Roll Call 14

You make me want to get the whiskey out of my closet and start drinking myself.

thats exactly what i was thinking. shes the staple of this community. like a motherly figure. like the greatest friend. like the mom i want but cant have. like the best scientific theory that keeps disappearing. like the...like a lot of things i could just keepgoing

hey im dranking righ now

1pm in da afternoon

@erti - No, but I do live in the midwest, its probably the same stormfront! I just mopped all my floors and bleached my sinks. Seems I am on a cleaning kick. taking advantage of no mud.

2pm here... ah hell **** it. A shot for my homies! lol

how do u bleach a sink?

lol you must live up north from me then. You all have it pretty bad.

@newtus - I do it by putting the stopper in the bottom, filling the sink with hot water, adding a squirt of dish soap, and a splash of bleach. Then just let it set for awhile. ( like 15 min or so) then drain enough so it doesn't splash, scrub, and rinse. Bleached sink! I like the scented bleach because regular bleach smell makes me nauseous.

@erti - yea its a crazy amount of snow here. I have to keep shoveling to be able to open my door. The roads are not driveable at all unless you have a truck with 4wheel drive. I hope it lets up overnight so they can do some plowing and get caught up.

thats interesting. ive never heard of bleaching sinks. but to me sounds interestig

I'm just trying to learn how to use this gadget.

what gadget?!

Yeah, what kinda gadget?

costellos learning a new gadget yall!!!

newtus, you know you're from Texas when you say y'all. Heard that a lot when I lived there for 14 months.

ive been drinking all day. the voices faded away a bit.

oh yeah you guys didnt know? i still hear voices even on this crapload of medicine and see things and feel paranoid. thats why im trying to get them to take me off. i will always have problems that meds cant fix and they cant understand that.

they need to lower it before i cancel all appts.

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my head is spinning but im not drunk. weird.

they said the pot industry in colorado is raking in 1 million dollars a day! wow...

I hope everyone is doing well. I thought I felt a tiny bit better yesterday but now today I feel very crappy. I wish this mess would pass. I'm suppose to go to work in the morning but don't think I'm going to make it. This flu is no joke!

i feel ur pain cracking_slowly. i had the flu during xmas.

today was better. i went to the farm to hang out with my staff friend josh. then my old friend that stopped talking to me in october texted me and we hung out. she said she was sorry she went MIA and wants to start hanging out again . i was so happy to hear that. we hugged and it was good. we are hanging out tomorrow and im going to adopt a new cat from the humane society. we already have plans! i was alone some in the apartment today and it was okay. i cleaned out spooks old litter box and food bowls. i just compartmentalized thinking about him while i did it. its still sad to be here with out him but i feel his presence with me. i talk to him still when im alone. i think he can hear my voice.

hope the rest of u are okay. im so sorry to hear about ur dog costello. animals are such great friends to have and its sad to lose them. i grew up with a big gray cat named smokey . he was 13 when he died of cancer. we put him to sleep too. i was maybe 19 years old. it was a hard time for me too but then i got spook as a kitten and i grew to love him too.

I have zero motivation to do anything. I can't stand being here anymore.

its 3 am
theres two or three demons outside my room
trying to get to me
the witching hour

help

I have two roosters calling to each other in the basement.

Bright and early I see. They wake you up?

Pretty busy and good weekend. I haven't been hearing voices or music and I'm not very paranoid which is great. I went snowboarding on Saturday and I did a pretty good job, but I'm going to take lessons on my next weekend off. Afterwards my friends and I went to a Mexican restaurant then Starbucks. A lot of my friends as of lately have been asking to hang out so I've been visiting them even though it's a tad bit overwhelming for me. I'm trying to be more active and not stay at home as much yet at the same time not try to overwhelm myself by doing too much. I would like to get better at snowboarding and to do MMA (mixed martial arts) cardio version so I don't have to fight anyone due to having piercings and get more fit.

Oh and I got two As and one B+ for this semester which is great

U know when u have a feeling but u don't know if it's normal or not to have??? I dunno man....feels like that to me.