Roll Call 24

its almost overweight. and im still gaining. ......i was 105 last year....thats my goal again...or 100

see to me that sounds really small

Yeah I have to say it's harder than I thought...I never had to lose weight before this...I was doing ok when I was eating light but in order to function well at the conference last week I made these awesome pressed sandwiches and I'm up by a couple of pounds at least...and I'm not even on meds...so I gained two weeks worth of losses back in one week...that hardly seems fair...

It's not fair though that we have to take these stupid meds cos of an illness AND then we get side effects like weight gain etc. as if it's not bad enough already

ok so work was ok. but uhhh wtf? todays the second time i had to stay later because my replacement didnt show up and didnt call. WTF? they wrote a note on the schedule that said if ur a no call no show u get written up. ummmm i would expect to be fired? they are either really tolerable or really desperate.

T texted me and said happy mothers day, you are becoming a very good mother to ur inner child.

lol. therapists. :P

thats how small ive always been. i ONLY gained weight because of the meds. so its not me. its the meds. im very short. 5 ft 2.

im out of sleeping meds. :/

im soo drunkk

Careful with the drinks Newtus. Imma drink too.

im so sorry i wish i could delete that...

i got really drunk and threw up. in front of my dad. everything went south.

Hi....I am sort of new here I just dont come on much.am I allowed to post in here?not sure if this is just a thread 4 people who know each other or something..not trying to intrude.I just kind of need some sort of support now.I got diagnosed with schizophrenia/paranoid type along with 2 other problems and I am just losing my mind over here.I am on these new meds haldol and prozac and I really dont want to take them I feel so floored by this its like being given a heavy blow.tbh I might not even take these meds at all,thinking about trashing them but is that the wrong thing to do?I feel so lost in all of this..

Sorry nevermind maybe I should not have posted on this thread.....I just dont have many friends and want to talk with other people who will understand me.you dont have to reply to me if you dont feel like it.

You can post here, Lilly. You probably won't get a lot of replies at 3 a.m., but you're welcome here. I'm awake because of a thunderstorm. I'm going to try to go back to sleep now, so I probably won't be able to reply right away.

Make yourself at home. There are plenty of people here who can empathize with you. My names Jessica. How the hell are ya?

Hi Lillybird,
You can talk to me, I'm a very good listener!

You're more than welcome to post here. Jump right in and talk to us!

a lot of panic and anxiety right now. my bank acct is minus money in it. so i have no money for anything. i made a mistake and spent 500 something dollars on college classes and told no one and my dad is mad because he thinks im not ready for school. i dont think im ready either thats why i backed out of it. now im waiting for a refund that idk if its gonna even come to me. i dont have enough money to pay for this therapist. its like 24 dollars and i dont have ANY money. im minus in my account. i dont even have that much gas in my car so i cant go anywhere.

on top of that im nervous about this therapist. i see him tomrrow (im just gonna have to use my debit and pray it goes through) and pay the bank back later. next month when i get my disability check in.

im hearing voices and music right now. and my paranoia is kinda bad. i keep thikning the police are gonna come after me. and special agents and fbi. and lock me up.

Sorry your struggling newtus can't think of any good advice atm but thinking of you

thank you

Newtus did you call the college like I suggested to you the other day? If you call them and ask about your refund they should be able to tell you what's going on with it

I really didn't want to leave the flat today. But I had to. Walking the dog is a stressful nightmare. I almost started running. I just can't shake off the feeling that I have a stalker. And leaving the flat is dangerous. They tell me it's all in my head. But I swear it's real.

i did. they said its in processing and will take 10 buisness days. but its been 7 already. im really stressed out and made a HUGE mistake.

im thinking about seeing that old therapist again. im just too attached

We all make mistakes hun. Please don't beat yourself up over it. Just keep watching your mailbox for the check to come in. Could your dad loan you the money to get some gasoline in your car and to pay for your appt? Then when you get your refund back you can pay him back.

i suppose i could. he does trust me with money because ive always paid him back and never been that kid that steals money. thing is he doesnt have much either and i hate to bother him. i have gas just only enough to goto this appointment. i dont think this T takes cash so i would need like 100 bucks to pay for my defunct bank acct AND the T. plus i still owe my dad 200 in rent. if i have to pay him back AND wait til next month then thats 500 i gotta pay my dad because 2 months rent plus the 100 he loaned me