Roll call

I think i was born without a soul. here.

Here. I think In have a soul, today I regret confusing people.n It is a problem I am now begining to adress.

Balance : mental steadiness or emotional stability; habit of calm behavior, judgment,

I have none of this...I am feeling like the weather...sun one day rain the next...slightly breeze...full gail winds of a hurican...

I do not want to be on the fench waiting to see which way I will fall each day

I want so much to have mental steadiness or emotional stability

I try so hard to ignore the fact that this is a reality in my life...some days I fly about like a butterfly who was caught off gaurd and did not get a chance to hide when the high winds come and Im being tossed about in every direction praying I will not be destroyed, and others days I am like a buffalo plowing through it full ahead with no worrie that it is bellowing at me at a hundred miles an hour...

where is my stebility? I long to know it as a friend...

I want to blame illness of mind on this...but it is an illness of heart and soul I am fearing...

God help me in my weakness, my lack of forsight to get out of the way of the storm when I am feeling like a butterfly... help me to be strong like the buffalo that can plow through it with out worrie of its winds...

my mind is shattered today but I am here

Having a really bad day.

Spiraling. Opened up on therapy today. I'm going to visit family for three weeks, no therapy. I'm scared I'm going to lose my self control while I'm gone. Do something stupid/reckless. My therapist fit me in next week right before I leave. Obsessive thoughts are taking over. I can't seem to shut them out and I don't know how to get relief besides giving in. I know it will only be temporary... but I'm so tired.

I feel stable and good today.

I slept well. I feel rested and I sense I had good dreams last night. tks P.C. this forum helps me cope...

Went to an awesome class about the Hearing Voices Network. It really resonated with me.

Trying to figure out how forums work... Is this how you post in a thread? (No joke :/) If it's not then I really sorry... Well, anyways... Hi, I am new here. Right now I'm not doing so well, but I am a LOT better off than I was about a month ago...*shudder*... Trying to get a therapist for the first time in my life. Trying to get on medication for the first time as well. Probably should have done this years ago..... I just wish the whole process would speed up a little... I'm having horrible nightmares...among other things... Eh, enough of my *****ing. Nice to meet you I guess.

ItchyHaunt ... welcome...this is an old thread that is very active... you are very welcome to post here... we kind of just check in here and let everyone know how we are doing...

Im here and okay...

have had alot on my mind and not sleeping well, but am getting by

Gr3tta....you have my attenction... I want to hear all about it...

I am here and well enough to get by and fulfill my daily responsabilities.

So my pdoc thinks that by increasing my AP I would feel better. Ha! I told her my life sucks and don't think it's going to change because of a pill. She wrote out a script and I put it in the mail as the status quo just isn't working.

Here and clear headed. I will enjoy this day.

here and med compliant. It will be a good day.

Stress, stress, stress!

Not enough money to cover the bills.

Money not only makes the world spin, it makes my head spin! Blarg.

Here...no psych meds atm...doing horrid...wont bother with details, it doesnt help anything anyway.

Need to pick up my risperdal, but I don't want to leave the house. I have to get out tomorrow, so maybe I'll get it then. I covered the TV with a blanket yesterday and it made me feel a bit better.

visions abound

feeling aright. looking forward to this tough life thing to go away.. =]

I feel rested and optimistic today.My thoughts are manageable and pleasant. Tks...

Here and still stressing. I need to stop reading the news, I think.

I can completely relate, costello. I'm a news junkie (time magazine, msnbc, cnn, internet, etc.) and well, lately I've been saying to myself "I just can't", meaning I just can't deal with the majority of the news I'm reading or watching on tv. So lately, I've been finding myself watching the news with the mute button on and reading a lot of books that don't involve politics, war or natural disasters. It helps keep my stress levels low.

Not too sure T is buying it when I said I'm fine. She pointed out that it was only a month ago where I was smelling vanilla in my room when there's no vanilla in my room.