Couch 201: The Transformative Grammar Couch

I don't like it either. Before I could close the box and it would disappear but even closed it's still there!

There is actually no evidence that any such thing is going on. I mean about going back and forth between left and right brain. Probably just glorified exposure therapy.

It's perfectly okay to cry. I think it's really good you've formed a good connection with her. won't she also be away when Dr T will mostly likey be away at Christmas?

It makes sense to not want to run in the heat.Yoga sounds good. Have you tried Pilates?

I emailed my placement doctor with dates to just observe.

How are you doing susannah?

I'm cold. You?

I feel okay. Just waiting and have 50 mins till I see R.

Any new couch name suggestions?

My current T says it's a distraction technique while the client talks about trauma. He does believe the left/right brain thing as there is no evidence for this as you say I only did 2 sessions of emdr before I said stop.

The mood I am in they wouldn't get through the profanity filter.

Today I realised I am making my life that much more difficult by actively avoiding thing s that remind me of exT. especially driving past his rooms, to not drive past adds another 25 minutes to my journey. This is so ridiculous it's 18 weeks that's 4.5 months I can't believe it's been only 4.5 months it feels like a year at least. He has probably forgotten me except when I phone and text but I am trying hard not to do that, it's hard to stop a 9 year old habit.

Lemoncake Couch.

Oh, insomnia.

I thought for sure I'd sleep well tonight after my session today but nope. Fell asleep by 9p woke up midnight-ish to find son came while I was asleep and moved everything out didn't even leave a note. Expected them not to be here tonite but also wish they'd left a note. H is playing poker his note said be back about midnite but it's after 2 am now and no sign of him. I have wandered my backyard, played on Facebook, written up my session.... can't sleep. Maybe I'll try a hot bath. Sigh. I need to get a full night sleep soon or I may just fall right apart again.

(I'm secretly loving this idea)

Insomnia is tough. Sometimes drinking milk does help? Are you also eating enough before bed?

I'm sorry so much pain.

One day you'll get to a point when you will be glad you saw the real him.

I've been eating too much in general but my intention for this new moon is self-care, which includes eating right again. My hot bath helped, and h got home while I was in there, we laid in bed talking til after 3am finally got a little more sleep then the 5:15am alarm rudely woke me and here I sit now logging onto work...

Heeeey - when you said a place by your home made this special cake, that place wouldnt be starbucks, would it?

Thankful for working at home as it means I can nap on my lunch break and didn't have to get up earlier to drive somewhere.

I could use Starbucks this morning! Might go on my morning break I think I can drive there & back in 15 minutes.

It wasn't starbucks. It was just plain honeycake from my local supermarket.

But I switched to bringing R a carrot cake from marks and spencers.

"Lightly spiced carrot cake With orange soaked raisins, pineapple, coconut and walnuts, topped With cream cheese frostinq and finished with a cinnamon dusting"

I hope you do go and take some time out for yourself.

Could you do me a favour please and get me a drink too?

a "double Cappuccino - half-caf, non-fat milk, with just enough foam to be aesthetically pleasing but not so much that it leaves a moustache."

Asking for help from family members doesn't make me a bad person, right?

I have a hummingbird outside my front window today - she is going for my crepe myrtles and canna lillies.