Couch 208: The Practical Couch

Yeah...

Incidentally I forgot the second best part. Towards the end, I yawned. And she yawned too. And then she kind of squealed with glee and said “see, that means I have empathy for you!” Because it turns out (after a longwinded explanation), turns out psychopaths don’t yawn when other people yawn.

How can I resist her siren call?

It doesnt mean that at all. Its biological trigger that reminds everyone elese brain there is not enough oxygen in the rooom therapists talk too much and suck the oxygen right out

That was on BULL (dr phils tv show) monday night!

Yeah, that’s where she got it. I never heard of the show before.

Wait...Info watches something to do with Dr Phil?

My exT tried to impress me with his Dr Phil impersonation. I have omly watched one episode and didnt realise he had catchphrases

I have rewritten my email to exT with bit about wanting an honest explanation. I want someone read it. It is short.

Yeah its a show where the cute guy from NCIS plays dr philbull, a jury selector.

No, I definitely won't tell him it's for that reason. If it fits into my schedule and I can end up doing it, I'll just say it's group therapy and leave it at that.

Those goofs (professional jury selectors) can get paid an enormous amount of money. Cathy Bennett - often considered one of the first jury selection experts - was a complete nut case. She was good at jury selection. She would draw little hearts around the jurors' names that she liked. She helped the defense on the William Kennedy Smith trial.

I shoulda said, i watch tv LIKE its my job. Ha. Even im often late for it. And i do call in a lot! But im very good at what i do. And i do the work of 5 regular people. And i think i know everything.

My t is going to call me in an hour because I’m feeling suicidal, but I feel even more suicidal now knowing that he’s going to call, because I feel like I don’t deserve his help. Ugh.

Hugs, I hope he can help you feel better. You deserve his help, even if you don't think you do.

I'm up way too early for my son's student of the month breakfast at his school. Today is going to be a busy day filled with appointments. I see my pcp today and she always ask to see any SH wounds.

Simple mirroring not empathy.

@ LT

I didn't finish season 1- jumped straight to season 2 with Julian.

Unless she checks to make sure they're not infected/clean you don't have to show her if you don't want to.

Random bump.

I emailed T yesterday afternoon a couple hours after session to both thank him for session and asking to schedule me for Monday (we'd discussed possibly doing that--I was originally only going to see him Wednesday, as it's Thanksgiving week, and he said yesterday to let him know if I wanted Monday, too, that he had some availability). Normally he replies to emails in the mornings by 9 at the latest, and it's 10 a.m. here now. I'm sure it's nothing and he's just busy, but I'm feeling sort of awkward about it. I also want to figure out the time because I need to schedule a parent-teacher conference for D that day, but didn't think to mention that in the email (I did request morning or early afternoon from him). I guess if I don't hear back by this afternoon, I'll follow up? As he says he always has goal of replying within 24 hours. Session was good yesterday, and everything felt normal--in fact, he seemed particularly warm toward me--but I'm still feeling a bit anxious from the Friday mention that I'd had the "I love you" thought recently after session. (I have this paranoia that I signed the email with "Love, LT" or something, but can't bring myself to check.)

Also nervous in general because H and I meet with D's T, P (without D) today, and I'd revealed a few things about our marriage counseling history to P in an email (which I showed to H) and phone call last week. I have tons of work to do and am having trouble focusing...Plus I didn't sleep well last night. Sigh...

ETA: Nope, didn't sign with "love."

I'm having a similar issue LT. I text my T this morning and several hours later she still hasn't replied. This is very unlike her, which leads me to think something has happened OR she doesn't think my text warrants a reply (which would be hurtful and go against her saying she will always reply). She wouldn't be annoyed as I only clarified recently that it was okay to text. If she's decided not to reply I don't know if I could get past this because she has always made texting safe by saying she will reply to me. One time she didn't but that was when I'd already said I was going to send something to her right after session.

I feel physically sick and feel like crying. Part of me is angry at myself at caring so much, I wish I could just not care about her now. But I'm also worried. I guess if she crops up on WhatsApp it's obvious she has decided not to reply.

I really hope you hear from your t and it's a simple explanation.

Hugs, Lonely. It would be so much easier if we didn't care... I hope you hear back soon! Like you, I'm also a bit worried that something could have happened to him. Let's just figure they're both busy and haven't had a chance to reply yet.

Thanks LT. Yes I certainly hope so. I can't concentrate on anything else.

OK, sent him a "Following up on my scheduling email" text (he allows texting for scheduling only, so didn't include the detail about needing to schedule conference).

I really hope he responds LT.

Nothing from my T. I've hardly been able to stop crying. I think she's decided not to reply and the hurt is beyond awful. I just can't understand it. Maybe she felt there was literally nothing she could respond to via text and wants to keep it for session but if so that changes everything - it's a massive deal, and much more so if she couldn't foresee that. Just an acknowledgement would have been okay. I'll never be able to text her again after this. I'll never take the risk. It's like everything has gone. I'm just hoping to see she has been online so that I know presumably she's okay.

I'm trying to do stuff but finding it really hard to cope. I wasn't good anyway but far worse now. I wish I'd never text her. The pain is just unbearable now.

Random lovebite

I just came from having my root canal redone. My endodontist is sooooo cute!! And hairy! You know, hockey players dont shave in November.

My session got cancelled today. Big sigh. This is a really inopportune moment for us to miss sessions. He seems to be confident that he'll be feeling better by tomorrow though.

He claims he *might* be in office next Tuesday when he told me would probably be gone the whole week. I wonder what the heck is going on with him.