Home Menu

Menu


Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
  #926  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 05:43 AM
punkybrewster6k's Avatar
punkybrewster6k punkybrewster6k is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: Oct 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 1,670
Exactly. There wasnt much to say. I was shy but I didnt want to talk about personal stuff. She asked questions and I answered. If they were complicated or too personal I asked her if we can talk about them another time.
Usually I talk too much to people but for some reason not lately. oh well. Maybe I will feel better next week when I see her. The anxiety was crazy!

advertisement
  #927  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 05:56 AM
Erti's Avatar
Erti Erti is offline
Princess Tutu
 
Member Since: Jun 2011
Location: Nowhere
Posts: 7,913
Quote:
Originally Posted by punkybrewster6k View Post
Exactly. There wasnt much to say. I was shy but I didnt want to talk about personal stuff. She asked questions and I answered. If they were complicated or too personal I asked her if we can talk about them another time.
Usually I talk too much to people but for some reason not lately. oh well. Maybe I will feel better next week when I see her. The anxiety was crazy!
Yeah, I always get nervous when I had an appointment with the counselor and felt relieved when the secession was over. I had a ****** counselor once and one day I just had nothing to say... and I was questioning whether I was ready for counseling and she basically said I was wasting her time and then she basically walked me out the door of the house which I already knew my way out anyways. She was just being a *****.

Last edited by Erti; Mar 28, 2014 at 06:08 AM.
  #928  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 06:11 AM
punkybrewster6k's Avatar
punkybrewster6k punkybrewster6k is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: Oct 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 1,670
wow. Thats horrible!
  #929  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 06:19 AM
Erti's Avatar
Erti Erti is offline
Princess Tutu
 
Member Since: Jun 2011
Location: Nowhere
Posts: 7,913
Which makes you wonder why people like that decided to go into the profession anyways. But don't be scared because there are good ones out there too. Just got to find them.
Thanks for this!
punkybrewster6k
  #930  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 06:40 AM
junkDNA's Avatar
junkDNA junkDNA is offline
Comfy Sedation
 
Member Since: Sep 2012
Location: the woods
Posts: 19,305
didnt sleep much and voices are here. get my shot today. one time T meant to text me "youll get your shot tomorrow" but he wrote "youll get your **** tomorrow" i thought that was funny. he said it was auto correct. well im just waiting to get my shot so the voices will go away. i meet T this afternoon. maybe we will play cards
__________________
Thanks for this!
Gr3tta, punkybrewster6k
  #931  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 06:47 AM
Erti's Avatar
Erti Erti is offline
Princess Tutu
 
Member Since: Jun 2011
Location: Nowhere
Posts: 7,913
Quote:
Originally Posted by junkDNA View Post
didnt sleep much and voices are here. get my shot today. one time T meant to text me "youll get your shot tomorrow" but he wrote "youll get your **** tomorrow" i thought that was funny. he said it was auto correct. well im just waiting to get my shot so the voices will go away. i meet T this afternoon. maybe we will play cards
Hopefully the voices will go away after your shot and hopefully your T appointment goes well.
Thanks for this!
junkDNA
  #932  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 07:03 AM
junkDNA's Avatar
junkDNA junkDNA is offline
Comfy Sedation
 
Member Since: Sep 2012
Location: the woods
Posts: 19,305
thanks erti. i hope so too
__________________
  #933  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 07:32 AM
punkybrewster6k's Avatar
punkybrewster6k punkybrewster6k is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: Oct 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 1,670
Hope all goes well for you today Junkdna...
Thanks for this!
junkDNA
  #934  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 07:37 AM
junkDNA's Avatar
junkDNA junkDNA is offline
Comfy Sedation
 
Member Since: Sep 2012
Location: the woods
Posts: 19,305
well now i have to meet with pdoc and T at 3. hes prob gonna change my meds. crap!
__________________
Hugs from:
Erti, Gr3tta, Sometimes psychotic
  #935  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 07:48 AM
Sometimes psychotic's Avatar
Sometimes psychotic Sometimes psychotic is offline
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: Chicago
Posts: 26,427
PunkyB glad you are back!
__________________
Hugs!
Hugs from:
punkybrewster6k
Thanks for this!
punkybrewster6k
  #936  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 07:57 AM
Erti's Avatar
Erti Erti is offline
Princess Tutu
 
Member Since: Jun 2011
Location: Nowhere
Posts: 7,913
Here's a good song for anyone who's hospitalized for a mental illness

Thanks for this!
punkybrewster6k
  #937  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 08:00 AM
Atypical_Disaster's Avatar
Atypical_Disaster Atypical_Disaster is offline
Elder
 
Member Since: Mar 2011
Location: Nowhere noteworthy.
Posts: 7,145
Punky, it's good to see you! Sorry things got so messy, I hope that Bean gets to feeling better soon.
Hugs from:
punkybrewster6k
Thanks for this!
punkybrewster6k
  #938  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 10:05 AM
Anonymous100103
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
((((PUNKY)))) So HAPPY to see you back! I've been so worried about you and Bean! I'm so very sorry that hospital did that to y'all! Very frustrating!!!! I am so glad Bean is in a better place getting the help that she needs now. Catch up on reading all that you missed in Roll Call. You'll see where we all talked about you several times. I'm so very happy you are back!!!!
Hugs from:
punkybrewster6k
Thanks for this!
punkybrewster6k
  #939  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 10:19 AM
faerie_moon_x's Avatar
faerie_moon_x faerie_moon_x is offline
Elder
 
Member Since: Nov 2011
Location: I live in my head. :P
Posts: 6,358
Punky!! You're back! Yay!
__________________


Hugs from:
punkybrewster6k
Thanks for this!
punkybrewster6k
  #940  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 10:20 AM
Anonymous100103
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
Roll Call 20
Thanks for this!
Atypical_Disaster, cybermember, Erti, faerie_moon_x
  #941  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 10:46 AM
faerie_moon_x's Avatar
faerie_moon_x faerie_moon_x is offline
Elder
 
Member Since: Nov 2011
Location: I live in my head. :P
Posts: 6,358
Punky, I just read your post about Bean. I'm so sorry things went so bad at that first hospital. I'm glad she's in a good place now. I know it must be so hard to not have here there. I'm really glad she has a good doctor, though.

I'm glad you went to see your T and you like her. It will get easier now that you've met her.
__________________


  #942  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 12:24 PM
punkybrewster6k's Avatar
punkybrewster6k punkybrewster6k is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: Oct 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 1,670
Thanks everyone. Its good to be back. I missed you all terribly but had so much going on and crazyness and, and, and omg....so much.
You ever feel like ur in hole your trying to climb out of but someone put grease on the sides? yea. It feels like there is no end in site financially, mentally, everything. Trying to stay positive and mentally healthy lately. sheesh. I have been having some downright serious panic attacks. I sure hope they ease up soon. Its horrible. debilitating.

so yes. Im sorry for being gone so long and it feels goood to be back.
Hugs from:
Anonymous100205, Atypical_Disaster, faerie_moon_x, Sometimes psychotic
Thanks for this!
Atypical_Disaster, Sometimes psychotic
  #943  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 12:48 PM
junkDNA's Avatar
junkDNA junkDNA is offline
Comfy Sedation
 
Member Since: Sep 2012
Location: the woods
Posts: 19,305
T ate lunch with me. listening to music with no words calms the voices down. my friend farted on me at lunch in front of T i was like gross. ur gross. it smelled bad. T was like O_O
i felt bad for him
__________________
Thanks for this!
punkybrewster6k
  #944  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 01:05 PM
Anonymous59893
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
Quote:
Originally Posted by Gr3tta View Post
Its a non-sleeping pill night, so i will be probably be up awhile.
How does that work, if you don't mind me asking? Do you only take them when you have work the next day?? Why don't you take them every night? I haven't really been taking mine because I feel like I don't deserve to sleep, plus I'm worried about people coming in when I'm asleep so I've been locking my bedroom door at night and not taking my sleeping tablet. If you don't want to answer, I apologise for being nosy

Quote:
Originally Posted by punkybrewster6k View Post
Beans hospitalization was a disaster. She was there 10 days and they changed her meds. She told them she was seeing and hearing things and they told her "no your not".

They did not put her on clozaril. Instead, they gave her to a new T who said she was faking and blamed me and my husband for her vivid imagination. We told them she was not ready to come home and they said she was. SHE said something is wrong in her head and she could not come home. The T said 'you are ready to go home'. The Pdoc there Dx her ADHD and anxiety and sent her home on zyprexa and tenex.

Can you believe this?????
We get in the car, I try to call her pdoc that she sees at home but cant get hold of him to tell him what just happened. The whole way home she is crying and saying she cant live like this any more. She doesnt want to live. She is yelling that she needs to go back. That she cant go home yet.

We get home and she is still doing it and is suicidal. Poor Bean has never been suicidal. I brought her to the ER and they admitted her when they heard what happened. She is now at the State Hospital in Binghamton. Childrens section. She has this nice Indian Pdoc in there and when I told her what her 'new' Dx was, and how they tried to blame us for her illness, he slammed his fist on the table. lol

Anyway.....she will be there at least 3 weeks and they want to begin the clozaril. Sadly, I have to agree. I am so tired of my baby suffering. This is the short story because I hate typing for a long time. I miss my Bean and have been crying for DAYS.

I have to tell you. When your child is sick like this and some ignorant doctor comes along and tries to point a finger at the parents, it is the most devastating thing to ever happen you. Thankfully, we got her to a place that understands. This new pdoc says this is normal and happens time to time and to have a tough skin.
I dont have tough skin...but im learning to.

I have also learned to make sure that any doctor who is caring for my child has to be experienced and trained about schizophrenia and psychosis. That is an absolute. Because if they are not experienced with it, this is what happens.

So NOW, she is on her way to feeling better.Funny. The hospital that has been so good for her the 3 other times she was there changed all their staff this last time and turned into the hospital from h.e.l.l.....It is very sad. And the hospital that I did not want her to even go near- the state hospital- ends up being not so scary. They are actually nice. I am totally humbled. And thankful.

But now she is almost 2 hours in the opposite direction.(sigh)
No gas. I hate my life right now.
So good to hear from you Punky! Sorry about what happened at the first hospital to Bean. That's basically what happened to me: they said there was nothing wrong with me, stopped all my meds, which made me feel invalidated and suicidal again (which was what I'd been admitted with, but had begun to dissipate) and they kicked me out without even asking if I was suicidal at all

But I'm glad that Bean is at a different hospital now with better staff. Hopefully she'll feel better and be home soon. Sucks you can't visit though

Quote:
Originally Posted by junkDNA View Post
well now i have to meet with pdoc and T at 3. hes prob gonna change my meds. crap!
Good luck!

*Willow*
Hugs from:
Anonymous100205, punkybrewster6k
Thanks for this!
punkybrewster6k
  #945  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 01:12 PM
punkybrewster6k's Avatar
punkybrewster6k punkybrewster6k is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: Oct 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 1,670
I thought of you willow when it happened.
It was horrible.
  #946  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 01:22 PM
Anonymous59893
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
Quote:
Originally Posted by punkybrewster6k View Post
I thought of you willow when it happened.
It was horrible.
Yeah it is pretty horrible for me too, but at least now the inpatient staff are on the same page as you and her outpatient pdoc. I wish I could see Uni pdoc instead... :/

In other news, I'm trying to work up the courage to make a GP appt so that I can ask him to cut out the tracker because it's stressing me out. But I'm scared that the CMHT will have poisoned him against me and he'll think I'm making it up :/

*Willow*
Hugs from:
Anonymous100205, punkybrewster6k
Thanks for this!
punkybrewster6k
  #947  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 01:43 PM
newtus's Avatar
newtus newtus is offline
The Dopamine Flux
 
Member Since: Jun 2010
Location: Ardenweald
Posts: 43,644
hey punky glad to see your back. sorry to hear about bean. that breaks my heart.

i had another panic attack in the middle of the night and called my mom because my dad was alseep and my sister wasnt texting me back. she didnt do too good of job calming me down but my sis texted me back and helped me. my moms a last resort. but anyway im getting lots of calls from my extended family saying they cant wait to see me in cali.
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com


Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

Hugs from:
Anonymous100205, Atypical_Disaster, faerie_moon_x, punkybrewster6k
Thanks for this!
punkybrewster6k
  #948  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 02:36 PM
faerie_moon_x's Avatar
faerie_moon_x faerie_moon_x is offline
Elder
 
Member Since: Nov 2011
Location: I live in my head. :P
Posts: 6,358
Quote:
Originally Posted by junkDNA View Post
T ate lunch with me. listening to music with no words calms the voices down. my friend farted on me at lunch in front of T i was like gross. ur gross. it smelled bad. T was like O_O
i felt bad for him
I have a really clear image of this and it made me laugh... It reminds me of my boys. Is your friend a boy?

Newtus: I'm sorry you had a panic attack again. Is it nerves taht you're traveling? It's good they are excited to see you. I bet everything will go great!
__________________


  #949  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 02:56 PM
punkybrewster6k's Avatar
punkybrewster6k punkybrewster6k is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: Oct 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 1,670
Quote:
Originally Posted by junkDNA View Post
T ate lunch with me. listening to music with no words calms the voices down. my friend farted on me at lunch in front of T i was like gross. ur gross. it smelled bad. T was like O_O
i felt bad for him
This is too funny!
  #950  
Old Mar 28, 2014, 02:56 PM
punkybrewster6k's Avatar
punkybrewster6k punkybrewster6k is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: Oct 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 1,670
(((HUGS)))Newtus
Reply
Views: 50604

attentionThis is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.




All times are GMT -5. The time now is 11:13 AM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2025, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.




 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.