DELI NEEDS HUGS FROM EVERYONE PLZ reply

for you and for pdoc! are you going to call him and tell him how meds are going as he asked you to? could be good to speak with him?

i sent him a txt thanking him for the messages and saying the meds are helping a lot. i told him no need to call back (i know he's busy, and this is his own time) and that i would see him on monday.

Good for you!

Deli,

You sound like you're doing great.

Good to know that pdoc is giving you the attention and help you need right now.

yes, thanks imapatient. im feeling pretty good now, actually.

after posting here i think i went to sleep for another 6hrs, lol. these drugs take a lot of time to get out of the system! i feel a lot calmer and in control now that i know i can make it through the nights ok.

i made a promise to pdoc that i would see him on monday, and i don't break promises. so sui is not an imminent threat. but something really will have to change quick fast if i'm going to have to keep postponing it. i know pdoc wants me to change my meds, but apparently that can't happen overnight because blood tests and stuff will need to be involved. so it looks like i'm going to have to battle on for a few more weeks before things even start to get better .

thank you all so much for your support, guys. apart from pdoc and grandparents last night, this is the only contact i've had with anyone for the week, and i really need people when i get down.

(((((((deli))))))))

so glad to hear you are getting some restful sleep at night. yes, those pooches will protect you well. mine barks up a storm! keep posting here okay and let us know how you are doing. my good thoughts coming down under to you!

alway available glad your feeling better

hi deli, rap

lol - thank you rap - your post really made me smile.

i am feeling very very calm right now. i probably dont need the crazy meds tonight, but i will take them anyway tonight so i know i can stay asleep. i am meant to call my grandparents tomorrow morning and will probably spend the day at their house, so that should be nice (heh - it's kind of boring, actually, but i love them lots and i know it makes them so happy when i go over there so i should).

i am having bad thoughts about some of the stuff that used to happen to me as a kid. i am worried about whether to tell pdoc or not. he asked if --- made me touch him (to which i answered no) but he didn't ask if --- used to touch me, so maybe it isn't important.

i feel stupid for being worried about it though. it really was nothing.

only 2.5days to get through before i see pdoc again. im feeling numb but ok.

Great to hear you're doing even better now.

Ativan isn't a "crazy med" if you're referring to that. It has nothing to do with mental illness—it’s used for many things. Don't feel bad about taking it if you equate it with mental illness. I had a primary doc put me on it last May when I decided to go off Effexor cold-turkey and ended up in urgent care. I was a mess with anxiety and being too afraid to get out of bed because I felt like I wasn't thinking straight. My thoughts were racing, I was afraid to move, I couldn't sleep. Ativan took care of all of it. It made the “crazy” me go away.

Whatever you're doing is working. Humor the grand’s a bit. It will be good for you, too.

(((((deli)))))

(((((deli))))) Glad that you are doing better.

glad you had a good day and have plans - yes you should tell pdoc about what you didnt say - hope things stay good for you and that you get a good nights sleep - off to work - take care P7

((((((((((((((((( deliquesce ))))))))))))))))

thank you all so much everyone.

today i had lunch with my grandparents and then went shopping. so now i have food for breakfast . tomorrow i am going to try to make raspberry cupcakes. i hope they work out.

thank you for posting this, imp . ativan is helping a lot. i think i call everything i take a 'crazy med', i don't mind - it's said without stigma (on my part). im interested in anything that will give me relief for a while.

it feels so bizarre that i can just switch like this. that for months i could be in such despair and then after a day i can just be... nothing.

Great to hear things are getting even better. If it works, go with it.

Don't look a gift-pill in the mouth, or something like that.

Hi Deli,

I did not have much time following too many threads and does not know the details of your suffering. But anytime when I see someone in need of help, support and love, I am always ready to give it with my whole heart.

I also feel so happy for you to have such great friends here who would even start a thread to give you support you. Beautiful beings warms my heart and filled me with inner joy, they are God-sent.

This link is my way of sending you my heart-felt blessing :

http://www.mayyoubeblessedmovie.com/

With much love,

Reach

that great - another good day! have a wonderful sunday

Wow I had Ativan once, and it fooked my world up. Blagh. I hate those types of medicines, but as I understand it they are quite helpful for many people in the short term.

Your grandparents sound really great.

I wish I could share the raspberry cupcakes with you---they sound REALLY good!

Thinking of you tonight....sending a lot of caring wishes

tulips

simcha - the cupcakes turned out well!! i will make some more for when you come down under to visit, ok?

the problem right now is that i have no one to share them with. grandparents are coming over tomorrow night, so they can have many.

my dogs have eaten the raspberries but didn't eat the cake .

i might take one tomorrow and if i'm brave give it to pdoc. i dont know.

oh - wanted to ad-d (sorry i'm taken my pills so dosed out again) - can ppl please send safe thoughts my way tomorrow because that is when is ee pdoc, and i hope things go well. im a bit scared.

pdoc always takes good care of you - so you will be safe -but sending you good safe vibes anyway - night night - have good dreams P7