Roll Call 18

Did it go okay otherwise, Newtus?

Oh I had ok sleep but also had a nightmare except it was dumb. It was that I forgot to return 3 disks to the Redbox and we got 3 nasty letters saying they were billing me $1000 for each disk. I kept insisting I returned them but then found them on my mom's old coffee table. Anxiety dream about Redbox.... Ugh.

to everyone. I'm still not used to this app.

1000! OMG that's worse than the blockbuster fines---I had no idea---guess I should read the terms and conditions!

yea i musta had a cleaning 6 months ago. i got the call for the appt out of the blue. i started panicking when they were cleaning my teeth. i had a bit of an anxietty attack. and then i almost threw up in the car. im ok now.

It souns like you have a really good and caring T.
And Im glad you are feeling better

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Your teeth are clean. You did it.
Sorry you had so much anxiety. At least its done now, right?

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I need my thoughts to stop racing, like, right now. I'm so ****ing irritated with this ****. It's driving me crazy. I can't focus on anything, I'm getting distracted so easily it's not even funny. I'm not sleeping. I'm not eating much.

yea
i remember being off my meds and they had to put the gas on me. the laughing gas and i STILL HAD panic attack on the laughing gas.

Wow that really sucks.

im sorry atypical.
is there anything we can do here for you? or just listen? im not eating much either and throwing up a lot. are you still on meds? are they working?

I don't know, nobody here can really fix it. Listening is good though. Yes I'm still on meds, I got a mood stabilizer added to the mix yesterday... so we'll see I guess.

(((hugs))) were good listeners though.....

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is it lithium? your meds dont seem like they are helping much if i may say.

It's not lithium, it's Trileptal. I just started it yesterday so I don't know how long it'll take before I see any improvement. I know basically nothing about mood stabilizers.

Oh yeah and I'm hearing voices again. Lovely.

well i know that SometimesPsychotic could prob expand on it for you but they stabalize your mood. i guess that was a given

Yeah I actually know very little outside the APs and ADs because I've never looked into it before but a quick rundown on this on suggests that it blocks firing of sodium and perhaps even potassium channels in the brain...this is the actual signal of thought which is part chemical and part electrical---so its not like dopamine where its two neurons just chatting with each and coming up with a plan this is actual pure signal it is your very thought.The main issue in getting it working is probably building up the concentration in the brain but info I've found suggests a couple of weeks.

im feeling paranoid. im hearing high decibals sounds on my phone while im talking. they keep going in and out. like someones hacking into my phone

This is my significant other....Daisy

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my dogs not even like that. hes more rowdy. my cats like that though

I've decided to wait until May when school ends to seek help for my "symptoms". The severe depression is the absolute worse right now! Ugh! I'm doing my best to keep my "happy mask" on while at work. If all goes well and I receive an income tax return I will use that to live on during the summer months. My school closes mid May through August. During the summer I will take a break from working around little children and focus on getting help for my MI. I've thought about it quiet a bit and I think I am willing to get some serious therapy and possibly take some medication. The medication part scares the crap out of me because of what happened years ago when I tried it and had very bad results. But it's years later and I am willing to try again. I just want to wait until this school year is up mid May because I know that once I open up this can of worms it's going to be a serious roller coaster ride! Until then I have to survive...

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Newtus: I meant to ask you if you like the Tapatalk Pro version? In your opinion is it better than the free version?

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i think you can do it cracking. i frgt what you said happened years ago with meds. its gonna take some hard work to survive but know we are all here for you. please.

i use the pro version. its not much more different than the free version. i havent used the free version in a long time so idk what the differences are but you can take pics with your phone in tapatalk pro. i think u can do that on the free version. i love it though! i like tapatalk.

Bad doctor. Bad meds. Made things tons worse. I appreciate your support. Thank you very much Newtus!

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Cool! It sounds like it might be worth paying the $3.99 for it!

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Ok I just downloaded it