Roll Call 34

Reality check people often do judge other people subconsciously but I'm judging you an awesome person who's dealing with some terrible garbage....

thank u sometimesp. i am coming to terms that maybe some of the things i am thinking right now are not valid. its just really confusing. thanks for that

Tech support in a call centre, I've heard nothing but negatives about working in a call centre so I'm super nervous but it's only short term. I had planned to go back to college this September after taking a year out but nothing really has changed in the past year, I haven't been doing anything and my health is the same. I figured if I can work for a year, try get back to normal then I'll be ready for college next year.

I've always worked and it can't be much worse than retail so going to go for it Besides, I'm a techie and do computing in college so at least it's somewhat related.

Anyone any experience of working in a call centre?

I can't speak for anyone else but I'm not judging you in any negative type of way, people will judge but it doesn't have to be negative. Or is that the definition of judging? I'm not sure. All I know is I find your posts very interesting and it's good to know I'm not alone, you also seem to have the best T going so gives me hope that they do exist

im not judging you junkdna. we are all here by your side. you have the best therapist ive ever seen.

thanks guys.

my T applied to take medicare and if he is accepted my therapy will be covered. so he will be making more than 12 dollars a session from me. i hope he gets accepted

i got a little sunburned from walking around outside with T today. i need to be careful. skin cancer runs in my family. it is what killed my dad

I'm not judging you. I just had a crying spell. Sometimes I do get triggered on here. I wish I had a therapist I could count on. My family wants to see me and I feel way too unstable. Man, I cried hard. My family just doesn't understand. Like u guys understand the mental illness part. But I really think I had that psychotic break bc I just couldn't take it anymore. I've been through so much trauma. Even before I was forced into that organization. I just wish I could be normal and hold a job, feel safe in the world, feel loved. I've got to learn to love myself I think is what it all comes down to. Oh life can be so hard sometimes.

Now I'm feeling judged and paranoid. I think I need a break from pc. Bc I feel a mixed state happening. ****, idk what to do. I guess take more risperdal and gain more weight. Life sucks and then u die.

its ok sunshine. we are listening to you and i dont think we are judging you into negativity. we dont wanna see you take a break from us but if you feel you need to then you can

but im currently going to weight watchers fory haldol weight gain

I was just looking at these trees trying to decide if they were more beautiful for having struggled or if life was entirely unfair to them. What do you think? I think they are like us....

i see it as life being unfair to them. look at them. they are hanging on with every inch of life they have. made them bend backward

I'm not judging you.

That's just it...they were on the front page of reddit, people find them beautiful but I feel sorry for them....I used to like bonsai type trees but sometimes I see them as tortured now....

****. I'm bad at feelings but I hope you get better soon...

i gave in and smoked a real cigarette. all this news just has me swamped with feelings.

i Actually have a migraine now because im stressed about everything thats going on.
ugh i feel nauseaous like im gonna be sick to my stomach...

Finally made it home yesterday! I thought I had everything done before I left. I know for a fact I emptied the fridge.But there was two milks in there. One ruint and the other was not even open. It's like goldilocks and three bears had been living in my house. lol

I'm always seeing emotions in trees. Thank you for such a great picture.... I believe they are more beautiful

Sorry to hear. Getting same treatment from most my family. I'm supposed to accept them for who they are, but that won't reciprocate . That d::Facebook is nothin but a divider of family's and friends

Wow J.D. I thought I had a coin on that market. My family has had it in for me ever since I've had this dis-ease. They either won't or can't. I know how awful it feels to be the receiver of being looked down on. I'm the black sheep in my family affair. Words tare at my heart that's bare and they don't care if i share they lay a lair for me their blood folk.

Yes..it's the struggle that makes all beautiful.

I've posted several times. No replies guess everyone gone to bed.

my moms been drinking tonight and started accusing me of things about my sisters wedding again. im so sick of this. i had a bad day today and sick of all this crap. god. makes me wanna cuss at someone.

I've been noticing a lot of these really weird contrails today.. They didn't even look like contrails they looked like some kind of white gas. The rate of which it was coming out was irregular, and the planes were to close to ground to make contrails. Also, all the planes were red. What was the deal with that? Could they have been spraying mind control gas?