Roll Call 21

going to bed. send me good vibes tomorrow at 10am!!!!!! im excited and hopeful

Thanks everyone for all your support She made it through the operation and my Dad has seen her and she says she's ok, though is understandably groggy. He's on his way home now cos it's gone 3am. Am keeping my fingers crossed that her recovery goes smoothly.

Good luck JunkDNA!

*Willow*

@sometimesp - i didnt mean to derail from your original question. I hope what i said was okay. I always really want to jump into all the diet and weight discussions but i try really hard to hold my fingers! (Hold my tongue, only typing)
It always sounds like you have a lot of fun cooking and baking. And like you are very talented too! You should get all the kitchen toys you want.

Yes I'm on risperdal and I have gained weight, but I also have bad eating habits so I'm not sure of the risperdal is to blame. When I used to go to the gym I lost a lot of pounds, but I gained it back since I've been binge eating on sweets a lot and no longer go to the gym. Since it's getting nicer out I will be exercising outdoors so hopefully I can shed some pounds. I'm not overweight, but I used to have abs and lost them so that's kind of sad.

Nope all good I decided not to get the juicer right away though because of a few things...storage space for one...but also nutrition wise the juices I was looking at don't seem to have sufficient protein and so are mostly carbs which seems like you would be up and down all day energy wise plus being a lot of fruit sugar it would probably cause GI distress there is a juice caused issue in kids from time to time. Also my younger sister tried a cleanse and ended up with the aforementioned GI distress so it seems like a poor choice. I'm thinking about making a few more subtle changes to my diet first after all it should be lifestyle changes and not really something that will just be short term. Basically on the order of less dessert and more real food.

Not so good night. I got stressed from a conversation with my aunts, and I was already tired from waking up at 6 (it's now 1:30 am) and stress+tiredness=voices. I think they (the voices, not my aunts) are trying to trick me into killing myself so that I take their secrets to the grave. I've definitely told the docs too much.

Fortunately right now I'm a lot stronger than them and I'm not going to let that happen, but it does get stressful...

Willow that's great, hope your mam will be fine now.

Good luck for today Junk

Work is almost over and I can't wait to go to bed. I'm coming off my episode so now I'm lacking less energy. If my landlord isn't home in the morning I will take a shower since I haven't washed my hair in several weeks.

Think my depot is wearing off gradually getting worse. Jaw is still shaking tho so don't get it. Donnie darko is one of my favourite films I watched it recently and people say I shouldn't watch stuff like that when I'm 'not well'

@willow glad your mum came through hope she recovers well
@blackwhitered sorry your struggling

It's hard getting showered when you have no motivation hope you feel nice if you manage to get one

That's kind of what I thought when my son was watching it, but I don't think I told him that.

i think i got the job!!! i just have to go to spartanburg to pass the drug test and background check. she said when she gets the info back at the end of the week i can probably get started! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy!

i know ill pass the drug test because the program im in has tested me every week and the weed is finally out of my system. hurray!!!

Well I got some sleep. I'm outta one of my sleep meds, it's just an old school antidepressant, but I was taking large amounts. Last night I didn't need to take as much.

I went to my sisters yesterday. It was good but I was feeling all paranoid and like I was in a dream. We went to the store and I feel like everyone knows I'm bp. I know rationally that's not true, but when I get all paranoid that's what I think.

It was good though my nephews, who are 25 and23 are still living at home while their going through college. Anyway one of their cats recently died. So they got two more kittens, they were so cute.

I hope everyone is doing ok.

I'm so excited for you! That's great news!

thanx! im really excited. im waiting for my mom to put some gas money in my account so i can go there today and get it done. im so happy!! the interview was really short. like 10 minutes. she just asked about me and i told her im 26, where i live, that i go to school part time and i used to work at walmart for the holidays. she asked what i did at walmart and i said i ran a cash register and bagged items. she said thats what ill be doing there. (its a grocery store). i told her i was familiar with the cash register and customer service. i wasnt really all that nervous so i think i came across confident. but when i left i tried to go out the in door. i prob looked stupid. oh well lol

I wouldn't worry about it. Everyone makes that mistake. I'm so excited for u, is this ur first job?

no ive worked at a pizza restaurant, and 2 grocery stores and wal mart. but i only put walmart on my resume because i quit on the spot at my old jobs. she asked if walmart was my only job and i lied and said yes.

A little white lie. My son is out looking for a job too. It's really hard to find a job around here. I'm really happy for you.

Congratulations Junkdna! Sounds like you got the job!

Willow, Im glad your mum made it well through surgery. What a stressful night!

Way to go junkDNA!!!! That's awesome news

That's fantastic!

I'm sitting here watching Perry Mason. One of the characters has split personality. Mason puts a psychiatrist on the stand to testify that she has schizophrenia. He defines schizophrenia as a dissociative condition commonly referred to as split personality.

What!! Ok Perry mason was made when? A little out dated I would say, lol.