Roll Call 20

I'm not sure I would even want to go to a school that had policies like that...but I agree with medicalfox take it up the chain of command next time...a lot of the paper pushers have no power but the higher ups can actually make things change for you and everybody else...

Found this page on mindfulness lots if useful links at the bottom still haven't tried it out yet...

Mindfulness

Practicing Mindfulness: An Introduction to Meditation

This is the course I'm watching right now...I only paid like 50 or 70 for it not what it costs now but its a five disc set ...anyway it looks awesome he starts out talking about how he got a broken cd that had the director and producer talking over the whole movie and he realized that's how he was living his life with a constant commentary of voices in his head and goes from there. To be clear I don't think he's psychotic he's just talking about controlling inner voices but the mindfulness technique is supposed to help with positive symptoms...

it sucks because its the only school closest to me. 20 min away. the the next two closest are two hours away. sucks

wow. the most horrific little goblin children are in my house. i've never seen them before.
i'm trying not to let on i saw them. maybe they will just ignore me too.

So mindfulness dude is talking about near death experiences like car crashes or near misses or choking or even things like 9/11 where you tend to remember where you were. The concept of this mind state of extreme focus and clarity is like mindfulness and that is the goal of this teaching...I can see how this would be effective against voices etc...

Holy crap. I'm gone for the mid day and there's a lot of activity.

Parents of Sick Teen Justina Pelletier, Accused of Verbally Abusing Hospital Staff, Lose Custody - ABC News

custody keeps child til shes 18 for a psychosomatic disorder. accuses parents of mismanaging their daughter.

Wow that is scary...I can't believe it went that way after all the press they've gotten. I just hope she doesn't die or anything....

I think it could only go this way in light of all the press they got. Of course the judge sided with the doctors, the state, and the establishment.

Well they did have the tufts docs testify for them to me it was physical vs mental medicine and the pdocs won which is surprising to me....

But it was little known mitochondrial disease vs eek! control the crazy girl!
That was how i saw it play out.

*Edit- but in truth i only took a passing interest. I am certain you know more about what happened than i do.

Yeah I really don't know much about the mitochondrial disease myself but at the same time the psychs really can't defend themselves in public due to hippa so it's hard to tell if the family might really be hurting her in some way that's not apparent. Still I hope they appeal...what they really need is a psych who disagrees with the ones she has now...

So I just got to lesson 5 in mindfulness and he's finally starting to explain how to do it but I need to buy some cool new pillows something called a zafu a little round buckwheat hull filled pillow and something called a zabuton which is a bigger shorter floor pillow. I'm thinking etsy for something unique...apparently the meditation practice is sort of like exercise but for your brain so you learn how to focus on the present instead of letting your mind wander to the past or future.

Boy do I feel accomplished!

hows everyones morning? 8am where i am.

Lol, this happens to me all the time. When I get back online there's usually pages of roll call for me to go through. When it gets like that I usually just jump back in without reading everything, my threshold for boredom is very low.

9:30 where I live. I'm feeling psyched because there's an anime convention in my area. Time to party like a geek (which can be pretty hard lol). Plus possible sex with my ex boyfriend. I want sex so bad!

Decent--- rainy----how are you doing this morning are you feeling better and did you get a chance to get some meds in you(if you still want to take them)...

My morning is going great so far, took my meds and everything and I'm enjoying my coffee!

my morning is going well. i have class today. then im going to hearing voices group that T helps run. planning on going to my moms on sunday for my birthday dinner. my birthday is on april 4th. ill be 27

yea i got some meds in. im still getting these philosophical thoughts in me and well truth is... im not doing so well because of this plane flight i have to take in 5 days or so. ive been having more panic attacks and im scared to be away from my dad who can protect me. im flying alone. ive been having more panic attacks and psychotic thoughts because im stressed out and scared outta my mind. i dont wanna even think about it. but it keep subconciously coming to the surface no matter how much i try to supress it. i cant sleep at night. i wake up tired and cant go back to bed. im getting less hours of sleep at night. its hell right now.

Actually not so good today. Yesterday I got harrassing phone calls both on my phone and at work from a collection agent... (I actually reported them to the attourney general, this woman called incessantly and then yelled and screamed at me on the phone.) But that's put me into a thought loop of rage and intrusive thoughts.... really really bad ones....

So I woke up pretty agitated and it just keeps going over and over in my head. so I'm trying to calm down.

erti - i wish i could have sex right now. im not fired up but i would mind some intimacy to get me less tense

You sound like my ex boyfriend. Sex is a great stress reliever. Intimacy in general is great for mental health. I'm looking forward to it. I wish I could help you out.