't expect extra time to be added on to my session but he got up and stood near the door whist i was still putting my shoes back on. He didnt do anything wrong there but I felt rushed out, normally he says I can have a few moments if i'm still crying.
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#325
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